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âœïœĄâ being in a relationship with a formula 1 driver like lando was hard, but not impossible. right? a story based on THE GREATEST by billie eilish. â lando norris x fem!reader
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â Iâm trying my best to keep you satisfied â
Loving a formula 1 driver, let alone being in a relationship with one, wasnât easy. But that didnât stop you. In fact, you were sure nothing was ever going to be able to get in between the love that Lando and you shared, the kisses and the late night cuddles, the fun family dinners and the celebrations of his milestones. Everything was so perfect.
Yes, sometimes itâs hard to meet his standards, sometimes having you leave your own family to go attend races with him, or the blatant flirting he would still be partaking in at after-race parties, it was definitely a flaw of your relationship, but maybe you shouldâve just worn something prettier or done your makeup in a different way, in the end itâs your fault if his attention wasnât keen on you, right?
But no matter what, you were ready to do it for him. Heâs your main priority, just as he should be. Thatâs what makes a relationship a functioning one, doesnât it?
â Let you get your rest while I stayed up all night â
Of course you werenât always his main priority, but who were you to judge him? Heâs a professional racing driver, itâs not only a job but a complete career, and he wouldnât trade it for anything in this world. Having a world championship under his belt, that was more important than you. You just have to live like that, someone had to put in the work for the relationship. And because it definitely wasnât Lando, it was you. But you didnât mind, youâd do it all over again for him. Because you truly loved him, and to you, there was nothing in this world stronger than love.
So when you both finally get home after a long race weekend, you donât mind doing the cooking and cleaning and laundry for him. You also donât mind him going to sleep while youâre up packing up luggage for him and you to depart for the next GP. You wouldâve appreciated some skin contact after such a busy and nerve wrecking weekend, but if he needed rest, then he should have it. You could rest another time, maybe during the flight or while he was spending time with his friends. You werenât sure why, but Lando always insisted on not having you with him, always making up excuses why you couldnât come even if in reality, you were at âhomeâ trying to get used to the new place youâd have to stay at for the next week. Maybe you wouldâve preferred being with him, or having him with you, or being in your home country with your loved ones he was yet to meet, but thatâs okay. He had his fun with his friends and their girlfriends, thatâs what mattered.
Maybe he didnât want you there because, while he dated a girl heâs known since forever, a girl who knew him before his win and his fame and his career, all the others were dating models and successful women. Maybe you embarrassed him a little bit, so you were understanding when he told you to stay at home. His fans didnât exactly love you either, so actually, it was really thoughtful of him not to have you by his side when he went out, because then his fan base and the news wouldnât be able to pick at every little flaw you had, which you had surprisingly lots of, as the media told you.
The clock read 5am when you finally finished packing up the luggage and went to bed yourself. Well, not the bed but rather the couch, because Lando had just previously told you not to wake him if he was already asleep, and who were you to rip him out of his peaceful slumber when he had so much pressure on him the last three days? It was a little cold, but thatâs okay. It was just kinda difficult to fall asleep on the small, hard, uncomfortable couch.
The clock read 8am when you woke up to prepare breakfast for him and you.
â And you donât wanna know how alone Iâve been â
You knew better than to complain. Of course you felt a little bit alone in the huge apartments while he was away, spending time at the track or in the gym with his friends. How could you not? You were in a country youâve never been in before, a country with no familiar faces or friends or people you could talk to besides the McLaren team and well, your boyfriend. But in the end, Lando showed you the world. And you had to be grateful for that. Even if he basically just pushed you around the world and then picked you up again when it was time to travel farther. And god, how you missed your family. And how deeply you wanted them to meet your one and only love, Lando. It was sickening, the need to be at home again.
One time after a long day of qualifying, you told Lando about your homesickness and that you felt a bit alone on this journey.
He got mad and told you if you wanted, you could just leave. Heâs not keeping you here. 20 minutes after, you were stood in the kitchen making dinner for the two of you. Your response to âAre you actually fucking crying right now?â was a quiet âI was just cutting onions.â
His reply to âI thought we were eating together, I made dinnerâ was âIâm going out to eat with Charles and his girlfriend.â
You felt your heart break in that second, but he was just mad and not thinking straight. Outbursts are okay sometimes.
â Let you come and go, whatever state Iâm in â
You spent the whole evening and night crying, putting his food in the fridge in case he was hungry later. The tears didnât stop until he came back through the door, obviously a bit tipsy. He quickly wrapped his arms around you and told you how sorry he was, telling you that next time, he would take you with him to dinner. You knew it wasnât true, and he knew as well.
At least you felt his touch again, his arms around you and his rough fingers caressing your cheek. That was worth the tears and the unappreciated cooking.
â Man am I the greatest? My congratulations â
Miami GP â24. Landoâs first win in his Formula 1 career. You were the proudest girlfriend in the world and you couldnât wait to celebrate his win with him tomorrow, knowing heâd be busy partying with the others today. Youâre in Miami, after all. And he has just won. Of course he had to celebrate that with his boys, surrounded by beautiful women and loads of alcohol. He would never cheat on you, but you were sure he wouldnât mind being in the presence of some women who were gifted with a prettier face and body than you were. Thatâs okay, at least he doesnât use you for your looks.
As he stood there on the highest step of the podium, smiling like a little kid who had just fulfilled his dreams, smiling like he once had smiled at you, it made you so incredibly happy and emotional and you couldnât wait to finally see him and give him a big celebration kiss.
Once he was back in the paddock he told you to wait until the cameras were gone. You didnât get a hug either. Not until you were back in the apartment.
At last. you got your hug and a kiss. As a goodbye before he left with Max.
â All my love and patience, all my admiration â
The day after, you woke up at 7, waiting for him to wake up while you were already up in the kitchen, baking a small cake with a âoneâ on it, all decorated in orange.
Even if you were left unsatisfied yesterday, that didnât stop you from still feeling eternally proud of him, and proud to be able to call yourself his girlfriend. He was so dedicated to the things he loved, it was a pleasure to watch him go through life with his determination. Racing was his passion, thereâs no shame in sometimes forgetting your girlfriend for it.
He finally entered the kitchen at 12, smiling at the small cake placed upon the dining table. âSurprise!â You said, and he immediately went to hug and kiss you, smiling just as brightly as he did on that podium. Moments like these were a reminder that he did in fact love you, and once again, that itâs all worth it.
â All the times I waited for you to want me naked â
You often wondered how the others managed to keep up their relationships.
Just recently you were having lunch with the other WAGs at a restaurant near the circuit. Originally, you didnât want to come, still feeling insecure about what the media has to say about you, the ugly duckling around the most beautiful women in F1 history. However, they insisted. At the table the girls began talking about the party after Landoâs win, and how proud you mustâve been to see him on that podium. You loved talking about it, until you were asked why you didnât come with him to the party. A lame excuse of âI was just tired and not feeling wellâ made the others look at you weirdly. How could she be so selfish and miss her boyfriendâs afterparty for that? Alex, Charlesâ girlfriend smiled at you with a knowing look, but you pretended not to notice, feeling embarrassed.
The next topic at the table was rather intimate, and you wanted to puke right then and there. Were you really the only one who hasnât been touched in so long, because there just wasnât enough time between all the travelling and racing and exhaustion? Or were you just not good enough? Was it really your looks? Should you change?
You missed it dearly, the intimate times with Lando. The ones where he finally took care of you instead of the other way around, the ones where you could feel the connection between you two with all your senses. Was it your fault that these times stopped? Lando was so perfect, it just couldnât be his fault.
Maybe you just had to wait until he wanted you again.
â Made it all look painless, man, am I the greatest? â
You didnât show your feelings often, not your real ones. The times he had catched you crying for him on you knees were pathetic little situations he shouldnât have seen you in. When asked, you denied. âDo you feel lonely in this relationship?â â âNo.â âDoes he make you cry often?â â âNo.â âDo you think your relationship is slowly breaking apart?â â âNo.â
Talking about it with the women around the paddocks or when youâd facetime your friends from home, you never once said anything bad about Lando. Never once complained about how he treated you or how he ignored your feelings and your endeavors. Not even your closest friends knew what was really going on, or maybe, you just didnât know that yourself. In your mind, this was just a phase where his career just made it impossible for him to focus on you. Someday this would change. Sooner or later, it would change.
For everyone else, you had the greatest, perfect, flawless relationship. And you didnât mind keeping that imagine up. For his sake.
â Doing whatâs right without a reward â
And so it kept going. You making efforts, him abandoning you. No matter what you did for him, no matter how much heart and love you put in for him, it was left unappreciated. But thatâs okay, still. You were in a relationship, your only task was to love him, and you did. Because thatâs the right thing to do in a relationship, and for him, youâd do anything. No matter if he appreciated it or not at the moment, you knew that, eventually, he would.
â And we donât have to fight when itâs not worth fighting for â
At least you hoped that he would change someday, so far he obviously hadnât, and it was slowly getting to you in a more serious manner. In a way that might worry you and the people around you, in a way you wouldnât forget. That one time you prepared dinner for the both of you and he went out with Charles and Alex instead, it was all forgotten in a matter of seconds when he apologized. But now every single interaction he had with other women haunted you, asleep or awake. No apology would help you actually think he would change his current treatment towards you, and as it seemed, he didnât care either.
There was no point in fighting anymore, no point in telling him how you feel whenever he walks out the door, leaving you alone with nothing but your awful thoughts. For fuckâs sake, you left all you had behind to be there for him, and how does he show his gratefulness? He doesnât, because he isnât fucking grateful, and he couldnât care less about you and your dumb feelings. He doesnât care that you want nothing more than to finally be able to introduce him to your family, he doesnât care that you gave up your own career for his, and he doesnât care that while heâs treating you the way he is, all the people who knew the both of you and basically the whole internet was only picking you apart. Never him.
Oh you were such a shitty girlfriend refusing to kiss him in front of the cameras after his first win, but wasnât he the one who pushed you away? And how could you miss the party that night, the party dedicated to your oh soo perfect boyfriend? Do you not care about him enough? Were you not proud? So many girls would trade their life for a day in your shoes, and you just didnât appreciate that? What a disappointment you are to the WAGs, and what a disappointment you must be to Lando.
âLando please, listen to me,â â âNo, Iâm done with your insufferable complaining all the time. I meant it the first time I said it and I mean it now, if you wanna leave, leave.â
â And you donât wanna know what I wouldâve done, anything at all, worse than anyone â
You wouldâve walked through fire for him to love you again. For everything to go back like it once was. When he would brag about you to his friends and even in interview, when he took you to hang out with his friends and to parties, always keeping an arm around your shoulders so other guys wouldnât even dare to look at you, when he was so eager to fulfill not only his, but also your dreams, wether that be a simple one, like him meeting your parents in your childhood home, or the greater ones, like becoming not only a good, but a great graphic designer. When he would watch you draw and perfect yet the smallest details with nothing but the growing admiration for you visible in his eyes. When he would kiss you good night and good morning, when he would ask about your day and passionately tell you about his. Back to when he had loved you. But now it was too late. All the things you had done for him, all the things you would probably still do, in the end, were for nothing more than a broken heart.
The sleepless nights. The nerve wrecking days. The painful parting from your family and friends. The abandonment of the life with him you had so desperately wished for.
It was all for nothing.
â I loved you, and I still do. Just wanted passion from you, just wanted what I gave you â
Last day before the summer break, the last race. And probably, the last day of him and you.
You were done with his shit, the sad look on your face visible to everyone in the room as you sat and watched the race from the McLaren hospitality, his parents seated next to you. Something felt very off, your usual happy and optimistic demeanor completely washed off, replaced by a dark, almost expressionless look. They sensed that something might have happened between Lando and you, but nobody dared to ask, too busy watching the intense race.
The outcome was disappointing, Lando finishing behind Max, the one heâd have to beat to win the championship. The team and the people inside the paddock and the hospitality clapped for him and Oscar anyway, with Oscar finishing second and Lando fifth. You cheered and smiled, but it didnât reach your eyes. You knew what was to come once youâd be back in the hotel. You were scared, sure it would be the most painful thing youâd ever have to do, putting all the things youâd done for him, all the things heâd done to you, in its shadow.
The celebration went well, again, no hug or kiss for you. You were sure his mother had even scolded him for it, but that wasnât important anymore. You didnât really care anyway, the media would run their mouths about you anyway, and Lando surely doesnât give a shit either way. You desperately needed an answer, you wanted him to explain it to you. What had suddenly happen, what did you do wrong, for him to suddenly act like this? And if he fell out of love, then why couldnât he just tell you?
Meanwhile Lando was busy celebrating Oscarâs podium, taking pictures for the McLaren instagram account and whatnot, then doing the post race interviews.
He loved you, he really did. But he just didnât see you as someone he wanted to spend this life with. He couldnât imagine living his private life without you by his side, he wanted you to come with him to visit his family at home, to come with him when he would meet up with Max and the others during summer break or really, he wanted to just do nothing with you, nothing but share small kisses and cuddling on his couch at home, eating some homemade food and drinking a glass of wine together. At the same time, he thought that you didnât fit in. Not in this life.
You met when he wasnât yet the person he is now. When he was still passionate about so many other things other than just racing. Of course this had always been a part of him, but so were you. And now its just racing that occupied his mind, no single corner in his head left for his girlfriend. He knew it hurt you, but at the same time, part of what the media had to say about you was true. The first season he had spent with you by his side, the internet was already raging about how you werenât the typical WAG, and how they thought seeing you next to someone like a Kelly Piquet, you did seem a little weird. Lando didnât want to be confronted with these opinions anymore, so instead of standing up for you, he decided to âhideâ you. To not put you in the center of attention after a race to hug and kiss you, to just let you stand there and wait until you were inside where no one could see you. He also avoided reading anything the internet had to say about you, so the fact that his plan had only made you gain more and more hate, went unnoticed. Just like your complaints when he didnât want to be seen with you after races at parties or even in a restaurant for dinner with Charles and Alexandra. Of course they had invited the both of you, and not only him. Lando came up with an excuse so he the paparazzi wouldnât see you. The rumor that Lando and you have broken up after he was seen at dinner alone didnât seem to bother him either, but it did you. He thought you liked it this way, as he thought, without any hate comments about your looks or the way youâd dress compared to the others. He thought you appreciated not having to dress up for parties or the countless hangouts with his friends. He thought you cried that night after he was out for dinner because you cooked for him and he just went out, not that you cried because you felt not good enough for him to want you to come with him.
He really was stupid enough to think you were happy with all of this.
And while he was happy to be able to finally spend his summer break with you and only you, it all came crashing down when you were back in your shared apartment. Tears were forming in his eyes while yours were already streaming down your face as you yelled at him, telling him every yet so small detail that left your heart crushed and broken while he was busy âhiding youâ, or as he explained it to you, âprotecting you.â this wasnât protection, this was blatant ignorance. And finally in this relationship, you did something for yourself. You left.
Maybe it was miscommunication, or him refusing to communicate at all. But that didnât matter now, âcause now, it was over. No more kisses, no more cuddles and no more meeting friends or families. But most importantly, no more crying, no more sleepless nights, no more unappreciated support, no more hiding.
â I waited and waited â
Finally at home, your family had expected to see you with Lando by your side, and they were so very excited to finally be able to meet the guy their lovely daughter was head over heels for, using every chance she had to gush over him and how unbelievably proud she was of him. So when you stood there with puffy eyes and all your luggage placed next to you, they knew the tears you cried werenât happy tears from finally behind home again. They were tears from saying goodbye to the life you were ready to spend with your boyfriend, who was now on the other side of the world.
You knew it was stupid, but you couldnât help waiting for him to reach out to you again. A call or a message, hell, you hoped he was as miserable without you as you were without him so that maybe Max or even Oscar had to contact you again. Despite all the times he had hurt you, you missed him so dearly.
But after months and months of waiting, you decided that there was no use in waiting. Itâs over, and its for the better, it has to be.
It was gonna be hard seeing him again, once the summer break is over. Even if the love between Lando and you ended, your love for Formula 1 didnât, and you werenât about to give that up just for the sake of not having to see him. Youâd be in the stands or in front of the TV, heâd be in his car or in front of the camera. No point in worrying. But still, the first few races, you watched curled up next to your best friend and your parents from home. It was so nice to finally be able to see everyone again, everyone you had to miss all these months you were away. Your dad and you used to always watch races together, and you were more than grateful to finally be able to do exactly that again.
â Man am I the greatest? God, I hate it, all my love and patience â Unappreciated. You said your heart was jaded, you couldnât even break it, I shouldnât have to say it ⊠â
His instagram and twitter definitely make it seem like your broken heart doesnât match his perfectly fine one. He seemed happier than ever, having fun with his friends at parties and driving around different towns with different girls. Seeing him was draining, but how were you supposed to never hear about him again when the entire internet was screaming his name? You wanted your life to finally feel easier now, but it seemed to only get harder.
You felt you lost your soulmate, while he only lost his greatest burden.
It wasnât until you watched the first race after the summer break with your dad that it all came flooding back to you. Lando crossed the finish line first, and as the camera switched to show him get out of his car and rip off his helmet to kiss his new girlfriend that looked weirdly similar to you, surrounded by loud cheers, clapping and ecstatic, smiling faces, you realize that maybe, he really didnât love you. And that he didnât *want* to kiss you after his races, because it seems that if he had wanted to, he wouldâve.
At the same time, even while standing on the highest step of that podium, Lando couldnât help but think about you, how stupid he was to treat you like a piece of shit when all you wanted was to be there for him after races like this one and most importantly, why the hell no girl heâs been with after your breakup felt even remotely close to you. You were the greatest thing heâd ever had, no trophy, no price would ever compare, and he managed to take it all for granted.
If he had just put in a little more effort, really, you couldâve been the greatest .
Atleast you kissed the brick before you threw it at me
Charles Leclerc x high school sweetheart!Reader
Summary: you donât belong in the shadows, but selfishly Charles loves that youâre only his there (in which Charles Leclerc has kept his girlfriend hidden from the world for years and years ⊠until he didnât)
The door shuts softly behind him.
That in itself is telling â Charles always shuts it gently when heâs trying not to bring the world inside with him. Shoes scuffed, travel-worn jacket slung over one shoulder, eyes a little too tired to be young, he exhales like the weight of the grid is still pressing against his spine.
Silence greets him, familiar and warm. Itâs not the absence of noise, but the presence of peace.
He walks through the apartment slowly, like something might break if he moves too fast. The city hums outside, Monaco golden and quiet beneath the early evening sky. From the living room, the sliding balcony doors are cracked open just enough to let in the scent of sea salt and sun-warmed stone.
Thatâs where you are.
Curled up on the balcony chaise, legs tucked beneath you, a loose cardigan slipping off one shoulder. Thereâs a book in your lap, but itâs long since fallen shut. Your eyes are closed, head tipped toward the sky like youâre soaking in the last of the daylight. Hair soft, skin glowing in the low sun â it hits him all at once, how desperately heâs missed you.
Charles leans against the doorframe, watching for a moment, throat tight.
âMon soleil,â he says softly, barely more than breath.
You blink your eyes open, slow and sleepy, like your mindâs still somewhere inside the pages or the sunlight or the quiet. Then you smile.
âHey,â you say, voice rough with rest.
He crosses the distance in seconds. The moment his lips brush your temple, everything else dissolves â the cameras, the interviews, the brutal double-header, the fake smiles. All of it gone. You tilt your head so he can press a second kiss just under your ear, and his arms wrap around you from behind, grounding.
âYouâre home early,â you murmur.
Charles huffs a quiet laugh against your skin. âItâs nine.â
Your fingers find his. âEarly for you.â
He exhales, forehead pressed to your shoulder. âDidnât want to go to the after-party. Couldnât take another question about the championship.â
âDid you win?â
âYeah.â
Thereâs a pause.
âIâm proud of you,â you say, simply, gently. Like you mean it and nothing else. No noise. No expectations.
He closes his eyes.
âYou know they had me filming a social media bit with Lewis twenty minutes after I crossed the finish line?â He says, muffled against your collarbone. âI was still sweating. I hadnât even called Maman yet.â
âSounds like a dream job.â
Charles snorts. âYeah. The dream.â
You twist a little to look at him. Thereâs a faint crease between his brows, like something he hasnât said yet is still sitting there, waiting.
âWhat is it?â
He doesnât answer immediately. Instead, he brushes your hair back, fingers gentle at your temple, then your jaw. The kind of touch that says youâre real. I need that right now. You lean into it.
âThey want me to fake date someone,â he says finally, eyes fixed on yours. âFor a brand thing. PR stunt. âBroaden my audience appeal.â Some model whoâs apparently very into vintage cars and barely has a pulse.â
You blink.
He watches you, gauging the flicker of emotion across your face. âI said no,â he adds, quickly. âObviously. I didnât even let them finish the pitch.â
Your voice is dry. âBut you told me anyway.â
âI had to,â Charles says. âItâs your life too.â
Youâre quiet for a moment. âDo you think theyâd actually push it?â
He sighs. âTheyâre not stupid. They know Iâd walk before I let them touch this.â His thumb presses to the space over your heart. âBut theyâre not used to me saying no to everything else.â
âYouâve said no to a lot.â
He smiles faintly. âYeah, but only when itâs worth it.â
You reach for his hand, the one still resting on your shoulder. Your fingers link instinctively.
âWas it hard?â You ask. âTo say no?â
âNo,â he says immediately. âWhatâs hard is not being able to tell the world why.â
Thereâs something deeper in that â something that aches.
You look at him. âYouâd want to?â
He hesitates.
âI would,â Charles says quietly. âBut I know what it would do to you.â
That stings, a little. Not because itâs wrong, but because itâs true.
He sees it in your expression. âHey,â he says, gently. âI didnât mean that like â like you canât handle it. I know you could. I just ⊠I like this. Us. The quiet. The privacy.â
âI like it too,â you admit, leaning your cheek into his shoulder. âBut sometimes I think ⊠maybe Iâm hiding.â
âYouâre not,â he says immediately, and thereâs something fierce about it, the way his arms tighten around you. âYouâre not. You just like peace. And that doesnât mean youâre hiding.â
You shrug.
He shifts to face you more directly, hands cupping your jaw now. âYou donât belong in the shadows,â Charles murmurs, brushing his thumbs across your cheeks. âBut selfishly, I love that youâre only mine there.â
You exhale a shaky little laugh. âThatâs kind of possessive.â
He smiles. âYeah. It is.â
âYouâre usually not.â
âNot with the world, no,â he says. âBut with you? Yeah. I am. I want to be.â
You look at him for a long time.
Thereâs still sea breeze in the air, warm and thick with salt. The sun is low now, slipping behind the hills. The light on your skin is rose-gold, and he looks at you like you hung the sun there yourself.
âI wrote today,â you say finally.
His eyes brighten. âYeah?â
You nod. âCouple thousand words. Not great ones. But better than the last few days.â
âI want to read them.â
You raise a brow. âYou always say that.â
âAnd I always mean it.â
âIâm not ready.â
He doesnât push. âOkay.â
You smile, just a little. âBut I like that you ask.â
Charles leans forward, brushing his lips across your forehead. âAlways will.â
The wind stirs a strand of hair across your cheek, and he tucks it behind your ear with a kind of reverence.
âHow long are you home for?â You ask.
âFive days.â
âBefore Spain?â
âYeah. I was going to train tomorrow, but I think Iâll take the morning off.â
Your voice is quiet. âFor rest?â
âFor you,â he says, and the way he says it makes your heart stumble.
âCharles-â
âNo,â he says, gently. âYou donât have to earn it. I want time with you. Youâre the only place I feel human lately.â
You swallow.
He leans in and kisses your cheek, slow and warm. Then your jaw. Then your neck, just above your pulse. You shiver slightly, but itâs comfort more than anything else â being found, being known.
âYou want to go to bed?â He asks quietly.
You nod.
So he takes your hand, and itâs not rushed â itâs not hungry or dramatic. Itâs grounding. Soft. He guides you inside, flicking off lights as you go, easing you into your shared room like heâs placing you somewhere safe.
In the bedroom, he pulls off your cardigan for you, brushing your shoulders with his hands. He peels back the covers, helps you climb in, then joins you. Not an inch of space between your bodies. His arms come around your waist from behind, holding you steady.
He presses a kiss to the back of your neck. âYouâre not hiding,â he whispers. âYouâre home.â
You reach back for his hand under the sheets. âEven when Iâm quiet?â
âEspecially when youâre quiet.â
Heâs tracing patterns across your ribs now, soothing. Breathing slow. The world doesnât exist here.
âMon soleil,â he murmurs again, a little sleepier this time. âEven when the lights go out.â
You hum. âIâm glad youâre home.â
âI always come back to you.â
And in the hush of the room, you believe him.
He holds you closer.
Outside, Monaco sleeps.
Inside, he dreams only of you.
***
The car pulls up to the curb in front of the Palais de Tokyo, slow and deliberate like it knows whatâs waiting outside.
Flashes ignite immediately â paparazzi like moths drawn to the promise of fame. The bulbs flicker against the polished black of the car, against the glittering heels stepping out before them, against the tension sitting thick in Charlesâ chest.
He glances over at you.
âYou sure?â He murmurs.
You nod, hands smoothed over the deep navy fabric of your dress. His fingers brush over yours where they rest in your lap â one soft, grounding touch.
âOkay,â he breathes. Then he adds, a little lower, âStay close to me.â
The door opens.
The noise hits first â camera shutters, yelling voices, someone shouting his name in five different accents. Itâs not unusual. Itâs just ⊠amplified. Paris amplifies everything. This isnât a race weekend. This is Fashion Week. Which means the crowd outside isnât just motorsport fans â itâs models, influencers, press junkies, people who invent rumors for fun and watch them come to life in real time.
You step out first.
And itâs small, the moment. Barely three seconds between your heels touching pavement and Charles following behind you, hand briefly ghosting the small of your back.
But itâs enough.
The buzz changes pitch the second he emerges.
Thereâs a flicker â a sharp inhale among the crowd, someone saying âWait, who is that?â and another whispering your name as a question. Not as a fact. Just an idea. But ideas are dangerous here. Ideas spark headlines.
âKeep walking,â Charles mutters under his breath, close enough for only you to hear. âJust smile. Straight through.â
You nod. Youâve done this before â stepped through this minefield together. But something feels different tonight. Sharper.
Inside, the noise doesnât follow. The air changes. The show hasnât started yet, and the room is full of champagne flutes, soft designer scents, the low hum of fashion people pretending not to care who else is watching. You donât drink â your fingers toy with the stem of a glass while Charles excuses himself for a brief interview across the room.
You watch him go.
Heâs good at this. Too good. Easy smile, charming accent, sharp tux â he blends in so well itâs almost hard to remember how badly he used to flinch under attention.
The memory hits like a whisper.
***
It was at school, back in Monaco. Heâd shown up to class ten minutes late, hair still wet from training, a smudge of grease on his collar. You were already sitting near the back, half-hiding behind a copy of Little Women.
He slid into the seat next to you, awkward and quiet. Everyone knew who he was. Charles Leclerc â the golden boy. The kid with the karting trophies and the tragic backstory. But up close, he didnât seem golden. He seemed ⊠tired.
He hadnât spoken until three days later, when youâd accidentally left your notebook behind after class. He ran it out to you â literally ran. You were already halfway down the hall when he called your name.
You turned.
He held it out. âYou forgot this.â
You took it, quietly. âThanks.â
He hesitated, then blurted, âYou write poems in the margins.â
Your eyes narrowed. âYou read it?â
âNo, I mean, just that one page. The one on the train. It was ⊠good.â
You tilted your head. âYou read poetry?â
âNo,â he said, too quickly. Then, âSometimes. I donât understand most of it.â
You smiled. âThatâs okay. Most people donât.â
He paused. âCan I sit next to you again tomorrow?â
You nodded.
That was it. That was the moment it began.
Not with a spark. But a softness.
***
Now, across the room, Charles finishes his interview and makes his way back to you, expression slightly tight.
âAre we okay?â You ask under your breath.
He kisses your cheek. âFine. One of the photographers caught a weird angle of us getting out of the car. Itâll blow over.â
You nod slowly. âYou sure?â
âNo,â he admits, low. âBut Iâm pretending.â
The lights dim then, and conversation dissolves into applause as the show begins. Your friendâs collection floats down the runway â fluid and sharp, dramatic and quiet all at once. You squeeze Charlesâ hand, and he leans in to whisper, âHeâll be huge after this.â
You smile. âI know.â
But it doesnât last.
After the show, as the crowd floods the exit, thereâs a moment â a flash of something too fast to be fully seen. A journalist stepping forward, recorder in hand.
âCharles, Charles, one question?â
He stops out of habit. You hesitate beside him.
The journalist glances at you, sharp and curious. âIs this your girlfriend?â
Silence.
For a second â just one â he doesnât say anything. The beat stretches, too long, too brittle.
Then, âNo comment.â
You flinch, barely. But he feels it. Of course he does.
He wraps a protective arm around your waist, not possessive but anchoring. âWeâre here supporting a friend.â
The journalist tilts her head, eyes narrowing. âRight. So the matching entrance was just coincidence?â
Charles doesnât answer.
You can feel the tension in his body, coiled and barely held.
He pulls you away before it escalates. No scene. Just a quick exit, one hand in yours as you disappear back into the private car waiting in the alley.
The moment the doors shut, the silence is deafening.
You stare out the window.
He speaks first. âI didnât mean-â
âI know,â you say, too quickly.
âBut it didnât sound like-â
âI know, Charles.â
Another pause.
âI just âŠâ he sighs. âIt wasnât the moment.â
You nod. âIt never is.â
He closes his eyes. âThatâs not fair.â
âMaybe not. But itâs true.â
Thereâs a sharp quiet between you now, the kind that doesnât come from anger but from ache.
Charles leans forward, elbows on his knees, hands in his hair. âIâm trying to protect you.â
You stare at him. âAnd I love you for it. But Iâm not breakable.â
âI know that.â
You exhale, soft. âDo you?â
He turns to face you fully. âI do. But you didnât see the headlines they almost ran after Monaco. They twist everything. I donât want you swallowed up in that circus. I want you safe.â
âAnd I want you honest.â
His jaw tightens.
You look away. âThis is the first time in months weâve fought.â
âI hate it.â
âMe too.â
The car pulls up to the hotel. You walk inside together, quiet, each step heavy with words unspoken. You ride the elevator without touching. Not out of distance, but because neither of you knows how to fix this yet.
The second the hotel door clicks shut, Charles exhales.
You kick off your shoes, walk toward the window. The Paris skyline is lit in gold and white. The Eiffel Tower gleams in the distance, unbothered.
You donât hear him cross the room, but you feel it when his hands come to your waist.
âI didnât say it,â he murmurs, voice rough. âBut I thought it.â
You swallow.
His lips brush your shoulder. âI always think it.â
âI know.â
His hands move slowly, drawing you back into him, arms around your waist. His voice dips lower. âIâm yours. Always. Even when I canât say it out loud.â
You turn in his arms, looking up at him. âYou shouldnât have to hide the things you love.â
âIâm not hiding,â Charles says, quiet but certain. âIâm guarding. Thereâs a difference.â
Your eyes search his.
He leans in, forehead resting against yours. âDonât shrink from the light,â you whisper.
âI donât,â he breathes. âI just want the light to stay mine.â
You kiss him first.
And then everything slows.
Thereâs no rush in the way he undresses you â just reverence. His fingers skim your spine, your ribs, the sides of your thighs. You feel his breath at your neck, his lips brushing over your skin like apology and promise all at once.
He lifts you gently, lays you back against the sheets with a kind of sacred care. Like the whole world could fall apart and heâd still hold you steady. Every movement is deliberate, grounding. He touches you like youâre sunlight made tangible â something fleeting he wants to memorize again and again.
His hands stay on your hips, firm and steady, even as his mouth whispers over your skin â your collarbone, your chest, your stomach.
âI donât need the world to know,â he murmurs, voice thick. âBut I need you to know.â
âI do,â you breathe. âIâve always known.â
He kisses you like thatâs the only answer heâll ever need.
When itâs over, your limbs tangled, breath synced, he brushes a strand of hair off your forehead.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers. âFor freezing.â
You shake your head. âYou were scared.â
He holds you tighter. âI just want to keep you.â
âYou have me.â
He nods.
Outside, Paris lives loud. Inside, Charles stays quiet â arms around you like gravity.
He says it again, barely audible.
âMon soleil.â
And you fall asleep knowing he means it.
***
Itâs early when Charles wakes, the sky outside a soft watercolor of dawn. The cityâs barely breathing yet, Paris muted under pale blue and silver. The sheets are warm. Youâre tucked against him, one arm slung across his ribs, your face buried somewhere near his collarbone.
He stays still for a moment.
Watches you.
Youâre beautiful in the way only people at rest can be â unguarded, soft-edged, not thinking of the world or the weight of it. And Charles, for all his fame, for all his speed, has always worshipped slowness with you. He memorizes the shape of your mouth, the curve of your spine under the duvet. It makes him ache, how safe you look here, next to him. Like maybe, just maybe, he hasnât ruined that yet.
He slips out of bed carefully, not waking you. Pads across the hotel room barefoot, dragging his fingers through sleep-mussed hair. Thereâs a note of stillness in him this morning, unusual but welcome. The weight of last night is still there, but itâs different now. Muted.
Your suitcase sits open in the corner, a paperback wedged between layers of clothing. The spine cracked, corners worn.
But itâs not the book that stops him.
Itâs the manila folder on the desk.
The pages are stacked neatly, a thick rubber band holding them together. His nameâs not on the front, and you havenât told him much â only that itâs your second book, slower going than the first. But the edges are filled with your handwriting, your margin notes, your scratched-out titles.
He tells himself not to look.
Then he does.
Just one page, he promises.
Then two.
Then-
A line.
To the boy who lives at 320 km/h but holds me like Iâm fragile porcelain.
Charles stops breathing for a second.
The words blur.
He sinks into the desk chair, pages cradled in his hands like they might shatter. He flips through more â just a few at first, then faster, scanning blocks of dialogue and prose, your voice echoing in every line. Itâs fiction. Of course it is. But he knows himself in the spaces between. In the way the protagonist runs from everything except her. In the way he comes back. Always.
Thereâs a passage â midway through â that hits too close.
He doesnât know how to rest. His body hums even in sleep. But when he touches her, something changes. Itâs not desperation â itâs reverence. He holds her like sheâs a map, and heâs finally found home.
Charles exhales, long and slow.
He reads on.
The world never asked him who he was. They only told him what to be. But with her, he can become something else. Someone honest. Someone flawed. Someone who doesnât always win but is still worth loving.
He closes the manuscript after that, heart pounding. A different kind of pressure â intimate, unbearable, right under his ribs.
You see him.
You always have.
And suddenly, he wants to speak. To tell you everything he never quite knows how to say out loud.
So he finds a notepad in the hotel drawer. Quietly, without thinking too much, he writes.
***
Letter one.
Found tucked inside your book the next morning.
I am so tired of being the worldâs Charles Leclerc. But I never tire of being yours.
***
Letter two.
Slipped between your sketchbook pages a few days later.
Sometimes I think youâre a quiet kind of genius. The world sees flashes, but I get the whole storm. You make me want to be more than fast. You make me want to be still.
***
Letter three.
Folded into the pocket of your jacket before he leaves for Spain.
I dreamt once that we lived in a house by the sea. No press. No racing. Just your words, my hands, and time. I donât know if Iâll ever deserve that. But I want it.
***
He doesnât sign them.
Doesnât say theyâre from him. Doesnât need to.
Youâd know his handwriting anywhere.
***
The morning after you return from Paris, you find the first one.
Itâs there, plain as anything, pressed between two chapters of the book youâve been reading for weeks. You werenât even sure where youâd packed it. But it finds you.
You donât say anything.
You just ⊠sit with it.
Read it twice. Three times.
Then you place the paper back inside the pages and slide the book onto the nightstand like nothing happened.
When Charles stirs, youâre already watching him.
He groans a little, stretching. âWhat time is it?â
âStill early,â you murmur.
âMm,â he rolls closer, eyes half-lidded. âYouâre staring.â
âMaybe.â
He grins. âLucky me.â
You lean in and kiss him.
Itâs longer than usual. Slower. More certain. His hands come up to cradle your face, a little confused but not resisting.
When you pull back, heâs blinking at you. âWhat was that for?â
You shrug. âFelt like it.â
He hums, pulling you in again. âDo it again.â
So you do.
***
That day, he flies out for a press shoot in Spain. You stay in Monaco, returning to your writing, to your own quiet world.
But somethingâs shifted.
You start noticing the notes.
They donât come every day. Theyâre not dramatic or poetic. Theyâre just him. Honest. Raw. Tucked where you least expect them â inside your journal, between the receipts in your wallet, once even in the fridge, stuck to the almond milk.
And still, you donât mention them.
Because thatâs the thing about Charles.
Heâs loud on track. Loud when heâs winning. Loud when heâs fighting.
But when he loves â itâs quiet.
***
A few nights later, youâre on FaceTime. Heâs sprawled across a hotel bed, hair wet from a shower, wearing a T-shirt that used to be yours.
âYou find any new letters?â He asks, casual, but you see the corner of his mouth twitch.
You tilt your head. âShould I be looking?â
He smirks. âMaybe.â
You smile. âNo new ones today.â
He feigns offense. âThat you found.â
âExactly.â
He laughs, soft and real. âYou like them?â
âI do.â
Thereâs a pause.
âEven when Iâm not good at saying it out loud,â Charles murmurs, âIâm thinking about you.â
âI know.â
He leans back, arms crossed under his head. âI think about how we met, sometimes. How I didnât talk for like two weeks. You probably thought I was an idiot.â
âI thought you were shy.â
He blinks. âReally?â
âYeah. You were always rushing somewhere, but you looked like you were trying not to bump into anyone.â
He laughs. âBecause I was. Monacoâs small but brutal.â
You soften. âYouâve always been good at seeing everything.â
He nods. âBut you were the first person who saw me. Before the racing. Before the trophies.â
âI still do.â
He swallows hard.
***
Later that week, another letter finds you inside your typewriter cover.
Letter four.
I donât always know who I am to the world. Sometimes it changes by the hour. But with you, I never have to wonder. You anchor me. You make the noise stop. I hope I do the same for you. Even if I donât say it, Iâm trying.
You fold it gently, slide it under your pillow.
Heâs not with you tonight, but the space beside you feels a little less empty.
***
A few days later, you call him out of the blue.
He answers on the second ring, breathless. âEverything okay?â
You smile. âYeah. Just wanted to hear your voice.â
He sighs, soft and happy. âI miss you.â
âI miss you too.â
Thereâs a pause. Then:
âDo you want me to stop?â He asks.
You blink. âStop what?â
âThe notes. The letters. If itâs too much.â
Your heart twists. âCharles. No. I love them.â
He lets out a breath. âOkay.â
You add, quieter, âI keep them. All of them.â
âI know,â he says, and you can hear the smile in his voice. âI figured.â
***
That weekend, he comes home.
No cameras. No entourage. Just him, shoulders looser than theyâve been in months.
You open the door in sweatpants, hair still damp from a shower, and he smiles like itâs the only thing heâs been waiting for all week.
âHi,â you say.
He drops his bag and kisses you before you can say anything else.
Later, curled up on the couch, his head in your lap, he murmurs, âYou wrote about me.â
You pretend not to know what he means. âEveryone writes about you.â
âNo,â he says, tilting his head to look up at you. âYou wrote about me.â
You brush your fingers through his hair. âI write about what matters.â
He closes his eyes. âI hope you always do.â
You kiss his forehead. âAnd youâll keep writing letters?â
He grins. âUntil I run out of hiding spots.â
You smile. âThen youâll just have to start saying them.â
He nods. âI will. One day.â
But until then-
The notes are enough.
***
He sounds like someone else on the phone.
The call comes after the sprint race in Miami, crackling with poor reception and exhaustion. Heâs finished P2, and the media's already torn him apart for not converting pole into a win. Again. You can hear it in his voice â the frayed edges, the clipped tone he tries to soften for you.
âThey said Iâm not aggressive enough,â Charles mutters. âThat Iâm too emotional. That Iâm-â he breaks off, breathing hard. âThat I donât have the killer instinct.â
Youâre silent for a moment. âDo you believe them?â
âNo,â he says, too fast. âBut maybe ⊠I donât know. Maybe theyâre right. Maybe Iâm-â he trails off again, breath catching in his throat.
You sit up straighter, your grip on the phone tightening. âCharles.â
He doesnât respond right away.
âCharles, look at me.â
âI canât,â he whispers. âYouâre not here.â
And thatâs all it takes.
Youâre already moving, throwing clothes into a carry-on bag with more purpose than coordination. You book a last-minute flight while brushing your teeth, your laptop balanced on the bathroom counter. The Miami heat feels a world away, but you can already see it â the chaos of the paddock, the swarm of cameras, the sound bites dissecting his every word.
And underneath it all: him.
Raw. Alone.
Not anymore.
***
By the time you arrive, the Sunday sun is already bruising the skyline, and you havenât slept in seventeen hours. But the moment you step through the paddock gates, heart pounding behind your lanyard and sunglasses, you know exactly what youâre looking for.
He doesnât see you at first.
Heâs talking to an engineer, brow furrowed, body wound tight like wire. But then someone taps his shoulder, nods in your direction, and Charles turns.
His whole face shifts.
Like breathing after holding it too long.
He doesnât say anything. Just strides across the paddock like the ground might collapse between you if he doesnât close the distance fast enough. And then heâs there â eyes wild, chest rising and falling fast.
âYouâre here,â he breathes, voice cracked.
You nod. âOf course I am.â
He grabs your wrist â not roughly, but with urgency. âCome with me.â
He pulls you through a back hallway youâve never seen before, past mechanics and closed doors, until he finds an unlocked storage closet that smells like tires and adrenaline. He drags you in, shuts the door behind him, and exhales like heâs finally allowed to fall apart.
And then-
His arms are around you.
Just like that.
He buries his face in your neck, hands shaking at your waist. âI couldnât do it anymore,â he whispers. âI tried. I really tried.â
âI know,â you say, threading your fingers into his hair. âI know you did.â
âThey said so many things,â he murmurs against your skin. âNot just about driving. About who I am. About what Iâm not. It was so loud, and I just â I needed you.â
You pull back just enough to cup his face, forcing him to look at you. âCharles. Listen to me. You are not what they say. Youâre still my Charles. Not just Ferrariâs. Not theirs.â
His eyes close, a single tear slipping down. âYou always say the right thing.â
âNo,â you say, brushing it away. âI just say whatâs true.â
He looks at you then, really looks at you â hair a mess from travel, skin tired from the flight, sunglasses still tangled in your hair. And he kisses you like heâs afraid youâll vanish.
Like if he doesnât hold you tight enough, the world will take you too.
Your back hits the supply shelf with a soft thud, and his hands are on your jaw, your shoulders, your waist â everywhere at once. You kiss him back just as fiercely, anchoring him with every breath.
âSay it again,â he murmurs, lips brushing yours.
âYouâre still mine,â you whisper. âAlways mine.â
***
That night, the hotel room is dark and quiet, lit only by the faint glow of Miamiâs skyline outside the floor-to-ceiling windows. Youâre on the bed, curled up in one of his shirts, freshly showered, still buzzing from the day.
He sits on the edge, towel around his neck, hands braced on his knees like heâs holding himself together.
You crawl over to him slowly, wrapping your arms around his torso from behind.
âHey,â you murmur against his shoulder.
He exhales. âI keep thinking I have to be perfect. Not just on track. Everywhere.â
âYou donât.â
âI know,â he says. âBut they make it feel like I do. Like if Iâm not smiling enough, or fast enough, or hard enough, Iâm ⊠replaceable.â
You press a kiss between his shoulder blades. âYouâre not.â
He turns to face you, eyes dark and heavy with everything heâs been carrying.
âYou always know how to make it stop hurting,â he whispers.
You crawl into his lap, straddling him slowly, hands cupping his cheeks.
âBecause I love you,â you say simply.
His lips find yours again, slower this time. Less desperation. More reverence. His hands slide under your thighs, then up your back, anchoring you to him like youâre the only solid thing he has left.
âYouâre my girl,â he murmurs, voice hoarse. âMy warmth. My sun.â
You kiss his temple. âThen let me be.â
And he does.
He lays you back on the sheets like youâre fragile and sacred all at once. His touch is soft but sure, worshipful, his hands tracing every inch of skin like itâs familiar scripture. He whispers in French sometimes, half-prayer, half-plea. His mouth brushes over your collarbone, your ribs, the inside of your wrist.
âMon soleil,â he says again and again. âMy girl. My warmth. My sun.â
You thread your fingers through his hair, breath catching as he kisses a slow trail along your sternum.
âYou donât have to prove anything here,â you whisper.
âI know,â he says. âBut I still want to show you.â
His voice trembles â not from nerves, but from feeling. Too much of it, barely contained.
âIf I crash out of everything,â he says, forehead resting against yours, âI want to crash into you.â
Your heart stutters.
âIâd catch you,â you breathe.
His lips find yours again, and this time itâs softer. Slower. Full of promises neither of you speak aloud. He moves like heâs memorizing you. Not rushing. Not conquering. Just ⊠loving. Tracing you with quiet devotion.
When itâs over, he doesnât let go. Just holds you to his chest, face buried in your hair.
Neither of you speaks for a while.
Eventually, you say into the silence, âIâm coming to the next race.â
He nods, arm tightening around you. âGood.â
âIâll be at the track. No press. Just watching.â
He kisses the crown of your head. âKnowing youâre there changes everything.â
You press a hand to his heart. âItâs still yours, you know. Even when you think youâve lost yourself.â
He closes his eyes. âYou always bring me back.â
***
And in the morning, before you leave for the airport, you find another note.
Folded into the pocket of your hoodie.
His handwriting, scrawled but certain.
You saved me this weekend. You keep saving me. I love you more than the silence between races, more than the moments I win. You are the only finish line that matters.
You donât cry.
But you hold it to your chest for a long time before tucking it into your wallet.
Where all the others live.
***
The mirror glints with a kind of reverence.
Your reflection blurs around the edges, not because of the makeup or the soft updo or the silk pooling at your ankles, but because tonight â the first time ever â you are not just his secret. Youâre stepping into the light with him.
Heâs behind you in the hotel room, shirtless and warm from the shower, towel still low on his hips. His eyes are on you like youâre something he dreamed up. Slowly, he crosses the floor, wrapping his arms around your waist from behind and resting his chin on your shoulder.
âYou look like starlight,â Charles murmurs against your skin.
You smile softly. âThatâs poetic.â
âItâs just true.â
Your fingers rest lightly over his. âYou still sure about this? We can still back out. Stay here. Order room service. Watch old races until you fall asleep in your pasta again.â
He laughs quietly, that low, melted sound. âAnd miss the chance to show you off? No, mon solei.â
He kisses your shoulder, breath warm. âBesides,â he says, voice dropping to a whisper, âyouâve been mine in the shadows for too long.â
***
The carpet is a blur of white lights and velvet ropes, of camera flashes and murmured names, but his hand never leaves yours.
Not once.
You step out of the car together, and everything slows.
You feel the collective intake of breath from the press line, from the onlookers whoâve speculated, dissected, whispered. Your dress shimmers under the strobes, and his tux is impeccable â tailored like the life he lives â but itâs the way he looks at you that steals the attention.
Not just affection. Not even pride.
A kind of awe. Like he canât believe youâre real, and that you chose him.
Itâs the kind of look that writes headlines before theyâre even typed.
Charles doesn't falter. He doesnât glance around to see whoâs watching. His eyes are only for you. Fingers laced, thumb rubbing the inside of your wrist in slow, grounding circles.
You hear one journalist gasp softly into her mic, like sheâs realizing it in real time.
âThatâs her,â someone murmurs. âThe girl Charles Leclerc looks at like she hung the stars.â
And still, his eyes donât leave yours.
âToo late to run?â You whisper as cameras flash like lightning.
He grins. âYou run, I follow.â
A dozen questions are hurled in your direction as you move down the carpet together.
âIs this your girlfriend?â
âAre you official?â
âWhen did it start?â
Charles only smiles â polite but cool. Still untouchable. But his hand never wavers in yours. He lets the silence answer for him.
A look. A touch. A truth held in the space between bodies.
The world sees it.
And for once, you let them.
***
Later, when the speeches are done and the champagne has long gone warm, you both slip away.
Charles leads you up to the rooftop of the venue â one of those quiet, off-limits spots only someone like him could access without question. The wind brushes against your skin, and the lights of Monaco twinkle in the distance, reflected on the sea like fallen stars.
You kick off your heels the second the door closes behind you.
âGod, I thought I was going to trip over a camera cable and faceplant into Toto Wolff,â you mutter.
Charles laughs, pulling off his bowtie and pocketing it. âI was watching your feet the entire time, just in case.â
You walk to the edge of the rooftop together, city stretched out below you like something painted. He stands behind you again, wrapping his arms around your waist, just like in the mirror hours ago.
âEveryone was staring,â you say, voice quieter now.
âGood,â he murmurs.
You turn your head, just enough to see him. âNot too much?â
He shakes his head. âI wanted them to see. Finally.â
Thereâs a silence â comfortable, but heavy with something unsaid. You rest your head against his shoulder and close your eyes, letting the night soak into your skin.
âIâm proud of you,â you whisper.
âFor what?â
âFor being brave. For letting them see the real thing.â
He exhales slowly. âIt wasnât hard. Not with you next to me.â
You feel him shift behind you, hands moving, and then heâs stepping around to face you. His expression is unreadable â tender but serious, eyes darker than usual under the moonlight.
Then he pulls something from his jacket pocket.
A ring.
Small. Delicate. Not flashy.
Two stones nestled together, pressed into a slim gold band.
One for his birth month. One for yours.
Not a proposal.
But something more sacred, somehow.
A promise.
âCharles-â
âI donât want headlines,â he says quietly. âI donât want statements. I donât even want to trend on Twitter.â
He takes your hand.
âI want you to know, here and now, that even if no one ever saw us, if this had stayed ours forever â I would still love you like this. With everything.â
He slides the ring onto your finger. It fits perfectly.
âItâs not for the world,â he adds. âItâs for you. For us. For the days you stayed when I gave you nothing but exhaustion and travel and chaos. For the nights you held me when I came home empty. Itâs a reminder. That no matter where I am, what I win, how loud it gets âŠâ
He cups your cheek.
âYou are still the only thing I want to come home to.â
Youâre crying before you can stop it.
He pulls you into his chest, rocking you gently as you try to speak.
âYou always make me feel like Iâm not just ⊠orbiting your world,â you manage. âLike I belong.â
He pulls back just enough to look at you, thumbs brushing the corners of your eyes.
âYou are my world.â
You shake your head slowly, overwhelmed. âYouâre always giving and giving. Arenât you tired?â
His expression softens. âI am,â he admits. âBut Iâm less tired when Iâm with you.â
You lean your forehead against his, the ring cool against his skin.
âIâll wear this every day,â you whisper. âEven if itâs just for me.â
He smiles. âItâs always just for you.â
***
Much later, back in the hotel room, you sit on the balcony while he undresses inside. The city hums below, faint and electric. The air smells like salt and roses.
He comes out in soft cotton and bare feet, moving quietly.
And he sees you â bathed in the golden spill of the balcony lights, skin glowing, hair a little undone from the night, ring catching the faint glint of stars.
It mirrors the first night you sat like this, back at the beginning.
When he came home unraveling and found you, grounding him without even trying.
Now, he stops in the doorway, watching you like heâs memorizing it.
Like if he looks away, the light might disappear.
You glance up. âWhat?â
He smiles, slow and quiet. Walks over and leans down to kiss the top of your head.
âMon soleil.â
You tilt your face toward him, teasing. âYouâre really not gonna retire that nickname, huh?â
âNever,â he says simply, kissing your temple again. âBecause itâs still true.â
You shift so he can sit behind you, and he wraps his arms around your waist, legs bracketing yours as you both look out at the water.
âThe world saw you tonight,â he says after a long silence.
âAnd?â You murmur.
He presses his lips to the curve of your neck.
âAnd they finally know what Iâve always known,â he whispers.
You turn to look at him.
âThat I revolve around you.â
The wind tugs gently at your hair, and his hands find yours again. His grip is warm. Steady.
You lean into him and close your eyes.
And for once, the world doesnât feel too loud.
Because itâs not just you in the shadows anymore.
Itâs you, glowing.
And him â right where heâs always been.
Yours.
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formula one
-lando norris-
yes, and? youâre famous, heâs famous - your new relationship is out for criticism with the world to see. neither of you care. loose basis on âyes, and?â by ariana grande.Â
please please please with landoâs past track record of women, you get nervous entering this new relationship. it leads you to do the only thing you know how - write a song. based on please please please by sabrina carpenter.Â
arm candy enemies to lovers as the two embark on a pr relationship. reader is heavily based on cristina yang and olivia pope - intelligent and knows her worth. lando treats her as just a piece of ass on his arm. the two need to keep up appearances, yet always have time to find a fight.
baby finn series
house divided yours and landoâs little boy has decided to become a fan of a different team, leading lando into a little spiral bedtime stories finn is begging for a bedtime story, and lando has the perfect one to share. sneaking onto stream little baby norris misses his dad and goes on a mission to find him, when found - it can only result in cuddles babysitting and date nights uncle carlos comes over to babysit finn as you and your husband enjoy a night out. the necessary reactions y/n is pregnant again, time to tell the world - well, their whole world. preparations lando and y/n begin their quest to prepare for their baby on the way, while their first baby is just happy to be included. the godfather a collection of max fewtrell's importance to your son as his favorite godfather. the last hooray in order to give finn some extra attention before the baby comes, the young family heads to the english countryside, visiting landoâs parents, and granting finn the last little bit of time all about him. interruptions parents with a high sex drive plus a toddler who doesnât like to be alone equals lando and y/n facing a funny yet frustrating dilemma. set before pregnancy with baby girl norris.Â
meet-cute series
part one y/n y/l/n just needed a coffee when she walked into the shop, she didnât expect to also walk out with a date. part two y/n is giving lando a run for his money in playing hard to get, and lando knows he's in love so so soon. part three first âi love youâsâ and worries of going public
-charles leclerc-
thank you reader has been stressed from work, leading charles to give her comfort.
she's a lady based on the song 'shes a lady' by tom jones. just y/n being cool and charles being a simp lol
fake or real? y/n sainz had just broken up with her boyfriend of four years. with the tension of both ferrari drivers at each other's throats, their pr team believes it a good idea to have y/n and charles date. y/n can look like sheâs moving on from her boyfriend and save her company, charles can look like he likes his teammate, ferrari can avoid any future pr disaster. everyone wins! right?
-carlos sainz jr-
cooking up some fun with the sainz' y/n sainz is a successfully famous chef with her own restaurant and ever since covid, she has been cooking on instagram live once a week. fans adore the sweet interactions between her and carlos and their little baby girl.Â
baby, incoming! you and carlos have been married for over a year now and youâve gone MIA. what could be the reason? new music or a new beginning? maybe both?
can we make this work? Â carlos falls for lando's sister, lando forbids it, you and carlos push to get your brother and his best friend back
funny wife, happy life the grids beloved couple have begun a prank war, subjecting the drivers and fans to their hilarious antics
sex ban carlos puts down a sex ban in order to try and improve his racing performance. after he caves and realizes he canât do it, you place your own sex ban to get payback. and itâs killing the both of you.Â
hard life or wag life? reader and carlos are in a fresh romance, but the comments online are starting to drive her crazy, questioning if the relationship is even worth all of the hate she receives.
-daniel ricciardo-
i miss you, i love you danny gets back from the mexican gp and realizes just how badly he missed his wife and kids. that all leads to many questions about his future.
-lewis hamilton-
family ties lewis and y/n have been going out for about half a year and he can tell sheâs hiding something, or somebody. her son, a little five year old boy that lewis so desperately wants to meet. but is y/n ready for that next step?
home a small drabble of lewis coming back home from a race to his wife and babies.
-oscar piastri-
surprise! after a few long months of not being able to see each other - y/n at university, oscar racing and training - reader is feeling the blues of long distance. until a certain surprise comes her way.Â
-group headcannons-
f1 driver's bday posts for their babies daniel ricciardo, lando norris, charles leclerc, lewis hamilton, carlos sainz jr, oscar piastri, logan sargeant, max verstappen, george russell
sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and im losing sense of time
lando: fuck am i doing???!
max *almost spits his water*: yeah less of the swearing pal, weâll get fined on here in a minute
lando: bollocks
max: iâm gonna be down about 50 grand in the next hour if you keep that up. just got an email from the fia
slayed and yayed
summary; when youâve been quietly dating oscar for a few months but once you perform at a mclaren gala, things become not so quietly
featuring; oscar piastri x underground jazz singer!reader
fc; ning yizhuo
warnings; english isn't my first language + not proof read YET ! and this is pretty short sorry my finals season started
an; i'm taking requests pleaseeeeee give me scenarios i would gladly write them
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oscarpiastri practicing my japanese and enjoying the food in tokyo after a good race đ„
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oscarpiastri traded the silverstone paddock for a suit at a charity gala here at mclaren headquarters and a bit of jazz đ¶big thanks to the ones who made this event possible and to raise funds for such an important cause
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username running to edit this gala look damn
author lets pretend he's wearing a tuxedo
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yourusername an evening of music and grateful feelings for allowing me to lend my voice for such an honoring cause at mclarenâs charity gala for mental health awareness and accessible therapy for young athletes and artists, thank you so much â€ïžâđ©č
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oscarpiastri i love you and i'm proud of you, always.
landonorris ok but whereâs my version called âdear best mateâ ??
âź lilymhe if anything she'll have a version up for her platonic soulmate aka me
âź landonorris loooll you're delusional
âź yourusername actually lando...
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