Sweatytreesoul - Bea ♡

“I don’t think that I accepted that I wasn’t gonna die young until I was 26 or 27. I really don’t think I fully…when I was 14, 15, 16, 17–I mean I knew as sure as I know that I am wearing green shoes that I was going to die before much happened. It was a certainty for me. And I had shaken off the directly suicidal urge by the time I was 21 or 22, but I still was pretty sure I was going to die pretty young, it really felt like an inevitability. It takes a long time to realize no, you’ve changed…if you shared those feelings with people at some point you go, ‘well, I guess we’re going to stick around.’ And it’s a funky thing to admit because there’s a part of your inner younger self that kind of judges you for that.”

John Darnielle fucking me up with the single most relatable thing he’s ever said

i know we all make jokes like ha dnp don’t even know what they are to each other but on a dead serious note i think they literally never actually defined it and now they’re both too scared to ask so dan keeps publically throwing out labels to hopefully trick phil into biting the bullet that is that conversation lmao

here’s an actual list from dans diary of him trying to work out what he and phil are:

dnp saying “soon” moodboard

fanfic writers are so fucking awesome man. they write novel length fics that are sometimes even better than some published bestselling books written by professional writers. like fanfic writers are professional writers to me and they gift us their masterpieces for free. they give us something we can look forward to after a long day. something from which we can seek comfort when life is hard. something that can be our own little getaway. in a world of capitalism, despite everything, they give us all of these for free. like holy fuck. shout out to every fanfic writer. I wish all fanfic writers a very ‘I love you with all my heart and soul. I thank you from the bottom of my heart’

When the starvation symptoms stop and you start to get paranoid that you’ve eaten more than you thought

when will dan and phil do something so i can feel alive again

I know this isn’t that funny but it had be cracking up for awhile

dan howell, that’s it

the fact that dan howell has been spreading such positivity and self-acceptance messages just makes me feel so good and proud. such a big glow up, i can’t even -- 

imagine how many people he has been helping (including me x); this man is just so ... i can’t even. he makes me so happy (and have i mentioned proud .-. )

y’all, follow dan howell (and phil lester aka amazingphil too, what a sweet and amazing person he is (no pun intended))

@danielhowell