I’m Sure You Get Asked This A Lot So Forgive Me For This, But How Do I Change My Physical Appearance

peeking at the mc’s cue cards

"$50k would be nice"

*know* that its already there - thoughts might echo, theyre fake tho

Know that it's there like you know you have a hand or a toe - even if you have an intrusive thought that your toe is missing, you KNOW its still there

Even if you have an intrusive thought that your $50k is missing, you KNOW it's still there

What is this KNOW? ITS *THAT* - once you have an idea for an experience just KNOW SO. ALL THOUGHTS are an illusion, all reality is an illusion. You can still KNOW of these things to experience a specific illusion.

Ignore the intrusive thoughts, fall in the KNOW, into *THAT* which is "yourself" JUST *THAT*

This is all you are, *THAT* is all you need. The rest is a (creative) illusion.

You know the illusion of the body

You know the illusion of your family

You know the illusion of this reality concept

You know you have eyeballs

You know you have skin

You know you have ears

These are all KNOWN givens in your current illusory experience.

KNOWING is ALL you need. *THAT* is who you are. You don't even have to fight intrusive thoughts/ego, fake. You don't even have to observe them, not real. YOU KNOW they are occurring. YOU KNOW youre calm 😍🥰😘

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effortless knowing.

How do "I" know "I" exist right now?

hey Ada... i read your post "Appearance Changes" and in it you say to imagine as if i already have my desired appearance... but i can't stop being self conscious of my "old" face... what do you suggest i do

When you look the way you want to, you aren't "conscious" much. Notice how you only become self-conscious when you feel like something's wrong with your body/face? When you think of your appearance as perfect you don't get that involved with/in it, you just let it be - your body is no longer a concern. Since it's everything you want it to be, you can attend to other matters and simply exist, you don't need to always "take care" of it, make sure it looks its best, wonder what others will think of it, etc.

I suggest you no longer mind it, think of your old appearance as only a memory. Did you exert any effort in looking like the undesirable you? You didn't, right? You just existed like that. Likewise, now you just look like this, and no past or memory has any relevance to what you are/look like in the present. Tell me, if you are it, does what you used to identify with before matter at all? You keep thinking you need to do something about your old self but it's dead, you're only keeping it alive by thinking there's more to do/things to fix. Why do you keep poking something that has no importance to you anymore? You needn't :) you look ai generated now baby xx who cares what was?

the way™ jungkook’s face lights up when he laughs ♡

If you’re seeing this, this is your 888. Reap the abundance before you and feel the luck which swashs like the tide at your feet.

4dbarbie remix: How to let go of Vanessa

My notes: This is basically a TLDR version of my first 4dbarbie remix post How to realise Self. My original intention for that post was actually to make something like this, a really straightforward (and short lol) practical guide on how to let go of the ego in order to realize Self that I could refer to and apply on a day to day basis. It ended up being a long essay (it was over 3000 words aha) as I decided to go through all her posts and answered asks and found a lot of important information to include so it sort of became more of an educational post (which I'm glad to have made and it helped me understand everything better too!). So anyway, here it is. Pretty much all of the below information was taken from my How to realise Self post (besides the suggested exercises section at the bottom) - I just extracted the more practical guidance outside the explanations to make it. As always, my personal notes and highlights are in purple text.

Just let go of the ego, that’s how simple it is. All you need to fix is your wrong identification. There isn't anyone who couldn’t materialize anything right now if he or she would just let go of identifying as the limited body. 1

Stop thinking you are Vanessa, the thoughts of needing this or that drop away. To change, you need to give up this conviction of being this person. You need to disbelieve. 2 A lot of beliefs are subconscious. "I am a body", "I am Vanessa", "There is a world" are all subconscious, automatic beliefs. Upon investigation you can get rid of any belief (by making them conscious and then dropping them). 14 How do you drop a belief? (see part 1 and part 2)

All you need to do is detach from this form during the day, let life happen as it happens while reminding yourself it's a dream, a dream that doesn't have to be yours. 3

What I recommend you to do is bring your self into focus, become aware of your own existence. See how you function, watch the motives and the results of your actions. Study the prison you have built around yourself because of credulity. By knowing what you are not, you come to know your self. The way back to your self is through refusal and rejection. 4

Leave your mind alone, that is all. Don't go along with it. 5 Thoughts will keep on coming for a while, just now you know they have nothing to do with you. Get into a habit of watching, letting them be but not identifying with them. If you can observe them, it means you are not them. 6

Step away and look (observe). The physical events will go on happening, but by themselves they have no importance. It is your mind alone that matters. When you identify yourself with them, you are their slave, you think you have to act on them. When you stand apart, you are their master 7

Just stop taking the thoughts you don't like for truth or reality. There is no convincing involved, it is all letting go. 8 Doesn't matter what the thought is, leave it alone, ignore it BUT not by force of will, just indifference 9

Start letting go bit by bit, just to see what happens. You won't start "acting crazy" just because you become uninterested in thoughts, I promise 10

You don't need to convince yourself they're unreal, just dismiss them (your thoughts) as not yours. They will disappear more and more through your newfound indifference, then their physical counterparts will, too. Detachment is by doubt and indifference. First you start doubting "the facts", then you become indifferent to the facts, lastly there are no facts anymore and you can establish your own. 9

Your next step will be realizing there is nothing to learn in a dream. You'll find yourself having less and less thoughts, then none at all. Then, only if you want, you will be able to reinstall the mind, now of your choice, and change the dream. 3

All you need is to get rid of the tendency to define your self. All definitions apply to your body only and to its expressions. Once this obsession with the body goes, you will revert to your natural state, spontaneously and effortlessly. 4

Be patient with yourself because you don't lose any time, just get to that place I'm telling you about and then you can just go back in time if you so wish. All worry is pointless! And there is nothing to fear, things just happen, do not claim them as yours for a while. Unclutter your mind, it becomes your servant after you've freed it enough. 11

Reminder: This body and this world are not forced onto you, they exist through your identification with them. Not yours, remember? Repeat. Not yours. You won't lose your mind, you'll only lose your misery. After you've detached, you'll easily shift to as many realities as you want - don't put any on a pedestal of desire, they are equal. See this world and the body as not real first. What is true is only what I AM is identified with, right now this body which is not in that TV show (referring to anon's desire). Correct this first by letting go of thinking it's you. 12

Suggested exercises (not required if you don't want to do it!)

1. Sitting in silence & just being with no thoughts - The whole point of sitting in silence is to realize what you are, pure beingness. Awareness only becomes consciousness when it has an object. The object changes all the time. In consciousness there is movement; awareness by itself is motionless and timeless, here and now. 4

2. Start doubting you'll wake up as Vanessa tomorrow - Not to get it, but consider it actually… What if… I wake up tomorrow and I realize an entire life has been just a dream?! Equal to the one I dreamt last night?! What if you wake up and realize it all was a nightmare that you THOUGHT went on for years and it's just been a few hours... even get scared and terrified about that thought. Better than getting scared about non-reality.

WHAT IN THE WORLD?! That never was... but I felt it so real, I swear I was her?! Yet here you are, awake, and the dream never was.

Do it like that. Doubt that it's anything but a dream as much as possible. 13

Sources:

Citations: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14

In-text links: 1, 2, 3, 4

this is inspired by one of edwards video (i cant remember the name) but one thing i like to do is remind my self what god would do.

would god worry about getting something?

would god worry about not being able to do something?

it’s a nice reminder that i am god and really i have the power to do what i want and feel what i want!

there is nothing to get because I AM

how can i get when i already am? how can i get WHAT i already am?

if i say i'm with sp then i'm with sp. if i say my hair is pink and down to feet then it's pink and down to my feet. if i say the sky is raining glitter THEN THE SKY IS RAINING GLITTER.

why would i stress about getting when i already have it? why would i do technique after technique when i already have it? why would i stress about the how or the when.. when i ALREADY have it?

all that needs to be done is acceptance and persistence in that acceptance. persist in acceptance so that your desired state feels normal, don't persist "to get" or "to create."

everything you want is already yours and the reflection is instant and promised. it is impossible for the 3d to fail at showing you your assumptions.

Jin gifs I’ll never get over

we’ll dream of a longer summer: a collection of summer poems

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this high summer we love by adrianne rich

the summer day by mary oliver

one summer by idea vilariño

when we with sappho by kenneth rexroth

summer by louise glück

onto a vast plain by rilke

spanish nights by royla asghar

summer morning by mary oliver 

baked goods by  aimee nezhukumatathil

summer was forever by chen chen

summer of the ladybirds by vivian smith

because it’s summer by ocean vuong 

summer (a love poem) by frank lima

the best time of the day by raymond carver

blue funk by julio cortázar

love letter by julio cortázar

the waves by juana de ibarbourou 

fragment 31 “jealousy,” by sappho

late summer by jennifer grotz 

wide space by mahmoud darwish

you can read these poems while listening to my summer playlist on spotify. a collection of quiet and dreamy songs that reminded me of summer’s spirit. hope you like it!! listen here !