Time To Lie To My Friends And Family !!

Just a reminder:

Feeling invalid and like you’re faking your disorder is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Wanting to starve yourself but not actually being able to do it is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Recovery does NOT come easily

Constant binging is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to eat normally without guilt for periods of time is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to restrict easily one day and not the other is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Please treat your minds nicely

I love having this little secret no one knows about

but you don’t look like you have an 3d?

yeah that’s the fucking problem

having an 3d is literally just waiting 24/7

- waiting to w3igh in

- waiting for your next meal / when you can eat

- waiting for ppl to notice your wl

- waiting for the mirror to change

- waiting for the "special number"

waiting waiting waiting . . . it sucks.

100 Reasons To Be Th1n

⭒ To always be cold

⭒ To know anything being said about me behind my back is out of envy

⭒ To be too small to find anything at a store

⭒ To have people worry

⭒ To have people be jealous

⭒ To be able to wear bracelets as garters

⭒ To make him touch me gently

⭒ To make people think I’ll break

⭒ To never have to cover myself

⭒ To never be shamed for not looking put together

⭒ To feel my bones hit against each other

⭒ To change the dosage

⭒ To never hit fat

⭒ To always turn heads

⭒ To be able to say “I guess its just my metabolism” when asked how I stay thin

⭒ To never have gaps on button downs

⭒ To always be the smallest in a room

⭒ To never be offered someones leftover

⭒ To say “lets get something to share” and only eat 2 bites

⭒ To never feel greedy when eating at a function

⭒ To have a hunger high 24/7

⭒ To always feel my heartbeat

⭒ To never have to hide what I eat

⭒ To say yes to going out for food without feeling like a pig

⭒ To have people ask “are you sure you dont want something to eat” out of concern instead of malice

⭒ To be called fat as a joke and know its a joke

⭒ To have a hollow face

⭒ To always be hydrated

⭒ To make people think I eat clean

⭒ To feel the fat leaving my body every time I breathe

⭒ To never spill out of jeans

⭒ To always need a belt

⭒ To have tshirts fall off my shoulder

⭒ To look thin even in big clothes

⭒ To make everything around me look bigger

⭒ To move without a sound

⭒ To blackout

⭒ To be a lightweight

⭒ To be told to eat a burger

⭒ To be told I need help

⭒ To be told im beautiful

⭒ To feel beautiful

⭒ To actually accept compliments

⭒ To never feel like people are being nice to prove a point

⭒ To never think someone is being nice to laugh at me later

⭒ To walk away from any argument knowing they’re the bigger person

⭒ To never be asked out on a dare

⭒ To never be ignored by a group of guys

⭒ To make him concerned about my health

⭒ To be lightheaded

⭒ To see stars everywhere

⭒ To never want to sleep

⭒ To focus everything on school

⭒ To redefine what food is to me

⭒ To be in control of my health, mind, and body

⭒ To never wonder if Im being excluded because Im fat

⭒ To never be the one taking the group photo

⭒ To never make a boxspring creak

⭒ To never sweat

⭒ To walk slow and enjoy it

⭒ To breathe deeper

⭒ To love being outside

⭒ To never wondering if an outfit looks good or not

⭒ To train myself to never need to look at a nutrition label

⭒ To be able to wear everything I thrift

⭒To never be worried that im bring judged for what im eating

⭒ To always hurt

⭒ To never need makeup

⭒ To never need s*x

⭒ To never think an outfit would look better on someone else

⭒ To have my bones dig into everything

⭒ To barely raise the water in the bathtub

⭒ To never feel hot in the shower

⭒ To wrap my hands around my waist

⭒ To never drop a deuce lol

⭒ To say “do you want a cookie?” in an argument and someone get mad

⭒ To be on peoples minds

⭒ To shrink my stomach

⭒ To be so hungry that I dont know what it feels like to feel hungry

⭒ To always decline food

⭒ To be allowed to be picky

⭒ To never feel greedy

⭒ To save money

⭒ To make people kind to me

⭒ To make people think I hate junk food

⭒ To never need to step on a scale

⭒ To never purge

⭒ To never binge

⭒ To have more room on a plane seat

⭒ To never be judged for having a soda

⭒ To never need to be weighed at a water/amusement park

⭒ To never get stares of disgust

⭒ To never be though of as low brow

⭒ To be able to walk though a thin barred fence

⭒ To never worry if anything will break under me

⭒ To never worry that my old clothes will rip

⭒ To use less soap

⭒ To feel clean

⭒ To feel euphoric

⭒ To feel like who Im supposed to be

just a reminder

i. do. not. promote. eating. disorders. of. any. kind. whatsoever.

if you are trying to recover, please, get the fuck away from my blog.

the reason i have this blog is for my own motivation.

seek help: 1-800-931-2237

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