Say No To Food

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Where are all my adult anas?

It's a different world stepping into Eds shoes again half way through life.

I don't have to worry about my parents getting mad at me

I don't have to worry about my school teachers getting mad at me

I don't have the typical teenage drama that spurred this mentality shift

I remember Ed being a call a shout for help just to be seen and cared for as a teenager. But now no one sees me, I have no watchful eyes on me. No one whispering under their breath, no parents staring at me across the dinner table as I play with a half eaten plate, no boy trouble or pubescent drama fueled by hormonal rage and indifference. I'm not doing this to impress the boy I like or try to fit in with the popular kids.

I am invisible

Except from myself.

I'm in a strange state of visible translucency. I tell people I'm fasting and they believe me, I tell people I'm too tired to come meet them for dinner they believe me.

Fuck, even my live out partner whose been here for the last 3 days who I have said the words 4norexi4 to and who has watched me consume nothing but tea for 3 days doesn't question my choices.

How different a world it is when you're seen but not seen. I am validated but I remain a shadow.

I love the feel of my hair being brushed.

I need to find a weight loss buddy! this sounds like great motivation

Losing weight with a friend is so motivating.

Love you, but I’m not letting you get skinnier than me bitch☺️

Integration Mastery Mapping

Shadow Integration

Shadow Areas

What do I resist?

What do I judge?

What feels uncomfortable?

What do I hide?

Paradox Points

Where do I feel torn?

What contradictions exist?

Where is both/and needed?

What transcends either/or?

Growth Edges

Where is tension productive?

What challenges me to grow?

Where is balance difficult?

What integration feels edgy?

Mastery Progress

Track your integration journey through shadow, paradox, and edge.

i wish i had someone irl to be accountability friends. It would make things eaier.

This post will probably hurt some feelings, you’ve been warned 🫶🏽

Be one of the ones that actually makes progress this year, do what you say you’re going to do. At the end of the day it’s just you. Not your parent’s, not your significant other, not your family, not your coworkers, it’s you. Unless they’re shoving that shit in your mouth, there’s really no excuse to not be in some sort of deficit.

You don’t have to finish the whole thing and I promise you, people aren’t as worried about what you’re doing as you think. I can make an entire book of things you can say to get out of eating but honestly a “no, thank you” is more than enough if you’re an adult with other adults that respect you. If they can’t accept your no, you need to surround yourself with new folks. Plain and simple.

Some of y’all don’t really want this, you’re not willing to change the lifestyle that made you into something you hate and it shows. You want to lose it quick and then are surprised that you gain it back. You lose the discipline, you lose the body. Stop sitting there and thinking about it, fucking do it. Figure out what triggers you, figure out what motivates you and most importantly figure out what you really want and actually do it. At least try. Show up for yourself, build trust with yourself, prove the old you and everyone else wrong.

Don’t be the person constantly talking about what they’re going to do or concocting a new plan every other day instead of just getting up and putting in the work. It’s annoying and everyone can see right through it. I don’t give a fuck about your new plan if you couldn’t even see the last one through, you can’t even say it didn’t work because you didn’t even fucking try. You’re worth more than that. You’re worth effort and commitment, especially from yourself.

I was the whiny bitch who always complained about feeling full, fat, and ugly then proceeded to eat my feelings at every opportunity. I finally decided enough was enough and did something, then I finally stopped making excuses and that’s where I’ve really seen progress. It’s not just weight loss either. So many of my habits were a reflection of how I treated food. When I was eating for two without the second person, I was also drinking too much, spending money I didn’t have, and wasting my time and energy.

Now that I’m back on my shit and honoring my commitments, I’m better about my money, my time, pickier about people I surround myself with, and where I put my energy. It’s a domino effect.

From a former big back, don’t act like a big back if you don’t want to be one anymore. You want to be thin, act like you already are and the rest will follow. Your body is truly a reflection of your choices, so what do you want to see?

Yoga: What are the 4 Original Yoga Poses?

The Hatha Yoga Pradipika (15th century) specifies that of these 84, the first four are important, namely the seated poses Siddhasana, Padmasana, Bhadrasana and Simhasana.