I’m trying to prove something.
So, get this: Old USA hated immigrants, but the reason they kept coming to USA, is because the USA kept telling people about how great they are. They kept saying, "oh yeah, we are so great, if you come here you'll find power and success", and then hated on those who came in, looking for a new start.
Notice how that still applies to today.
Something I thought of (on a more lighthearted note, anyway) is that the US is like chocolate covered bugs. (sorry to those who enjoy that, haha) The outside is sweet and enjoyable, but the inside is horrible and disgusting.
i just love feeling safe and secure in a good friendship, only for them to randomly start acting abnormal, which activates my ptsd and i immediately feeling insecure again bc i think they're no longer interested in me and that they're abandoning me or don't have time for me, so i just feel left behind and alone again which makes me feel depressed for days and it gets bad enough that i'm sure i'm relapsing but i cant stop it because i feel so alone and i cant talk to anyone about it because i know what they'll say but doing what they say isnt easy and it usually ends up with a bad result that i dont want to hear/know resulting in me falling back down the rabbit hole that i can't climb back out of
and its worse sharing this giant interest because i'm still very into that thing but looking at that thing makes me want to share it with them but now they dont even send a reaction to what you send, let alone a message which just makes me feel extremely unheard and hurt bc they dont even care enough to actually look at/watch what i send them
so now i just spend my time alone playing music because nothing is interesting anymore and i just sat on my phone half-spaced out and ready to cry at any moment because i feel as fragile as a cracked dam that just keeps cracking, therefore building more and more pressure until it bursts
ya'll think Mai and Ani [from Next Gen] like each other? or is it just me?
“Outer is so special to me, he is so gorgeous, there’s a reason he came into my life, he’s so smart, soft and adorable, everytime I’m around him, I just feel complete, I can’t go one day without seeing him, I love Outer so much, I do wanna spend the rest of my life with him.” - Killer! sans
No one:
Not a single soul:
Not even Vivziepop herself:
Me: ALASTOR IS THE LOVE CHILD OF TONY AND BILL DAMMIT!
I hoped to never go on to social media to call out someone for abusing me in some way... but here I fucking am.
TW// grooming, toxic relationship
At the age of 10, I met someone online who I shared a common interest with. They introduced me to their friends, and one of them would become my abuser. After our little group fell apart, her and I stayed friends. Eventually, we figured out we liked each other, and we started dating by the time I was 12.
Things were fine for awhile, but during an arguement one time, I remember her calling me toxic. I didn't even know what that word meant, yet it stuck to me for years. I didn't get over that until I finally stepped into the light, left her behind, and finally started to get better.
We'd keep arguing, we'd take "breaks", but with each break we'd end up still be like "ily" and realize that we weren't truly having a break, ever.
Once we broke up, it only took me a day to decide that we couldn't even stay friends. It didn't feel right. I ghosted her, and I don't even remotely regret it. I was only 13. Things were quiet, and with my therapist, I had come to realize how much she really abused me.
6 months later, my abuser reached out to me. She snuck into my discord server, once she revealed herself, I was willing to make small talk. I was willing to forgive. I was naive.
I mentioned that I told my friends in my server about what she did. So she snooped and got upset when I called her a groomer. So, I deleted that message... but I really shouldn't have.
I'm 16 now, and I only just now realized that she abused me so much worse than I think. Everytime I realize that she did something wrong, I think "it can't get worse than this.", but it has. Most of my memories of the time I had with her is blotted out, but one thing I do remember is a BDSM list.
I was 13, maybe even 12, when she sent me the blank list, and one filled out. She told me, "You should do this and send it to me. Here's mine." I don't remember looking at hers, but I remember genuinely trying to fill it out, because I was young. I was naive. I didn't know any better.
I didn't know most of the things listed on it. I had to look half of it up, and I was so uncomfortable doing it the whole time. Not like anything could have had any truth to it because I was fucking 12/13. I had absolutely 0 experience in anything sexual. I was so uncomfortable doing it, it wasn't fair to me to do something like this and not understand any of it.
I didn't realize how damn weird it was back then. I only just realized it and it's been nearly half a decade. There are certain people out there that have used that list to groom their victims, I found it out just now, and it hit me like a fucking train to realize that I was victim to it.
Tabby, I don't fucking give a shit if I ruin your chances of college, or a job. You don't deserve a good life because you ruined mine. And even though I've learned to grow around my trauma, I cannot move on from the fact that you are the reason I struggle so much today. I don't fucking trust people, because of you and the way you treated me. But I have learned to realize that I will not tolerate people stepping all over me and I will not be treated unfairly because I have fucking worth and you don't get to act all innocent anymore.
My abuser is Tabbybat6. Bluebat, Tabbitha, whatever the fuck she goes by now. I first met her on Steam, we moved to hangouts, then Discord. She has Wattpad, Instagram, Tumblr, and on everything I could think of, I have her blocked and restricted.
Tabbitha, if somehow, you're reading this, I hope you understand the way you made me feel, someday. I hope you feel all the pain you made me feel from your abuse. And I'm praying to the god I don't believe in that justice gets fucked served.
Going along with "Undetale Peasant"'s comic dub, I will be addressing these problems from beginning, to end.
Fresh saying he'd marry PJ when he was older; It would be so awkward being HOW MUCH older than Fresh, knowing him as a toddler would be awkward... wouldn't it? Plus, by the time they'd "marry", PJ would be in his 60's, probably. Someone gave the idea of them marrying immediately and Fresh starts demanding to do it. (OOC) People supporting the above ^. Ink is MAJOR OOC. Seriously... "Suddenly grows up to be an adult". -_- PJ LITERALLY SAYS THAT ANONS ARE ENCOURAGING IT- PEOPLE LIGET PROTECTING FRESH ABOUT HIM CRYING ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO MARRY NOT ONLY HIS NEPHEW BUT HIS FUCKING BABYSITTER AND AN ADULLLLLT- Fresh is also VERY OOC, as well as PJ. PJ also justifying them marrying when FRESH gets older. PJ literally saying he loved Fresh. SEXUALING TODDLER LUST. LUST WAS ALSO OOC. LUST ALSO HAD A WEIRDLY SEXUAL OUTFIT. HE'S A TODDLER. Dream and Blue OOC. Thegreatrogue shipping PJ with anons. (And Fresh getting protective.) Error wanting to marry Ink even though he, a toddler, should have no idea what marriage is about, aka love, which he, A TODDLER, would not understand yet. Once again SHIPPING TODDLERS- How the fuck does Swapfell even KNOW WHAT A SLAVE IS WHAT- Anons bullying a toddler. CROSS. CROSS IS SO OOC IT ISN'T EVEN A JOKE. PEOPLE CRUSHING ON THE TODDLERS. People wanting Error and Ink to give each other nicknames. Because they're married. AND ARE TODDLERS. Not to mention the whole "THE TALK" thing. People saying stuff about Error and Ink kissing at the wedding. "HOW DARE YOU CHEAT ON POOR FRESH" A CHILD. FRESH IS A CHILD. THEY DIDN'T CHEAT- WHAT- PJ's outfit looking wayyyy too sexual- PJ's girlfriend LITERALLY calling him a pedo (which technically, HE IS.) Rogue assuming the CQ is okay with this situation even remotely. GENO'S OOC- Shipping PJ with Rogue. Just... stop. 7goodangel literally has said that they do not accept OR support Paperfresh! PaperJam is their creation, so we should RESPECT what they have told us, AND NOT SHIP PAPERFRESH. People telling Geno his brother will die. VERY MUCH OOC GENO- Sexualizing PJ. EVEN MORE OOC CROSS. People telling PJ that HE is the one that "killed" Error. Geno becomes very unrealistic to a real toddler. Ink LITERALLY lifting Reaper up by his collar and screaming. Geno deciding he is better off dead, once again, not thoughts of a toddler. Blueprint and Gradient incest. Alter Sans being romantic with Gradient??? PEDOPHILIA PEOPLE. Rogue's OC bullying Goth, aka an adult, bullying a minor. Goth and Palette being ROUGHLY 12-13 and those two other weirdos sexualizing it. Sexualizing minors, aka Palette and Goth. Geno literally trying to kill himself. A toddler knowing about death? What the hell? Making Ink think he has to take care of Fresh. They're like a year apart. Seriously? WHY WERE THE PARENTS NOT INFORMED ABOUT GENO AND ERROR- Palette, a 12 year old, thinking he can get with an adult. People literally called them out on this, above ^, and nothing was DONE ABOUT IT- Shipping a minor, Goth, with an adult, Rogue's OC. The Cray vs. Palette x Goth, aka the love triangle. Please... THEY ARE MINORS- Shipping toddlers again- Fika sexualizing Goth and Palette- Cray getting a LIIIIIITTLE too close to Goth. Goth is clueless about this, how. Also the last part with Palette and Cray. THEY ARE MINORS-
TL;DR: PJ's Daycare sucks major ass because sexualizing minors, sexualizing toddlers, shipping toddlers, pedophilia, incest, love triangles betweens minors, completely out of character characters, and people supporting ALL OF THIS.
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aaand we’re back
I cannot believe I'm back here with something is DISGUSTING as this.
TW// s3x, death, corpses
Please take the time to read my tweet, and read meowbah's tweet with extreme caution.
I'm genuinely asking that people take the time to at LEAST spread the word if you cannot report them. If you have a twitter account, USE IT!
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