Hey Ada... I Read Your Post "Appearance Changes" And In It You Say To Imagine As If I Already Have My

let them live

this is inspired by one of edwards video (i cant remember the name) but one thing i like to do is remind my self what god would do.

would god worry about getting something?

would god worry about not being able to do something?

it’s a nice reminder that i am god and really i have the power to do what i want and feel what i want!

how to balance being the creator and being physical in your creation.♥︎

fun fact: there is a way to balance that!! (^_^) and this was supposed to come the same day i made the “how to “become”” post

i always wondered how am i supposed to balance being the sole creator of imagination, how am i supposed to balance being physical with the creation, how i am supposed to see “the outer-world”, how to the see the inner world and how am i supposed to see the law in a better perspective. and this is what this post is about!!

being the creator of my imagination and the 3D can be both confusing at the same time. like how i am supposed to create and not expect for it to show up??

the answer is you dont. you dont expect. you dont wait. you dont want… you ether have it or you dont. the 3D is supposed to be left alone and i want this to be DEEPLY ingrained in your mind.

the 3d is supposed to be left alone. the 3D shouldn’t be your concern, priority or something you scale to see if you “have it or not”. you are supposed to look within. not without. you’re supposed to identify as the inner man in its inner world who haves what he wants in there. youre not supposed to “make something happen”, you’re supposed to be it in consciousness.

read that for as many times as you want and truly accept this. your only focus should be giving yourself what you want within and your trust should be in your imagination, leave the outer man alone. hes just supposed to experience life as a human and live the creations you made within. there inside your imagination lies your power of creation and inner man (you.), this inner man fools himself to be two separate being, the outer man and the inner man. so when he sees something in the eyes of the outer man, he “believes” he wants it in “the outer world”. he “believes” he exists “outside”. but desire is within. feeling is within. the only way is to fulfill is within. the inner man is within. so why would the inner man want it physically? because this is the manifestation of the inner man fooling himself to be the outer man.

to add on: youre not outside of the 3D. you are BOTH the 3D and the 4D. the 3D exists within your consciousness. your mind isnt in your body, but your body is in your mind. you believe what you are seeing is “outside” of you, but its all within. having what you want in imagination should be your priority and getting results in the 3D is just a bonus.

the outer man only sees restrictions, barriers and limits, while the inner man is free to have, be and experience ANYTHING HE WANTS. so when the inner man fools himself to be the outer man, he believes he also “have” to force a change within to “change” the outer world or vice versa. (the inner man believes he “haves” to forcefully “change” the outer world to feel fulfilled within.)

i want you to truly let go of the outer man and the outer world, not letting go will lead to nothing but frustration and fear.. this also includes your physical body. let the outer man be human. the inner man is that feeling of you when there’s darkness when you close your eyes, the little voice in your head, your awareness, your consciousness, your imagination, your inner world. that little guy holds ALL of the power within and can create ANYTHING INSTANTLY because he is unlimited!

everything can be changed in the world of imagination.. you should only be focused on what you are, what you have and what you experience in imagination. you should only “manifest” in imagination. you may not have it in the 3D but that doesnt matter! as long you have it within there should be no worrying if you have it or not. because you would know that you have it and the 3D can only reflect imagination.

who you are, what you have and what you experience in imagination should only be relevant and your priority!

when we mean you have it/assume you have it, we only mean your imagination. you have it in imagination. getting physical results would never satisfy you than getting imaginal results.

ex. you have a problem with someone but you believe everyone is shitty, so now you will occur shitty people because you believe that within. if you believe everyone isnt, then, you wont see shitty people. but if not seeing shitty people is what the inner man doesnt want within then the inner man wouldn’t feel fulfilled or have any type of emotions except for desire on what it actually wants which is… shitty. people. sure, getting physical results may sound fulfilling but you only want the feeling that comes with it. without it. it will just be nothing.

edit 1: i would also like to clarify that the outer and inner man is just you. 😭😭 so theres no separate being outside of you. its all within. just identify as the inner man and fulfill within

tdlr: don’t expect for results, dont wait for them, dont want them. you ether dont have it or you dont. leave the 3D and the outer man alone. shift your awareness to being the inner man and fulfill within (by having what you want within). dont fool yourself to be the person who is the outer man. dont fool yourself to be the person who isnt the inner man in the world of imagination. the outer man can only be frustrated and want when it comes to the law because the outer man cant manifest, hes only there to be human. the outer man cant access the powers of the law. the 3D can ONLY reflect your consciousness so start being in consciousness. physical results can never fulfill you… only internal results will.

please note when im using he/him pronouns im only talking about the inner man and the outer man. not you literally…

4dbarbie remix: How to let go of Vanessa

My notes: This is basically a TLDR version of my first 4dbarbie remix post How to realise Self. My original intention for that post was actually to make something like this, a really straightforward (and short lol) practical guide on how to let go of the ego in order to realize Self that I could refer to and apply on a day to day basis. It ended up being a long essay (it was over 3000 words aha) as I decided to go through all her posts and answered asks and found a lot of important information to include so it sort of became more of an educational post (which I'm glad to have made and it helped me understand everything better too!). So anyway, here it is. Pretty much all of the below information was taken from my How to realise Self post (besides the suggested exercises section at the bottom) - I just extracted the more practical guidance outside the explanations to make it. As always, my personal notes and highlights are in purple text.

Just let go of the ego, that’s how simple it is. All you need to fix is your wrong identification. There isn't anyone who couldn’t materialize anything right now if he or she would just let go of identifying as the limited body. 1

Stop thinking you are Vanessa, the thoughts of needing this or that drop away. To change, you need to give up this conviction of being this person. You need to disbelieve. 2 A lot of beliefs are subconscious. "I am a body", "I am Vanessa", "There is a world" are all subconscious, automatic beliefs. Upon investigation you can get rid of any belief (by making them conscious and then dropping them). 14 How do you drop a belief? (see part 1 and part 2)

All you need to do is detach from this form during the day, let life happen as it happens while reminding yourself it's a dream, a dream that doesn't have to be yours. 3

What I recommend you to do is bring your self into focus, become aware of your own existence. See how you function, watch the motives and the results of your actions. Study the prison you have built around yourself because of credulity. By knowing what you are not, you come to know your self. The way back to your self is through refusal and rejection. 4

Leave your mind alone, that is all. Don't go along with it. 5 Thoughts will keep on coming for a while, just now you know they have nothing to do with you. Get into a habit of watching, letting them be but not identifying with them. If you can observe them, it means you are not them. 6

Step away and look (observe). The physical events will go on happening, but by themselves they have no importance. It is your mind alone that matters. When you identify yourself with them, you are their slave, you think you have to act on them. When you stand apart, you are their master 7

Just stop taking the thoughts you don't like for truth or reality. There is no convincing involved, it is all letting go. 8 Doesn't matter what the thought is, leave it alone, ignore it BUT not by force of will, just indifference 9

Start letting go bit by bit, just to see what happens. You won't start "acting crazy" just because you become uninterested in thoughts, I promise 10

You don't need to convince yourself they're unreal, just dismiss them (your thoughts) as not yours. They will disappear more and more through your newfound indifference, then their physical counterparts will, too. Detachment is by doubt and indifference. First you start doubting "the facts", then you become indifferent to the facts, lastly there are no facts anymore and you can establish your own. 9

Your next step will be realizing there is nothing to learn in a dream. You'll find yourself having less and less thoughts, then none at all. Then, only if you want, you will be able to reinstall the mind, now of your choice, and change the dream. 3

All you need is to get rid of the tendency to define your self. All definitions apply to your body only and to its expressions. Once this obsession with the body goes, you will revert to your natural state, spontaneously and effortlessly. 4

Be patient with yourself because you don't lose any time, just get to that place I'm telling you about and then you can just go back in time if you so wish. All worry is pointless! And there is nothing to fear, things just happen, do not claim them as yours for a while. Unclutter your mind, it becomes your servant after you've freed it enough. 11

Reminder: This body and this world are not forced onto you, they exist through your identification with them. Not yours, remember? Repeat. Not yours. You won't lose your mind, you'll only lose your misery. After you've detached, you'll easily shift to as many realities as you want - don't put any on a pedestal of desire, they are equal. See this world and the body as not real first. What is true is only what I AM is identified with, right now this body which is not in that TV show (referring to anon's desire). Correct this first by letting go of thinking it's you. 12

Suggested exercises (not required if you don't want to do it!)

1. Sitting in silence & just being with no thoughts - The whole point of sitting in silence is to realize what you are, pure beingness. Awareness only becomes consciousness when it has an object. The object changes all the time. In consciousness there is movement; awareness by itself is motionless and timeless, here and now. 4

2. Start doubting you'll wake up as Vanessa tomorrow - Not to get it, but consider it actually… What if… I wake up tomorrow and I realize an entire life has been just a dream?! Equal to the one I dreamt last night?! What if you wake up and realize it all was a nightmare that you THOUGHT went on for years and it's just been a few hours... even get scared and terrified about that thought. Better than getting scared about non-reality.

WHAT IN THE WORLD?! That never was... but I felt it so real, I swear I was her?! Yet here you are, awake, and the dream never was.

Do it like that. Doubt that it's anything but a dream as much as possible. 13

Sources:

Citations: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14

In-text links: 1, 2, 3, 4

how i manifest

note: anything works if you assume so

decide what i want

know it’s mine + accept my desire (in the 4d)

throughout the day i sometimes imagine whatever i want thats related to my desire (usually inner convos & visualization)

remain faithful to my new assumption. if any doubts or unfavorable things come up, i just say “it’s done” to remind myself that it is. period.

E A S Y. i repeat these steps whenever i feel like it. that’s it, i love you all🤍

we’ll dream of a longer summer: a collection of summer poems

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this high summer we love by adrianne rich

the summer day by mary oliver

one summer by idea vilariño

when we with sappho by kenneth rexroth

summer by louise glück

onto a vast plain by rilke

spanish nights by royla asghar

summer morning by mary oliver 

baked goods by  aimee nezhukumatathil

summer was forever by chen chen

summer of the ladybirds by vivian smith

because it’s summer by ocean vuong 

summer (a love poem) by frank lima

the best time of the day by raymond carver

blue funk by julio cortázar

love letter by julio cortázar

the waves by juana de ibarbourou 

fragment 31 “jealousy,” by sappho

late summer by jennifer grotz 

wide space by mahmoud darwish

you can read these poems while listening to my summer playlist on spotify. a collection of quiet and dreamy songs that reminded me of summer’s spirit. hope you like it!! listen here !

MASTERLIST

FANFICTION BTS

Hoseok:

MAFIA AU MASTERLIST

Taehyung:

MAFIA AU MASTERLIST

Jin:

MAFIA AU MASTERLIST

Yoongi: MAFIA AU MASTERLIST

Oh My! (Bangtan uni au)

Jimin:

FOREVER

In which you fall in love with Jimin slowly at first and then all at once.

Jungkook:

Love & Hate

You’ve spent a long time hating Jeon Jungkook. But perhaps the line between love and hate is a little blurred and you’re not sure you understand difference anymore.

TAKING CHANCES: CHAPTER I

Your marriage to Jeon Jungkook is just another business transaction.  But it’s not long before your heart decides it’s time to get involved. CEO!Arranged Marriage au.

FANFICTION GOT7

Jaebum:

MY GIRL

In which Jaebum is the college fuck boy and you’re the idiot who’s fallen in love with him.

FANFICTION SEVENTEEN:

Joshua Hong:

HOME

Being in love with your best friends boyfriend is a bitch. Especially when said boyfriend is Joshua Hong.

Wonwoo:

MINE

In which Wonwoo is the boy that everybody loves and you’re just the girl that sits beside him in Sociology.

FANFICTION EXO:

Park Chanyeol:

HOME TOWN GLORY: CHAPTER I HOME TOWN GLORY: CHAPTER II

Iseul hasn’t seen Park Chanyeol in six years.  When he shows up with a glamorous life and a new fiance, Iseul decides it’s time to take back what’s hers.

Byun Baekhyun:

THAT WAY: I THAT WAY: II THAT WAY: III THAT WAY: IV THAT WAY: V THAT WAY: VI THAT WAY: VII (Epilogue) Complete.

Byun Baekhyun rejected you all those years ago.  He didn’t see you that way.  You were just friends.  So why did it feel like he might have been lying?  And why couldn’t you just understand him?

BLOOM: Part I BLOOM: Part II

Byun Baekhyun was born into the lap of luxury.  You were not.  Lying about where you came from was not really part of your plan, but neither was falling in love.  CEO!au

DRABBLE CHALLENGE:

70. “Not everyone is out to get you. Stop thinking that. It’s annoying.” (Kim Taehyung) 94. “I had a bad dream again.” (Mark Lee)

A Look!

exactly what i was going through

Undermining Inner Movement Due To Lack Of Physical Movement

The only movement that matters is the movement within.

I’ve been thinking lately about why sometimes I would never see my Full manifestations materialized even thought I would ((seriously)) change so much within.

Like seriously.. I’m a person who goes through multiple deaths and rebirths internally. The things I thought last week probably aren’t what I think this week and it’s surely not what I thought last month. I’m always expanding upon my life philosophies and dogmas to try to learn more about the world. Since the beginning of the year I really have completely changed inside. Blossomed into something completely different to the point where the me from pre late March just feels so disconnected from the me of now.

I say all this to say that I Do do the hard inner work and have the hard inner conversations with myself to shed old parts of myself to make room for the new. But then i ask myself, why does my external world not reflect that change?

Honestly this is something that would have me tripped up for a long time because before anyone comes in here saying “it’s clearly because you haven’t changed”, i’m going to stop you right there since I think I know myself better than a stranger on the internet. If anything, I think it’s because I championed external movement more than internal movement.

I was watching some Edward the other day, his video on internal movement. He spoke about how the movement inside should be the only movement we should seek, the outside is merely a bonus. It made me think about how I would undermine my Very Real internal transformations just because there wasn’t tangible evidence on the outside to substantiate that change which, in turn, would lead me back to square 1.

At times I would literally feel trapped by my outside world but as I’m typing this now I realize that it’s because I was too invested in the outer world. This feeling of encagement rlly would be because I would be someone completely different inside, but outside there was nothing to back this up. I felt (sometimes feel) like the world would never change… Like I’m trapped…

But again, the only movement that we’re after is the movement inside since reality is within not without. Me getting to a point where I completely felt like a different person inside should’ve been where I stopped and congratulated myself because that’s where the mission was accomplished… because.. again.. reality exists within.. not without.

Essentially feeling like a new person inside means I associated myself with this new state so much that I felt disconnected from the outside world but my need to see that reflected outside would have me back at square 1 because it was putting me back in a state of lack.

I honestly don’t remember where I was going to go with this but I want to just share this to remind everyone that if you’re like me and find yourself trapped at times, you’re too into the 3D. Remember that the hard part (internal metamorphosis) is already done and go back to your imagination to fulfill urself and experience what you’ve given yourself. Even if it feels like nothing is changing, know that you’ve changed in the only place where it matters and the rest will unfold beautifully … at least that’s what I tell myself

If you know that you’re a different person inside, if you know you’ve done the work, and if you feel disconnected to your 3D that is because you’ve shifted states. You’re more connected to a new version of yourself than you are to the current one in the 3D. Don’t let 3D validation keep you bogged down to the old story by changing your state from (being) to (wanting/waiting).

As I typed the last part I had a new epiphany lol. All the other times in the past I would only get my things half way is because I wasn’t fully committed to the fact that imagination is the only truth. Only half of my toes were dipped into the pool not the full thing. But I’ve decided to really let the mirror go and take a chance on faith and see where that gets us.

That’s all for now. Hope that helped!

The actor is the character, but the character is not the actor just like awareness is human but human is not awareness. Does the actor completely define themselves as the character only? Nope of course not! Playing / acting of that character is only temporary. The actor never defines themself completely as the character or only limits themselves to how their character thinks. Either does awareness limit themselves to only how their forms think. The actor is simply acting, just like how the awareness is simply observing.

You are simply the observer, the watcher, and the observer / watcher, should never define itself completely with its own observations…when observations are only just that..observations.

When you imagine your desire, you immediately and instantly experienced it. Imagining a pillow and seeing a pillow physically is the same exact thing. Why? Because it is both an equally observed experience for awareness. Doesn’t matter if it's “mental” or “physical”. The awareness is still that desire regardless. Simply put imagination on the SAME level as the physical, and define them both the same, instead of labeling one of them being more “real” than the other, because that is not true. Both are at the same level, and the same standard, both are one.

There is no such thing as manifesting in non-dualism. But you can observe / be aware / imagine your desired observation / form throughout the day. And you can stick with that observation often. But that is up to the person. Some people observe/ be aware of their desire, and then think of something else and go on with their day. Why? Because they know their power, and nature, and know they don’t need to hyperfocus on their desires when they are already that desire. It is completely effortless. Stop waiting for the physical to confirm anything when you can confirm it yourself.

You have the ultimate access to be ANYTHING. To be ANY form. To observe ANY observation. If you want to be Spiderman, bam, you are fucking Spiderman. You do not see it? Because you are still giving power to the “physical” over you. Does a little human sense of sight completely decide what you can observe as an awareness? Of course not. You give too much power over one form of you, and therefore you are not able to “see” another form of you. The physical doesn’t determine anything. It doesn’t decide for you what to be aware of and what not to be aware of. You decide that all on your own.

Observing/imagining / being aware is all-natural for you to do. Tools like affirmations can remind you or help you about your observations but you do that all by yourself naturally. These tools can simply guide you but they do not make you do what you already can do. Just know to not put them on a pedestal when you are the pedestal itself. It does not give you power when you are power itself.