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My Feet to Follow, and My Heart to Hold || KNJ || Masterpost

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Title: My Feet to Follow, and My Heart to Hold

Rating: NSWF - minors dni

Genre: college!au, roomie!au, angst, s2l, slow burn, eventual smut

Pairings: KNJ x female reader, unrequited KTH x reader (reader is in love with best friend!tae)

Summary: You know a lot about the many types of love thanks to Kim Taehyung. You love him as the only person you see as “family”, you love him as your very best friend, and you love him as the beautiful, funny man he’s become. But when a twist of fate during your senior year has you rooming with his good friend Kim Namjoon, you just might find that you have plenty left to learn about love. 

Lesson One: there are such things as a right way and a wrong way to love and to be loved.  Warnings: pov changes - some scenes are namjoon’s pov, conversations revolving around the past loss of immediate family members, language, drinking, angst, a LOT of poetry sorry, eventual smut - sections will have individual warnings

Author's Note: huge thank you to @/kookstempo, @/casuallyimagining, and @/toikiii for beta-ing and listening to me talk about this series a LOT!!! Second thank you to @/jeonqkooks for the gorgeous banner and ALSO for listening to me talk about this way too much lolllll

Series Teaser:

Namjoon peers at you through eyes squinted in suspicion. “How drunk are you?”

You consider this. “Enough that I want to kiss you again, to hell with the consequences. Not too drunk to remember that there would be consequences.”

The playfulness leaves his face; it’s too obvious not to notice. “Consequences like what?”

It’s a challenge. He knows you know it.

“Namjoon,” you say, a little pleading. Don’t. 

“Consequences like Taehyung would see?” he presses. His voice has gone hard.

I. Your Wild-Running Heart | 7k

II. My Devotion's Been an Ocean | 7k

III. So I Speak Your Name | 7.5k

IV. Something Has to Change | 7.5k

V. Say What You Mean | 6k

Teaser:

Namjoon’s not sure what makes him brave enough to say it - maybe because he’s been drinking. But he opens his mouth and asks, “Taehyung… what would happen if she did start to date someone?”

Coming Friday, February 10th!

VI. Don't Think About Him | 6k

VII. Supposed to Be With You | 6k

VIII. Nothing Grows Here | 5.5k

IX. Heedless and Willful | 7.5k

X. So I Follow | 7.7k

XI. Something You Have to Build | 5k

Extras:

-> The apartment's layout

-> Section II Poetry Analysis

-> Section III Poetry Analysis

Gone | t.h.

Summary: tom is back from shooting cherry, but he’s not okay.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3 Teaser | Part 3

Part 4 Teaser | Part 4 

this moodboard was made by the amazing b @worldoftom i’m in love with this so it has to go on the series post 💕

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made these—and i personally find them stunning.

they are simply majestic

Hi. I was wondering if you could recommend some Jimin angst fics. Thanks! Love your work 💜

🌷 Thank you, Anon! Though I don’t know if I did anything considered “work”, I just read and help share these gems. All the credits go to these writers 😁

Okay, for Jimin angst...I posted some here. It's not everything, but the themes are not exclusive so you can read the E2L or smutty ones and they'd still have angst (like Unholy Cock-Up has angsty vibes in the end). I also posted authors you can check that have good Jimin fics in their catalog (just check the tags for angst).

Additionally, please see these reading collections, infidelity & hanahaki, and try the fics with or feat. Jimin. You can always check the masterpost here and see if there are fics per list that appeal to you

Jimin Angst

🌷 Fics that are not included in any of the list yet (but I feel like I’m still missing some fics):

About Time @yoonia - (20/?) jungkook x reader x jimin, time slip au (also try Never Falling & Over Again)

Chanson d'amour @ephemeralkookie - idol au, friends to lovers to ex-friend-ish, e2l-ish

Clockwork Dreams @bangtanboysboo - soulmate au, prepare tissues

Cry me a Galaxy @army-author - angel jimin 😢

Even So @itsamejin - soulmate, idol au

Eternal Sunlight @kidguk - soulmate au (I feel like I’ve recommended every fic of this author at this point 😂. I really love this)

Epiphany @mygsii - soulmate au

Future Hearts (ongoing) @jungblue - (7/?) feat punk!Jungkook

If We Were a Movie @kimvtae - fwb!au. jimin gets a girlfriend 😢

I'll Never Be Her @anon-luv - (6/6)ugh, please listen to the suggested playlist for maximum experience. This is Jimin still pining for his ex. Uhm, the ending...

La Grande Maison: A Mystery in Three Acts @softyoongiionly - mystery/thriller, feat BTS

Labyrinth @scriptaed - (41/41) Gang AU. This is being reposted by author 😍 I don't think I've finished this since my fanfic reading was on and off before. So read with me! 🥰 (also, try their other fics like Paper Hearts which is Jungkook x R x Jimin) and Star-crossed.

Less of You + Vintage @kimnjss - social media au (smau). fratboy!jimin x dancer. ugh, I just remember everyone screaming and getting mad on my feed during its run (fun angsty times lol)

My Lie For You @/armyauthor - (3/3) bestfriend au. another author whose catalog I binged on

Presage @eleventoes - clairvoyant au

Tell Me of an Eternity: Spring @thedefinitionofbts - fantasy au. I love author's fics and writing style.

The Parting @minyoongijjangjjangmanboongboong - (13/13) Supernatural au. Reaper!OC. Florist!Jimin (I don't think there's a story of theirs I didn't like).

Waltz Between Us @inktae - fantasy au, Christmas

Touched by a Fallen Star @cutaepatootie - Prince Jimin, star-crossed, mystery surrounding OC’s identity, fantasy  

Lavender Hues @/inktae - a big fan of author so I'm just recommending everything lol

Breathe @thebiasrekkers - (2/2) time slip au, modern fantasy

Even if We Survive @ddaenysus - (2/?) Hunger Games. Enemies to Lovers.

The Promised Iris @akinnie75 - (2/2) soulmate au, fantasy (okay I realized soulmate au Jimin is very angsty huh)

I am currently binge-reading their fics! I think the concept they have per fic is interesting. I like this story too. 😊

Novocaine @kinktae - (2/?) this is part of the Rewind Series! 90s au. Exes au.

Facade + Catharsis + Saudade @youmakemebacon - Jimin | series 7/7 + drabbles | arranged but divorcing 

Blue Side by hoseokiehope - something I read on tumblr before author deactivated. Still on AO3 😊. Ghost AU.

I am also reading this Tatemae series by @99liners which is more of angsty smut and I find the stories intriguing. 

Fics are not mine, credits go to all the writers. Thank you for these fics 😍.

Please reblog and share these fics 💜

*updated 2021Feb18! I suddenly remembered a fic I’ve read that’s really angsty

idk why y'all don't talk about it more but here's namjoon saying "it's not in my vocabulary" and taehyung clapping back with "well then look it up" in his sec c deep af luxurious voice 😳🥵

They’re so chaotic and fun together and I need more

love-like | kth. oneshot

➜ pairing: taehyung x reader

➜ summary: for you, loving Taehyung has always been easy. For him, however, choosing you is hard when you’re not his type.

alternatively, he gives everyone but you a chance. Maybe, next time will be your turn.

➜ genre/rating: angst, comedy, fluff, romance | friends to lovers au, college au | PG-13

➜ warnings: use of foul language, self-esteem issues, slight internalized misogyny

➜ wordcount: 8.2k

➜ author’s note: it’s finally here! This took a while, but I hope it was worth the wait. Just a few things to keep in mind: time is a social construct, so let’s ignore the possible loopholes; our characters are very dumb and frustrating sometimes, so let’s be patient with them; This is a college au, but not much really happens there?

Happy reading ♡

For as long as you could remember, you have always chosen Taehyung. Since childhood, it has always been you who gravitated towards him.

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Angsty af recs that made me cry like a bitch:

Disclaimer: Some of these fics deal with pretty heavy and dark topics so trigger warning!

Okay so my emo phase never left me and I love reading stories that have some real girthy pain in them cause I love suffering like the masochist I truly am. Even better if they have sad endings. So I’ve collected and recorded all the fics that have literally made me stay up at night while crying and have really, truly ripped my heart out and I wanna share this pain with ya’ll cause these fics, while sad af, are honestly really well written and I want people to know that these masterpieces exist!

So without further ado, here’s me list lads:

A Lionheart’s Oath (M) by sugaxjpg Jungkook x Reader

So lemme just start off by saying that THIS FIC is what made me wanna make this list in the first place cause I am pretty sure this is the first fic that made me cry. It’s a 36k long story and it’s a Royal!AU to boot, with lovely descriptions of scenery and a couple of intense scenes, this will always be one of my all-time favourite JK fics out there and my go-to to break my heart *sad uwus*

Tears of a Villain by jimlingss Yoongi x Reader

Ok this fic deserves a warning before you read it cause you gotta emotionally prepare yourself for this one fam. It’s about 15k long and it’s also a Superhero!AU but I swear to you, I did not expect it to be so utterly heart-wrenching in the most depressing ways. However, don’t let that scare you because the way jiimlingss captures those emotions and writes them in a way that’s so tangible and makes the pain all worth it. Another favourite of mine too.

Strain by evangelene  Taehyung x Reader

Oof our first series on this list and it’s a Hanahaki!AU as well! Of course a sad bitch like me adores any Hanahaki AU’s weather they’re sad or happy but this one in particular has excellent pacing and the most relatable, and dare I say coolest OC I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading. I also really like the relationship between the characters (especially the relationship between certain two people but I don’t wanna spoil anything). It has about 5 chapters in total and each part has made me cry so grab a tissue and maybe some popcorn too. It’s a ride hon! 

Bad Guy (M) by sweetbunnykook Seokjin x Reader

Omg god, holy shit, omg. Can I just say how much I adore sweetbunnykooks works? Like the stuff they write about is really dark and I LOVE it! In saying that, another trigger warning because we are dealing with a Mafia!AU folks! This is also a series and It’s about 6 parts long and still on-going too. The thing about this one here is that you instantly get flung into the deep-end and everything is so bloody intense and every part hurts and you might need to take breaks between each part because holy shit. H O L Y  S H I T. Bunny really doesn’t hold back any punches with this one.

Only You (M) by sweetbunnykook Jungkook x Reader

I’ve told ya’ll about how much I love Bunny’s fics so it’s no surprise that they’re on here the second time in a row. This time however, it’s a Yandere!AU just not your typical “Yuno Gasai” Yandere. No, the Yandere characterization in this AU has more of a baby boy nature and it’s a refreshing take to the genre but the fic still holds that intensity that Bunny has a natural talent for. Oh! and the smut scenes are nothing to gloss over as well, and there are many smut scenes throughout the series. Another 6 chaptered story that’s still on-going. 

Cut by chimchimsauce Namjoon x Reader

This fic here bois. This one here HURTED. It’s a Soulmate!AU but a very sardonic one that takes a cynical point of view until the end where it’s just… oof. And the ending, OH THAT ENDING. God I remember crying until 2am cause of how well everything was placed to pull that ending off and the way chimchimsauce manages to make me feel a flurry of emotions in a short amount of time is *chefs kiss*. Like my heart was played like a fucking fiddle rip. 

Let Me Stay Close to You by 9uk Jungkook x Reader

Imma be honest with you fam, this isn’t gonna be everyones cup of tea because I think this fic will hit a little to close to home for a lot of people. It deals a lot with bullying and trauma and it’s like… really anxiety inducing lmao. I love it personally for that fact though and it makes you empathise with the pain and emotional turmoil OC had to put up with throughout their years. It’s a completed series with 8 parts plus a spin-off. 

Tales of Greyria by cutaepatootie OT5 x Reader

These are a small collection of what I’ll say are some of the saddest fics in the fandom lol and I honestly couldn’t even pick one story from the five presented cause they all made me emo as all hell. I still get misty-eyed from reading the Prince of the Red Rose, like thats a major oof fic. Though, these stories include some of the most prettiest descriptions of scenery I’ve read as they paint a vivid picture that I wish was real.

Small by seokjincoffee Yoongi x Reader

Dang, Small really stuck true to it’s title and no, I’m not making a “Yoongi is short” joke what I meant was that I felt small and insignificant when I was reading this fic. There is this kind of depressing/realistic undertone to this 3 part series where it was really easy to imagine yourself in a situation like this. A sort of heavy-ish fic but 100% made me feel good despite what transpires. It’s a lowkey hurt and comfort AU pretty much.

I’ll Never Be Her (M) by anon-luv Jimin x Reader

I’m not ashamed to so say how utterly wrecked this series left me. Like I felt so fucking bad for OC while reading at I honestly just wanted to wrap them up in a blanket rip. Ever wondered what it’s like to have deep insecurities or low self-esteem issues? Well anon-luv brilliantly writes an accurate portrayal of what it feels like over 5 chapters and I’m lowkey tearing up just remembering what the OC must of felt like oof. Good game anon-luv. Good game.

Slight Changes (M) by chiminiemoans Taehyung x Reader x Jimin

Ah okay so I’m gonna cut to the chase, this is an Infidelity AU. i know a lot of people don’t like that sort of thing so just a heads up. It’s also emotional suffering at it’s finest and I vividly remember shouting “Fuck you Taehyung!” out loud through tears because of a particular scene. It doesn’t help how visceral chiminie narrates the emotional pain that all the characters are dealing with and being able to consistently hold this throughout 8 chapters as well as sprinkling a few life lessons in the mix. It’s still on-going as well I think? So I just hope it ends happy for OC. Poor baby :(((

I’ll Drive you to the Hospital by gggbtswillbethedeathomeggg Jungkook x Reader

ALERT! Very heavy themes that deal with self harm and mental illness. Please don’t read if these are triggers to you :( make some hot coco instead :). Alright so if you can handle these topics then I also wanna say this fic has no romance in it. ggg doesn’t romanticise these topics AT ALL so this 10k fic hits hard and real. It also follows a Sibling AU theme and I think ggg manages the heavy themes quite well which is why I like it so much. Yea I have a personal attachment to this fic. 

So ye. This was it. This is my heavy angst collection. Might add more if I find other fics that murder my heart and soul but in the meantime, I’m going to listen to latte ASMR to relax.

promises: pray you catch me

reader x namjoon

♡ genre: angst ♡ content: cheating,implied sex, ♡ words: 1,346 ♡ song: pray you catch me by beyoncé ♡ synopsis: marriage life with namjoon hasn’t been the same lately. He’s been cold  and distant, always whispering on the phone. And you can’t help but  notice… ♡ note:  this is part of a series, can be read as stan alone but if you’d like more context the other chapeters are listed below. Part 1 Part 2 Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  finale   

♪ You can taste the dishonesty. It’s all over your breath, as you pass it off so cavalier. But even that’s a test. Constantly aware of it all. My lonely ear. Pressed against the walls of your world

Something is wrong.

You don’t know how or when things changed, but something shifted between the two of you. There is a distance now, more tangible than the miles that separate you from him when he’s on business trips. Farther than the long-distance phone calls that became less and less frequent. Even now, as you lay in the same bed with him only a few feet away you can tell. Something is wrong.

Because you can’t remember a time when you and Namjoon had ever been so far apart. 

He would always come home late at night. Languid footsteps trailing towards the bedroom. Eyes tired and red from too many hours spent awake working on the newest album. Gravity pulling him down in a slump that could only be from the heaviness of leadership, from carrying the weight of the entire group. 

And though he was exhausted, he would still find a way to come and take care of you. Even dead-tired, his warm brown eyes would light up and his lips would curl at the sight of you. He’d make his way over and pull you close, until your bodies became an entangled mess of arms and legs, chests pressed together as you curled into each others warmth. His fingers would run soothingly through your hair and he’d ask you how your day went. The moments you spent within his arms seemed to make even the bad days good.

But it’s been a long time since your husband held you close and melted away your bad days.

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