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disabled abuse survivor in need of financial aid

( date of writing: 9.29.2021 )

tired of making posts about this but i'm also tired of financially struggling. i'm an autistic and adhd developmental trauma/abuse survivor with multiple undiagnosed/untreated physical conditions (eds/ghsd, pots, chronic inflammation, etc.) that are currently making my life hell because getting said diagnosis and treatment is taking too long. my bf and i are both working full-time but can hardly afford anything other than bills since we moved away from his violently abusive family and into our own apartment.

we need help with paying said bills, plus:

groceries/food

furniture

cleaning supplies

gas money

pet care/vet bills

car repairs

household repairs

laundromat money

medication

eventual trauma therapy

credit card bills

( at the time of writing this, i'm still trying to raise some money for a wheelchair as well for when stuff is really bad but i have to leave the house and my cane doesn't do enough. )

working 30-40 hours a week (at a manual labor job, no less) is taking a huge toll on me due to illness and i have spent the majority of this year trying to get help without much progress. between work, stuff for classes, and being too sick / in pain / tired to do much either than lay in bed, i don't have the time or energy or physical capability to take care of myself (eating enough food, bathing, etc.) or take care of our apartment. i'm working on becoming a full-time artist when i can and i am currently accepting commissions and offering other some other services. otherwise, i'm also accepting donations:

p*ypal.me/sardonicdoll

v*nmo: @IthelLovik

c*shapp: $IthelLovik

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I've been feeling really badly recently. For some context I'm in my firmest semester at uni and I have got like good but not excellent grades, and this week, I mean yesterday, I got two news, first m, I must do my chemistry exam which I was hoping to exempt, but I didn't, and not only that, but also I wrote an email to my teacher and the teacher assistant cause I didn't get all the score I should have gotten in one of my answers of a test, but the assistant said that I was wrong and he corrected everything all right in my test, and just because he's a little piece of shut I will have to do the chemistry test. Second, I got my linear algebra grade and I got 70/100, so is not that bad, but a friend of mine told me he got a 100, in that moment I felt really down, because its like everything in my life the past months and even years feels like I can't be good enough, like the things I do are not perfect enough or my mind is not perfect or my thoughts or anything, and I the only way I don't feel like this is been the best or almost the best, cause is like i can never be the best, like I can't get to that high point where I do things in an extremely good form. Its so exhausting feeling like this, like you can never ve good enough, that you can't get people to notice you or if is bit about people noticing you is that I feel like I can't be as good as those who ate close to me, I can't be as good as them.

I got diagnosed with depression a few months ago and I was feeling really good, but the past weeks it feels like I've been slowing down, as if my mind my feeling my thoughts are being really slow and I can't do anything to motivate myself. I've tried texting to some people from school and uni m, but they don't answer at the moment (what i mean is when I'm feeling like talking or in a good mood) and when they do im really down and not wanting to test anybody cause I'm studying or im too down, for example I have this friend that I've known for 12 years and I haven't seen her since the beginning of the pandemic, but when she takes sooo long to reply to my messages, and it feels like everyone does, and I'm so tired of feeling lonely or people like ignoring me, I know I'm not the centre of the universe but it feels utterly sad and awful, the sensation that you are completely alone and there's no one there for you and your parents can't understand you, my mom can't understand these feelings and my dad is so isolated from the world that you can't talk to him without him saying "I feel better alone" I don't wanna be alone, I don't, but is like I am and I hate it... and I can't stop thinking that I shouldt feel this way and that nobody can gear me crying or see me sad... im so scared and afraid of showing my feelings, is like they are so wrong and I don't know what to do or feel

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my status is comprised of three modes; active, hiatus, and offline.

[active] - I am online and currently working on/taking requests and whatnot.

[hiatus] - I am online, but I am taking a short break from writing and am just simply enjoying the app/am catching up with mutuals/friends.

[offline] - no longer taking any requests and no longer active on this account (this one is not going to be set into motion for a long time, don't worry lol).

𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐞𝐭/𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐞?

nope ! maybe one day, I will. but for now, I run solely on motivation, inspiration, and vibes✨️/ᐠ•˕•マ.

𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨 𝐭𝐮𝐭𝐬?

yes, I do ! er, I can, if asked, of course :). like, if you wanted me to show you how I make my collages, or how I do something specific in an edit I made/posted, then yes, I could do a tutorial for that for you.

𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐮𝐚𝐠𝐞?

this one is a little harder/complex to explain on my own, but for those who are totally and completely new to fanfic (hi, I can't believe you're starting on my account😭), I bet you're confused asf with some of the terms and stuff.

𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨 𝐥𝐠𝐛𝐭𝐪+ 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠?

I know I was when I first started out, so to help you out without you having to figure it out all on your own, here's a link to a page that explains all of the terms I personally use, how I use them, and what they mean :).

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𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞... ! ...this is a guide that I have made that will help you decipher all of my little fanfic, edit, and shifting terms. keep in min

yes, if I didn't make that clear enough, I can, do, and will.

𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥/𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠/𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤?

in the sense that I don't use other people's words/a.i? Yes, it's all me. my writing, words, all of it.

in the sense that I make/create original stories and stuff like that? yes, I do, I write all kinds of stuff, not just fanfic lol.

𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤/𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐬?

yes, you can ! hit that repost button 'til your heart is content.

what you may NOT do is copy/paste my work onto other platforms/apps/websites, or claim something I created is your own or just not credit me at all. don't do to someone what you wouldn't want to happen to you.

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