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Can't wait to lose weight 💕

y'all I'm literally so clever for thinking of that omg 😝

this is literally the most basic fit on earth but whatever 😓

also I don't actually have a thigh gap I'm just doing the thing where I lean forward lol

why does my face look so weird 😭

what are your ways to punish yourself when you binge or eat more than you want to? besides the basic starving,binging more lol, purging and stuff. like unconventional ways or something

I think about it so much when I eat more, it's all I think about for hours and I really wanna sh and stuff but I also like deprive myself of stuff I like too, just things I like to do.

I'm just curious what weird stuff other gorgeous but ed girls do

i hate how different my thighs look when I sit down vs standing up

IT LOOKS DECIVINGLY LIKE I ALMOST HAVE A THIGH GAP BUT THEN WHEN I SIT DOWN THEY RUB TOGETHER AND ITS SO BADDDDDDD

YALL IF YOU WANT TO BE TRIGGERED GO WAYCH ONCE UPON A TIME IN HOLLYWOOD OMFG

there's some hippies in it and they are all like so so pretty AND thin omg I just like to look at thinspo pictures I think they're just so nice but they just give me a vague feeling of want BUT THIS MOVIE MOTIVATED ME LIKE HELL 😭😭😭😭

idk why the pose is weird but like the outfits are bomb in the movie too

can't wait 2 go over 2 my dad's and get skinny shamed <3 like yasss promote my Ed tysmmmm, father 👏 of👏 the 👏 year 👏

NOT WEIGHING YOURSELF ACTUALLY WORKS BC I WENT LIKE TWO MONTHS WITHOUT CHECKING AND I WENT FROM 118 LBS TO 113 (ik its not a lot but i cant go to the gym and my mom makes really fatty dinners)

Jak nie możesz stać się ładniejsza to stan się chud$za I mądrzejsza 🩻❄️🦴

IM SO HAPPY I ATE ONLY AROUND 500 CALS TODAY !!!

(i would have eaten less but it is so hard to get around eating when in recovery 😭

Im currently at 42-43 kg (it alternates because yk im in recovery so its acc so hard to starve or purge now)

AND I WAS AT 39 KG !!! LIKE TWO AWAY FROM MY UGW BUT HAUFDAUHWHFEF FUCKING THERAPY SNITCHED ON ME >:[

I'm okay eating with my family, even if I prefer to be by myself. But I fucking hate eating around others, even with friends it's difficult. So I'm fucking enraged that my sister's stupid boyfriend - who I absolutely hate, anyway - keeps eating with us. I like neither my sister nor him and them makes it so difficult because they always have me sit next to either of them.

I fucking hate myself guys

It's the start of Easter break now and like any rational person I ditched all my plans and binged the first day and today as well

If I skip dinner and work out though I can probably do at least some kind of damage control (because I've eaten about 2000 calories now which is really fucking awful) and I can get my steps in as well... I'm just so disappointed in myself, because I was prepared for having my intake be a bit higher during the holidays, because sometimes when I have to eat with my family it just can't be avoided, but not like this, seriously

Anyway, looking forward I guess because I've already fucked shit up I can't change anyway 🥲

Now I WOULD definitely OMAD a bottle of wine

I thought I WANTED a proper balanced meal filling me up, getting rid of the headache and dizziness and giving me energy.

Turns out all I NEEDED was some coffee and a sf Monster

My food scale's batteries went empty and I don't think we have the right ones at home so I can't change them right away 😭

What am I supposed to doooo now I just wanna count my cals

Soooo these busy days I mentioned are over and I have in fact reached my lowest weight since summer! It's probably not that impressive but I am incredibly happy still. (And yes, I am in fact absolutely drained but I did have fun, I'm just so tired now 🥲)

Now I have this Sunday to get through, then a week of school when restricting will be easy of course, but then I'll have two weeks off due to Eastern....

I guess I'll really have to bury myself in work and exercise then and not give myself the chance to eat anything besides the meals I'll have to eat with my family.

Breakfast I should always be able to skip, dinner too I could say I take to my room to eat there because of school work or something, and then lunch I'll just have to always help preparing so I know exactly what we'll eat and so I can make at least my serving lower in calories.

Maybe I'll also have to resort to the sad Pinterest ana meals with half a cucumber and egg whites, because my parents don't seem to know an awful lot about nutrition, and as long as I eat anything they tend to not raise an eyebrow.

(No hate on these kind of meals, they're really a game changer, but since I tend to do OMAD and a small snack, I just really like to make my meals more colorful and more interesting)

I'll also have more time to exercise, then I know of two days on which I can fast, because we'll be travelling to my Grandma, and for a couple of days only my Dad and I will be home, and I have a feeling that will make not eating/eating low-cal meals even easier.

(Partly because the chance someone is going to be in the kitchen when I want to measure out my food will be lower lol)

The next few days are going to be incredibly busy for me, but that's awesome because I'll literally won't have time to eat :D

I'm not going to try and fast though, because I will need the energy

It started today with me having to stay at school until 6pm (🥲) because of choir practice, tomorrow I'll have to leave almost right after school to play at a concert (I know I'll barely have time to change and maybe practice the pieces one last time)

And on Saturday I'll have singing stuff from 8am to 4pm

Both crying and laughing right now because I know I'll be DRAINED when all this is over, but I won't be around my parents to watch me eat, I won't be at home with all the binge food and I'll probably be to busy to even think about eating anything, hopefully

As I mentioned though, I will be having dinner, because it's the only time I'll be around my parents and I will really need that energy

So, I tend to make self-deprecating jokes (I try not to, but sometimes when I feel especially bad they do slip out a lot)

But when I was about to make one, my one friend just told me (I can't tell if she was annoyed or rather angry, to be honest) to "quit with these fucking jokes" and yeah. I get my friends are done with me, but that still almost made me cry

Sooo I did successfully get around eating my Dad's birthday cake, because my entire family kind if overslept and I said I'd take a piece to school with me since I'm in such a rush

Yeah, I'm obviously not gonna eat it, but I'm so happy I got around it 😅

Hello!

I'm E. I kind of got a lot of interests and then none at all, but my hobbies are music (especially Cello and singing), art sometimes, science, movies and shows, Hermitcraft and my ed.

It's what I'll be posting about mainly, so dni if you aren't fine with seeing content about eating disorders. I'll probably talk about self harm as well.

By the way, my languages are English and German, so even though I'd say I'm relatively fluent in English, errors can still happen, soooo do be forgiving I guess :)

This is a shitty intro post and I might update it later, but I'm lazy af so who knows if that'll actually ever happen.

Always looking for mutuals! :D

Stats below cut

Height: 173 cm (5.8ft)

Hw/Sw: 70.4kg (155lbs)

Cw: 65.6kg (144lbs)

Gw: 65.0kg (143lbs)

Gw: 60.0kg (132lbs)

Gw: 55.5kg (122lbs)

Gw: 50.0kg (110lbs)

Let me know if I messed up with the imperial units lol

not a day goes by w/o monster <33

this one is my fav, n it only has 10 cals ^^

my intro !!!

charlie!!

they/them [non-binary, afab]

pan aroace [demiromantic+aceflux]

in a relationship!! my amazing dear darling wife: @vodozemacc350

teen [not comfortable w sharing my age, but my age range is 13-16]

4nor3xia, depression, anxiety, sh add1ct (cvtter) + other undiagnosed mental health illnesses (undiagnosed autism n borderline personality disorder)

im chronically ill, but i dont like talking abt it a lot

i talk a lot abt my sh n 4nor3xia, so if u feel uncomf w seeing that, block me, dont report

scene + indie

please use tonetags 4 me ToT

my dms r open, talk to me please TvT

u can ask if u want any of my other social

DNI LIST:

p3dos, z00s, any other ___phile (this is a kinda-dni, im ok w interacting w u as long as u dont say/do anything bad bcz i have trauma from multiple p4rapl1les i met in the past)

h0mophobes, r4cists, tr4nsphobes, m1sogynist, ect.

ESPECIALLY trump supporters

fandoms:

arcane

mouthwashing

pjo

hp

icp

fear street [both books n movies]

mlp

sally face

scream

+ many more that i dont remember rn-

my 4n4 info!!

hw/sw: 45 kg

cw: 44.6 kg

gw1: 42 kg

gw2: 40 kg

ugw: 38kg

thatz it <3 bye ^^

my first meal of the day lmao

i also ate a kinder pinguin which my friend forced me to eat </3