Paying My Ichinan Dues After Four Years

I wonder what kind of candies or sweets Laios and Falin would like as they both seem to have a bit of a sweet tooth from what I remember from the manga.

I think Falin would like sour stuff more like warheads or lemon flavored candies, or stuff that’s bitter.

Laios gives me the most I don’t know how to describe it but would hate any weird textures like pop rocks or any flavor he consideres off, tbh both of them give me this vibe.

I think they’d like Mexican snacks like anything skwinkles, duvlines, mazapanes, pulparindos, and the such I just feel some of them they just eluding like the textures at all.

Now I’m thinking of their Halloween official art where they’re dressed as monsters, them at the end of a night swapping and trading candies they don’t like how me and my siblings did.

Thinking rn of that one twt post where someone made like a small comic of Lucy finding an old pic big daddy had of Billy with “The one Who got Away” written on the back and Big Daddy being really sad about Billy.

I’m not far into the story rn since I barely came back to ZZZ and I was finishing undercover R&B I really hope Big Daddy and Billy have that kind of relationship lol

It’d be so funny with like this big brute of a man being all sad and Mopey about sillytron 3000

Especially when Sillytron is confused as hell

Chilchuck and Laios at a fair and cause of Chilchuck’s height they can’t go on most rides but Laios dgaf since he’s just there for the food so the entire time it’s them walking around watching Laios eat the worst creations of mankind and Chil’s just standing there like “this is what I’m spending the rest of my days with” smiling like an idiot

Thinking about that one Mikhail X Gallagher fanfic I read where it basically said that on the basis of Gallagher being a being made of Memoria he could change his form at will to how he liked it.

Which idk if that’s how canon works but idc.

I’m just thinking would Gallagher have body dysphoria?

Like as he’s a product of many different little pieces of Penacony to make a person and to help push Mikhail’s plan most likely far before it was even made to set in motion.

So I wonder would he ever feel envy or disgust with himself being made of some many pieces but nothing of himself a crude copy of everything around him but not something of his own?

Would he cry or be angered by his own reflection in the mirror as known of what he looks at is himself? Or be reduced to his most primal forms of memoria just trying to understand himself and who he is beyond the product of a history Fictionologist to aid Mikhail? Do you think Mikhail would comfort and reassure Gallagher?

WE’RE GETTING THE SHIRTS

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this panel from the world guide of falin being surrounded by other girls while laios is all alone kills me because. that's it. that's the key difference in their journeys.

as laios states himself, he left the village in order to create a home for him and falin elsewhere. a home that won't collapse due to others' hatred and fears like their old home did, a home where they are loved and accepted unconditionally. but as he soon found out, even before earning money, or having walls surrounding him and a roof above his head- what he so earnestly desired was to meet other people who will accept him for who he is as well. instead, he kept being tormented by those around him, shunned and sneered at. his loneliness quickly became all-consuming until he truly had nothing left except for the monsters in the pages of his book, but even that became a target of mockery and destroyed. that's why ever since the day he left the village, he never felt that he truly made the right choice. so he kept running away: unable to resist and unable to accpet.

and an ocean away from him there was his sister, who never managed to fully fit in herself. but unlike him, she met a person who became a home to her and learned what a true friendship was for the first time in her life. and laios clearly realizes that too when he finally sees falin and marcille together, he can tell his sister obtained the greatest treasure there is on her own- the exact thing he never managed to find anywhere himself, thus coming back empty-handed to the sister he left the village for.

but when you read this part of the manga, laios's focus is on falin's loneliness, not his own. he talks about how it hurts thinking about all those moments she had to spend alone because he wasn't there for her, so it almost sounds like he's the one who couldn't bear her suffering and therefore decided to not let her go again. but we do get a glimpse of their first meeting after that almost-decade long separation in the manga, and then we see more of that in the world guide and daydream hour- and it becomes abundantly clear that it was falin who was trying to protect and save him from this pit of loneliness and depression he was in.

so instead of just doing his best to atone for leaving her behind in the village and making sure she is never lonely again, it might also be that laios was desperately clinging to the one person in the world he felt that accepted and loved him unconditionally. those words he used to describe his motivation to stay by falin's side are the exact words she would've used as well; she couldn't bear leaving him behind in this state. in a sense, they were each other's shackles.

but then she did. she died for him and their friends, and ironically enough, it was by leaving him alone like this that he was finally able to stand on his own and put his full trust in others. to have the courage to reveal who he is and give others the opportunity to accept him after such a long time of hiding. it was a long journey, but his hiding finally came to an end when he faced the others after shedding his monster form. and i love that the person who was falin's "home" all those years away from laios, marcille, became just as meaningful to him during their time separated from falin- the first one to find him and show him that he isn't alone anymore. just as he did for her.

so at the end of the story when falin talks about all the places she would like to go, it's not just that she wants to pursue her own dreams- but that she actually feels free to do so and go anywhere she desires. and one of the main reasons for that is that her brother finally found new people he wants to be with; his own home.

Not to be annoying but I’ve had like a million and on ideas on how an idol AU would go cause I listen to stuff that sounds very idol-like to me

laichi idol au…..

laios pov

also bonus chilchucks because i like him