Chaotic Forever.

i hate it so much when someone wants to get closer to Allah so they suddenly start to speak more arabic, even change their own dialect to a Saudi/Yemeni dialect... lose personality and literally try to become Arab instead of muslim. You can read Quran in Arabic, recite it, say Dhikr but it stops there. Why are you changing your own way of talking to sound Arab?

It's sad that nowadays we associate being muslim with being Arab, which is totally wrong. They suddenly switch to writing with an Arabic keyboard and shit like that. Just accept the fact that you can be non Arab and muslim, and be proud of your ethnicity and also avoid trying to make yourself a Saudi/Yemeni woman by trying to dress like them or talk like them, you look weird. I swear that aint getting you more Hassanat lol.

Aligned stars.

to M.

Like the lion of the Atlas, wild and free,

Whose roar shakes the heavens and calls to me,

You crept into my heart a force so strong,

And taught my wings to rise, all bold.

Through all the storms, you stood proud and tall,

ⵓⵍ ⵏ ⵉⵣⴻⵎ, the bravest of them all.

On this special day, I celebrate you,

May peace and love always find you <3

ⵞⴰⵢⴳⴰⵏ ⵏ ⵜⴰⵢⵔⵉ.

afterall, feeling understood is the greatest form of love.

Trip to Rome

I believe it's my third time reading The Secret History and every time I YEARN for the Rome trip. I wanna read about them going around sightseeing and Bunny complaining and I want 5 pages long descriptions of their hotel room and the street.

I need fanfics to survive

Only forty days left, and it'll be the end of a journey. New stage of life, new environment, new me.

I workerd hard all year, and i definitely reduced the amount of hours I study, but I'll be okay, I'll be the best.

I love both the sketch and the colored version but i have to admit the coloured one is my favorite <33

I finished reading "The secret history" by Donna Tartt the other day and the characters are not going to let me go. The book is kinda mesmerizing, I loved the language immediately (and read the whole 600-page book in one week). The characters are perfect in the way they're written. At first I agreed with Richard's view on the group. They were all so mysterious, ideal, that I couldn't even imagine how complicated and awful their lives in fact were (Charles was my favourite character until THE LAST CHAPTER, Charles, wtf are you doing?!)

So here are my sketch of Henry with symbolism attempt

Also colourful version for flower language, 'cause colours are important. But I don't like how the final work looks like (

Yellow lily - friendship

Lycoris - in Japan is believed to foreshadow death and grief

Purple calla - symbolizes sorrow and grief

In light of Imane Khelif's lawsuit against jk Rowling, and in the same vein as Tim waltz' "weird" I think we honestly should just call joanne a bully literally any time she starts Terfposting. Like a cat with a spray bottle

As crazy as this might seem, i finally got my own copy of The Secret History. Thanks again to you Y. you deserve the world <333

(It was gifted to me by one of the coolest girls too, what are the odds?)

Everyone has been real quiet since Imane Khelif started a legal process against Rowling (and Musk). Say what you want about the situation but what Rowling did (spread misinformation, using Khelif's image as a boogeyman) was actually wrong. And it sadly continues what we've seen a lot in gender critical spaces: its deterioration into a reactionary movement.

So relatable but i wanna do the opposite! Like focus on philosophy and art and stuff instead of biology and physics since thats already like.. my uni major?

How i feel after saying i want to study mathematics knowing im dedicating my life to writing novels and reading and creating art and poetry and knowing various philosophers extensively