Cutely Skips Day 6 Because I Realized That My F/O Has No Color Palette To Draw From :pensive:

more vent below the cut, see warnings

The passive suicidal ideation that comes with having a physical disability is hard. I'm sure I'm not the only person who feels this way. I grew up with an ever-increasing pain tolerance due to my condition to the point where ripping nails from my nailbeds became Just One of My Habits, because it hurt less than my condition, and having my nailbed be deformed anyways before that habit formed certainly didn't help. I was the kid who always tried in sports, even if I was never athletic. I was the kid who got an A's, even when going to school was exhausting and painful and, to be honest, I was and still am really convinced that my inherent worth is attributed to what work I can produce. In all the jobs I've worked, I've done what I could, even if it wasn't...Enough. In moment like these, where my head is clouded with exhaustion and I lay in bed, in too much pain to do anything but tap my achey and tingly fingers on a keyboard as every movement sends sharp stinging pain up and down my entire arm region and drips down into my torso, and I have to get all my work done, but I can't. Think. I can't. Move. I feel like I'm an old cat, just waiting to die, except I'm a young adult human being who just wants the pain to be over. It'll never be over. This isn't to say I'm actively suicidal. I'm not- At least not anymore. Just living in a body that is in agony all the time gets hard. Really hard. And I start to wonder and think about how good I would feel if I could just slip into a sleep and not have to wake up to the pain, and the exhaustion, and the lack of limb functionality, and the fainting, and the falling, and the humiliation, and the shame- And I sometimes wish I could die, before everyone realizes how much of a disappointment I am because of this. I can't work up to the same par as everybody else can, even though I manage to get everything done up to a very good quality, it take some about 4x longer to do it compared to an able-bodied person. oinfdgionfdnndndnnnfvfn

i wanna follow new people so: reblog if youre a proship safe blog and a self shipper!

your racist x poc image is... very very odd. especially with the poc "dominating" like wow we love extremely racist stereotypes!

hey so that's your opinion actually! dont like, just scroll then lol

2024 Proship-tober!

I don't believe the proship community has an art-tober sort of thing! So I made one! Feel free to skip days! Posting this early to give people time to prepare! <3

all these young, 'conservative-in-a-progressive-hat' antis spewing garden-variety death threats over pixels is sending me, lmao.

actively hating on someone who ships something different than you? doxxing and stalking? trying to make others conform?

sorry bro/sis, having a " toddler in the sandbox/i said i get to decide others' morality and trauma responses " moment is cringe asf.

oh, and --- let us know when you've got better comebacks.

The death of creativity lives strong within many antis, in their choices, creations, and threats.

kind of a sucker for those violent bully x bullyvic shipdynamics but it's like. Halfway through the bully realizes that A. This bullyvic has a lot bigger problems going on in their life or B. That bullyvic genuinely isn't responsible for whatever bully thinks they're responsible for. and then its moreso a hurt/comfort thing 😋

Guys please are we normal about proshippers who dont like sexual content? Are we normal about sex-repulsed proshippers? Are we normal about proshippers who only like fluffy stories?

Are we normal about proshippers?

anyway shoutout to people with paralysis and nerve damage and spinal cord and brain damage and nervous system disorders who are tired of people with adult ADHD diagnoses en-masse co-opting their terminology and claiming ownership of their struggles and taking over every post made about ur symptoms and experiences. ur anger and frustration and feelings of otheredness are valid and real and justified and ur not alone. adhd is not the only disability on earth that matters or is worth acknowledging and there’s nothing wrong with talking about yourself and your own struggles

on tumblr people will say "yeah i've got 7 mental illnesses" then call you schizo for the most mundane symptoms and on reddit people will say "i'm a slightly awkward introvert" and you go to their profile to see their post history and they have mental health issues you didn't know god could create

proship culture is wanting radqueers to get the fuck out of our tags

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