PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT

Angsty af recs that made me cry like a bitch:

Disclaimer: Some of these fics deal with pretty heavy and dark topics so trigger warning!

Okay so my emo phase never left me and I love reading stories that have some real girthy pain in them cause I love suffering like the masochist I truly am. Even better if they have sad endings. So I’ve collected and recorded all the fics that have literally made me stay up at night while crying and have really, truly ripped my heart out and I wanna share this pain with ya’ll cause these fics, while sad af, are honestly really well written and I want people to know that these masterpieces exist!

So without further ado, here’s me list lads:

A Lionheart’s Oath (M) by sugaxjpg Jungkook x Reader

So lemme just start off by saying that THIS FIC is what made me wanna make this list in the first place cause I am pretty sure this is the first fic that made me cry. It’s a 36k long story and it’s a Royal!AU to boot, with lovely descriptions of scenery and a couple of intense scenes, this will always be one of my all-time favourite JK fics out there and my go-to to break my heart *sad uwus*

Tears of a Villain by jimlingss Yoongi x Reader

Ok this fic deserves a warning before you read it cause you gotta emotionally prepare yourself for this one fam. It’s about 15k long and it’s also a Superhero!AU but I swear to you, I did not expect it to be so utterly heart-wrenching in the most depressing ways. However, don’t let that scare you because the way jiimlingss captures those emotions and writes them in a way that’s so tangible and makes the pain all worth it. Another favourite of mine too.

Strain by evangelene  Taehyung x Reader

Oof our first series on this list and it’s a Hanahaki!AU as well! Of course a sad bitch like me adores any Hanahaki AU’s weather they’re sad or happy but this one in particular has excellent pacing and the most relatable, and dare I say coolest OC I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading. I also really like the relationship between the characters (especially the relationship between certain two people but I don’t wanna spoil anything). It has about 5 chapters in total and each part has made me cry so grab a tissue and maybe some popcorn too. It’s a ride hon! 

Bad Guy (M) by sweetbunnykook Seokjin x Reader

Omg god, holy shit, omg. Can I just say how much I adore sweetbunnykooks works? Like the stuff they write about is really dark and I LOVE it! In saying that, another trigger warning because we are dealing with a Mafia!AU folks! This is also a series and It’s about 6 parts long and still on-going too. The thing about this one here is that you instantly get flung into the deep-end and everything is so bloody intense and every part hurts and you might need to take breaks between each part because holy shit. H O L Y  S H I T. Bunny really doesn’t hold back any punches with this one.

Only You (M) by sweetbunnykook Jungkook x Reader

I’ve told ya’ll about how much I love Bunny’s fics so it’s no surprise that they’re on here the second time in a row. This time however, it’s a Yandere!AU just not your typical “Yuno Gasai” Yandere. No, the Yandere characterization in this AU has more of a baby boy nature and it’s a refreshing take to the genre but the fic still holds that intensity that Bunny has a natural talent for. Oh! and the smut scenes are nothing to gloss over as well, and there are many smut scenes throughout the series. Another 6 chaptered story that’s still on-going. 

Cut by chimchimsauce Namjoon x Reader

This fic here bois. This one here HURTED. It’s a Soulmate!AU but a very sardonic one that takes a cynical point of view until the end where it’s just… oof. And the ending, OH THAT ENDING. God I remember crying until 2am cause of how well everything was placed to pull that ending off and the way chimchimsauce manages to make me feel a flurry of emotions in a short amount of time is *chefs kiss*. Like my heart was played like a fucking fiddle rip. 

Let Me Stay Close to You by 9uk Jungkook x Reader

Imma be honest with you fam, this isn’t gonna be everyones cup of tea because I think this fic will hit a little to close to home for a lot of people. It deals a lot with bullying and trauma and it’s like… really anxiety inducing lmao. I love it personally for that fact though and it makes you empathise with the pain and emotional turmoil OC had to put up with throughout their years. It’s a completed series with 8 parts plus a spin-off. 

Tales of Greyria by cutaepatootie OT5 x Reader

These are a small collection of what I’ll say are some of the saddest fics in the fandom lol and I honestly couldn’t even pick one story from the five presented cause they all made me emo as all hell. I still get misty-eyed from reading the Prince of the Red Rose, like thats a major oof fic. Though, these stories include some of the most prettiest descriptions of scenery I’ve read as they paint a vivid picture that I wish was real.

Small by seokjincoffee Yoongi x Reader

Dang, Small really stuck true to it’s title and no, I’m not making a “Yoongi is short” joke what I meant was that I felt small and insignificant when I was reading this fic. There is this kind of depressing/realistic undertone to this 3 part series where it was really easy to imagine yourself in a situation like this. A sort of heavy-ish fic but 100% made me feel good despite what transpires. It’s a lowkey hurt and comfort AU pretty much.

I’ll Never Be Her (M) by anon-luv Jimin x Reader

I’m not ashamed to so say how utterly wrecked this series left me. Like I felt so fucking bad for OC while reading at I honestly just wanted to wrap them up in a blanket rip. Ever wondered what it’s like to have deep insecurities or low self-esteem issues? Well anon-luv brilliantly writes an accurate portrayal of what it feels like over 5 chapters and I’m lowkey tearing up just remembering what the OC must of felt like oof. Good game anon-luv. Good game.

Slight Changes (M) by chiminiemoans Taehyung x Reader x Jimin

Ah okay so I’m gonna cut to the chase, this is an Infidelity AU. i know a lot of people don’t like that sort of thing so just a heads up. It’s also emotional suffering at it’s finest and I vividly remember shouting “Fuck you Taehyung!” out loud through tears because of a particular scene. It doesn’t help how visceral chiminie narrates the emotional pain that all the characters are dealing with and being able to consistently hold this throughout 8 chapters as well as sprinkling a few life lessons in the mix. It’s still on-going as well I think? So I just hope it ends happy for OC. Poor baby :(((

I’ll Drive you to the Hospital by gggbtswillbethedeathomeggg Jungkook x Reader

ALERT! Very heavy themes that deal with self harm and mental illness. Please don’t read if these are triggers to you :( make some hot coco instead :). Alright so if you can handle these topics then I also wanna say this fic has no romance in it. ggg doesn’t romanticise these topics AT ALL so this 10k fic hits hard and real. It also follows a Sibling AU theme and I think ggg manages the heavy themes quite well which is why I like it so much. Yea I have a personal attachment to this fic. 

So ye. This was it. This is my heavy angst collection. Might add more if I find other fics that murder my heart and soul but in the meantime, I’m going to listen to latte ASMR to relax.

this might be the best thing ive ever read and im crying

The Promised Iris (Part 1/2)

Pair: Jimin x Reader

Genre: Romance, Fluff, Slight Angst, Slow Burn, Fantasy, Soulmate AU

Word Count: 20k

Summary: During one rainy summer day at the park, a stranger name Jimin suddenly confesses that he’s in love with you. At first, you thought that Jimin was a stalker, but it turns out that there’s something he’s hiding from you.

You balance yourself by the edge of the sidewalk. It’s been painted in red for ‘no parking’. It’s hard to walk in a straight line with it being dark outside so you walk in a ‘T’ position for balance. There is, however, light illuminating from the restaurant’s entrance doors.

Standing by the door is your father and Lynn, his coworker, standing unusually close to each other, considering that they’re just being friends. You stop walking so you can observe your father holding hand with hers. He leans down and kisses her softly on the lips, then bids her farewell one last time with a ‘I love you’.

Once your father’s trivial conversation with her is done, he walks to you, and you skip to him with a wide, goofy smile on your face. He looks the happiest you’ve ever seen him be, even looking back at Lynn one more time before you try to get his attention.

“Did you like Lynn?” Your father asks you.

You nod excitedly. “Mm-hmm! Mrs. Lynn is a very nice lady. Will we get to meet her again?”

“If you want to, then sure! I’m sure Lynn would love to be friends with you. Come on, let’s go home.”

Your father takes ahold of your hand and walks to his parked car. You playfully hop over the cracks in the black tar as you hum a tune in your head. But your father’s last words to Lynn lingers with you. He said that he loves her, and there’s something about it that disturbs you. You don’t know why he said that to her if they’re just friends.

“Hey Dad?”

“Yes, (Y/N)?”

“Why did you tell Mrs. Lynn that you love her?” Being the youngster that you are, you couldn’t help but let your curiosity get the better of you. “You said that you only tell it to the person that you like the most.”

Your father is silent briefly before thinking of how to respond to your question. “That’s true, and I do love Lynn. I like being with her and she’s very nice to you, isn’t she?”

You nod, now feeling a bit more hesitant to answer to your father.

“I’m glad that you think that she’s nice. She can become a good mother for you, you know.”

Your smile fades away. There’s a knot in your stomach—your instincts telling you that what your father is doing isn’t right. Even for a five-year-old, you know that this isn’t acceptable.

“But…you always tell Mom that you love her too…and you always kiss her before you go to work. Wouldn’t Mom get mad if she saw you say that you love Mrs. Lynn?”

You feel a tight squeeze around your hand, causing you to flinch. Your father is still smiling, but you can sense that underneath it, he’s beginning to get annoyed with your constant barrage of questions.

“(Y/N), do you remember what I said?”

“…If Mom doesn’t know, then she won’t get angry.”

“That’s right. It’s a secret between you and me, and if you ever tell Mom, she’ll get mad at you.” He points his finger in an accusatory fashion.

Keep reading

when the camellia blooms | pjm

park jimin x kim! reader | 1 | 2

sypnosis: diagnosed with the hanahaki disease, you had only two options - accept a deathly fate, or never love again. 

genre: au, angst, fluff, humor, friends to lovers? maybe.

warnings: many talks of death and dying, minor character death, pain, unrequited love, swearing, talks of past sexual experience while intoxicated, pining, longing, really sad reader, and lots of angst.

word count: 7.2 k

“you would die for her, for him.”

“You’re dying.”

The two words escape past his lips steadily and breathily as your widening eyes linger on the way his hands fiddle with one another out of habit. He sighs deeply and resists the urge to avoid screaming at you and maintain eye contact out of professionalism, pushing back his slipping glasses.

“At this rate, you won’t have any more than a month. Had you told me this sooner, y/n, the results wouldn’t have been as scarce. But because you waited after almost a year of this, I’m afraid there’s not much to do.” He pushes his desk lightly to pull away from it, creating a mere distance between himself and the papers which finalized your future’s passing. Reaching his collar, he tugs on his tie to loosen it before unbuttoning the first stitch as he looks at you with seemingly stray and angered eyes mixed with sympathy.

Suddenly, his sight wanders the room as he shakes his head repeatedly, scoffing in disbelief. He then smiles, dimples prominent, lip tightened, eyebrows furrowed, and eyes broken, piercing straight at its target - that being you.

Standing up, he takes off his glasses and slams his fist onto the chair’s arm rest before running a hand across his hair, softly hissing.

The professionalism is now out of the drain, “You’re an idiot, y/n.”

Keep reading

If you like my fics without reblogging, I block you. Simple as that. Reblog fics.

The Promised Iris (Part 1/2)

Pair: Jimin x Reader

Genre: Romance, Fluff, Slight Angst, Slow Burn, Fantasy, Soulmate AU

Word Count: 20k

Summary: During one rainy summer day at the park, a stranger name Jimin suddenly confesses that he’s in love with you. At first, you thought that Jimin was a stalker, but it turns out that there’s something he’s hiding from you.

You balance yourself by the edge of the sidewalk. It’s been painted in red for ‘no parking’. It’s hard to walk in a straight line with it being dark outside so you walk in a ‘T’ position for balance. There is, however, light illuminating from the restaurant’s entrance doors.

Standing by the door is your father and Lynn, his coworker, standing unusually close to each other, considering that they’re just being friends. You stop walking so you can observe your father holding hand with hers. He leans down and kisses her softly on the lips, then bids her farewell one last time with a ‘I love you’.

Once your father’s trivial conversation with her is done, he walks to you, and you skip to him with a wide, goofy smile on your face. He looks the happiest you’ve ever seen him be, even looking back at Lynn one more time before you try to get his attention.

“Did you like Lynn?” Your father asks you.

You nod excitedly. “Mm-hmm! Mrs. Lynn is a very nice lady. Will we get to meet her again?”

“If you want to, then sure! I’m sure Lynn would love to be friends with you. Come on, let’s go home.”

Your father takes ahold of your hand and walks to his parked car. You playfully hop over the cracks in the black tar as you hum a tune in your head. But your father’s last words to Lynn lingers with you. He said that he loves her, and there’s something about it that disturbs you. You don’t know why he said that to her if they’re just friends.

“Hey Dad?”

“Yes, (Y/N)?”

“Why did you tell Mrs. Lynn that you love her?” Being the youngster that you are, you couldn’t help but let your curiosity get the better of you. “You said that you only tell it to the person that you like the most.”

Your father is silent briefly before thinking of how to respond to your question. “That’s true, and I do love Lynn. I like being with her and she’s very nice to you, isn’t she?”

You nod, now feeling a bit more hesitant to answer to your father.

“I’m glad that you think that she’s nice. She can become a good mother for you, you know.”

Your smile fades away. There’s a knot in your stomach—your instincts telling you that what your father is doing isn’t right. Even for a five-year-old, you know that this isn’t acceptable.

“But…you always tell Mom that you love her too…and you always kiss her before you go to work. Wouldn’t Mom get mad if she saw you say that you love Mrs. Lynn?”

You feel a tight squeeze around your hand, causing you to flinch. Your father is still smiling, but you can sense that underneath it, he’s beginning to get annoyed with your constant barrage of questions.

“(Y/N), do you remember what I said?”

“…If Mom doesn’t know, then she won’t get angry.”

“That’s right. It’s a secret between you and me, and if you ever tell Mom, she’ll get mad at you.” He points his finger in an accusatory fashion.

Keep reading

I’m Not Yours | kth. teaser II

↠ pairing: Kim Taehyung x Female Reader

↠ summary: Being set up with someone when you’re not looking to date is pretty tough.

Being set up with someone who has no interest in you is pretty hard too.

However, being set up with someone who is head over heels for your best friend? Now that’s a challenge within itself.

↠ genre: college au, strangers to lovers, friends to lovers, a messy love triangle, fratboy!tae, angst, fluff & smut

↠ rating: 18+

↠ word count: 5K (for chapter 1)

↠ warnings: angst, crying, feelings, tae unknowingly hurts oc, shouting (for the teaser), depiction of a toxic friendship, accusations are made, it’s one angsty mess... sorry 😩

↠ a/n: here is the second teaser for this fic! i wanted to show everyone a different side to this series, a complete opposite of the banner 👀 thank you to @kimtaehyng for the lovely banner which i love very much 💗 & @chateautae for having a final read of this before i posted, helping me fix it up 💗 feedback would be greatly appreciated & the tag list is still open <3

masterlist || series masterlist

↠ TEASER:

“Did you really just sleep with him?” Eunji spits out at you with eyes full of anger and deceit.

“She didn’t sleep with me! I would never even think of doing something like that.” Taehyung strongly defends himself whilst unwittingly shifting further away from you.

Your eyes follow his movements, eyebrows furrowing in confusion.

“Please, as if I’d be one to believe that.” Eunji scoffs as she paces back and forth in your bedroom, the feeling of stress overwhelming her completely.

“I’m literally in love with you, exactly why would I sleep with her?” Taehyung explains almost repulsively as he watches Eunji with careful eyes, evidently analysing her next possible response.

There was too much going on for you to even consider what thoughts you had brewing in your mind.

“You two have been spending an awful amount of time together, I wouldn’t be surpri-'' Eunji begins to snap back before she is interrupted by Taehyung once again.

“That doesn’t mean anything! She’s nothing compared to you! I love you!” Taehyung bellows out without any thought.

You feel your body go limp and your throat begins to tighten, tears threatening to spill.

Eunji’s face mirrors yours, pale with concern and hurting. Her expression softens as she stills in shock from Taehyung’s bluntness.

It takes Taehyung a moment to understand the tension he has now created. His stomach drops instantaneously as he slowly turns to look at you with guilt.

“Y/N I-” he utters quietly whilst moving forward, reaching for your arm. He fails to take hold of your crying self as you rush towards your bedroom door.

“Please, just leave.” Is all that you manage to muster out of yourself, before slamming the wooden door behind you.

Taehyung jumps at the sound of the damning slam as he falls back onto your bed, his pent up emotions finally escaping him. He bitterly regrets not having control over the harsh diction he had so casually spat out.

Taehyung lets his tears fall, cursing at himself for the seemingly irreparable damage he was now responsible for.

↠ taglist: @chateautae @opaljm @kookiestarlight @jimidol @xiaokoo @agustdakasuga @moonchild1 @lizsvcks @btsis7okay @honeyminsvga @vantxx95 @veronawrites @diorggukie @kimtaehyng @somewhereofftheglobe @boopytae @kokoandkookie @kikisfic @ppeachyttae @svftbaby @vaekth @swcetnight @writtenwhalien @strawverryxmilktae @taegularities @cantchooseanamebye @namjooningelsewhere @preciouschimine @dvalitaes @bangtanhome @aomi-nabi @mwitsmejk @oddlymnsmh @buttvi @taejinnies @taebabie11

↠ release date: tbc

↠ first teaser

↠ moodboard 1 || moodboard 2 || moodboard 3

ARMY’s Pet Name / Nickname?

RM: Eternal companion and friend Suga: Reason for existence Jin: ARMY’s just ARMY, irreplaceable with other words  J-Hope: Forever my Achilles’ heel ~♡♡ Jimin: Pretties V: My friend and best friend Jungkook: ARMY = Love

i am crying at 1am

A Piece of the Moonlight

➜ Words: 22.1k

➜ Genre: Angst, tad of Fluff, Historical, Mulan!Au

➜ Summary: For your loved ones, the people who are waiting at home, the people who have died - you will fight. And sometimes to fight means to sacrifice: who you really are and the person you really love.

➜ Warnings for underlying misogynistic themes, blood, war and death.

In one simple command, the comrades scream at the top of their lungs as they rush forward.

A blizzard of arrows swoop across the horizon and the enemies sprint. Swords clash in the middle as the two seas of men meet like the seams of two fabrics sewn together. It’s barbaric and vicious, a brutality that no one can ever be immune to.

The horses roar out, galloping ahead and leaping over the corpses, hooves marking into the dirt. Friend or foe, there is no fear. It is the destruction of humankind; a horrific massacre of chaos. There is mangling of flesh, pummeling down swords and battering skin. The sound of choking and strangled screams play like broken recordings, driving people to insanity. The battle ensues.

Every stitch and seam is mended by silk threads, each movement vital in order to keep the embroidery accurate; it is an art. An art that you are unfortunately unskilled at. One tug with too much strength and the strand would…snap.

Keep reading

♡ my favourite fics 4.0 ♡

Hi everyone here’s the next list as promised and I’ll probably have more soon the next one is already loaded up and I’ll post it next week. I hope you all enjoy this one, it has a lot of the fics I love and read over and over again, you should definitely check out the writers masterlists and give their blogs some love. Thank you to all the writers who wrote these amazing fics and for sharing them with us ♡ majority of the fics contain smut (18+ so no minors allowed please) if you guys would like to share any fics you’re currently reading or just make a recommendation feel free to leave an ask/message ❥

f - fluff s - smut a - angst

first light by @inktae f heartbreaking angst (ft. Taehyung) ↬ I cried after reading this one like full blown sob fest I’m still not over it and whenever I think back to it I get sad again, it’s so beautiful and heart breaking, the ending really had me in tears. This fic has my heart and so does the masked boy who lived in the forest 🥺🖤

blue by @honeyedhoseok f s a (soulmate au) ↬ I’m obsessed with this series even though there’s only one chapter out… it’s that summer romance type fic so you know the angst will be good and you’re going to fall in love with this couple and feel all the heart break when jungkook has to leave at the end of summer so prepare the tissues guys this one’s going to be good

shiver by @hansolmates f s a (bad boy jk and church girl reader)

whatever it takes by @thotantics s a (break up drabble)

playing with fire by @floralseokjin s (college au)

decalcomania by @floralseokjin a

talk to me in korean by @softyoongiionly f s (boyfriend jk) (limited addition) (advanced addition)

Press start by @softyoongiionly f s (established relationship au)

Blush by @jhsbrat s (fake dating au)

Play pretend by @seokoloqy s (fake dating au friends to lovers au)

tragic impulse by @fanta-ceo a (unrequited love)

In your eyes by @sweetaesuga (in your heart drabbles) f s a (friends to lovers)

I’d rather be dead by @starshapedkookie (Part II) s a (college au)

hidden stars by @jungblue s a (idol au) (ft. Yoongi) ↬ I LOVE THIS ONE 🥺🖤 jungkook is a douchbag and it’s heartbreaking when she finds out the truth and that he lied the entire time I honestly thought he was telling the truth and they have such cute moments together I was rooting for him in the beginning and yoongi is just the greatest guy ever I’m team yoongi on this one and as for the ending I loved it.

Over the edge by @kpopfanfictrash s

five dates by @kpopfanfictrash s (arranged marriage au)

mind in the gutter by @kpopfanfictrash s

iniquitous by @bngtnblues a (unrequited love au)

love like me by @delightfulserendipity f (boyfriend jk)

bourbon street by @btsracket s

operation: pop the cherry by @sxdmoonchxld s

stay with me by @svenotes f s (established relationship au)

your eyes tell by @njkbangtan f a (enemies to lovers au unrequited love)

magic shop by @njkbangtan f a (best friends to lovers au)

vacation in ruins by @jjungkookislife s a (ex-boyfriend au)

rejection by @jjungkookislife s a (idol au)

morning games by @jjungkookislife f s (established relationship au)

bitchin’ by @kinktae s a (enemies to lovers au)

druken thoughts by @jiminbbyboy s a

Reliving Memories by @prettytingzz s (friends with benefits au)

home by @bonny-kookoo f s

bad @thelillzmonster f s a (bad boy jk ft. Taehyung)

Bring the Heat by @letsgetitjk f s a (bad boy jk ft. Taehyung)

tangsuyuk love by @full-of-jams f s (friends to lovers au) ↬another fic that has my heart 🥺🥺 it’s beyond cute with them passing notes through her orders and jungkook just crushing on her during the tutoring sessions and doesn’t even know she’s the girl his talking too and omg the frustration of all the times they came close to finding out they’ve been talking this entire time through the notes!! I find this couple adorable such a great fic I probably re-read it way too many times but I can’t help it, it’s just such a beautiful and adorable fic ♡

Falling by @starshapedkookie f s a (soulmate au college au)

10 years by @yoonpobs f a (brother’s best friend, forgiveness) ↬THIS ONE IS SO HEARTBREAKING I LOVE IT, the ending is probably not what you expect but I enjoyed that it’s completely different to how it normally plays out and how strong the oc is, she finally gets to make him truly understand how little he made her feel when they were younger… I’m not going to lie I’ve read this alot of time and it still feels new every single time

I don’t think I’m okay by @ressjeon f s a (friends to lovers au)

whipped cream & cream pies by @evafrechette f s (married couple au)

platonic by @joheunsaram f s (friends with benefits au)

The nanny by @jjungkookislife f s (single dad au) ↬firstly I am a sucker for dilf jin and secondly I’m weak for jin in general so this fic is the one for me 😌 I absolutely loved reading this fic single dad au’s are my favourites. I liked the growth of the relationship between the couple and dae-hyun is just adorable 🥺😭😭

what we left behind by @suhdays f a (exes au)

Last November by @kithtaehyung s a (exes to lovers au)

you again by @gashinabts f s a

ships in the night by @yslkook a (best friends au unrequited love)

good for you by @krreader s a (college au teacher seokjin)

arrogant by @dreamyjoons s a

dinner and a photo booth by @bubmyg f (strangers to lovers au)

night drive by @minimonojoon f (friends to lovers au)

Love bites by @luxekook f s (co-workers to lovers)

don’t wanna fall by @9uk f s a (ft. Ex-boyfriend jungkook)

The Stranger by @btssmutgalore f s a (strangers to lovers au) ↬this one right here has a special place in my heart wow what a fic I absolutely loved it… jin is probably the sweetest guy ever and is so patient with the oc, I like how his so straight forward about liking the oc and they are so cute together I’m happy they met that day on the plane ♡

cherry blossom avenue by @scriptaed f a (arranged marriage au)

final sleigh by @floralseokjin s (enemies to lovers au)

it’s definitely you by @swcetnight f s a (strangers to lovers au)

play to win by @jjkthclub s (rivals au)

Bad word by @personasintro f s (dilf taehyung)

cloud nine by @xpeachesncream f s a (husband au)