01.05.2025 (thu)

Let me give you, the internet, and mostly myself, some executive function advice.

Sometimes, when you find yourself somehow unable to do a thing you need or want to do, one issue might be that your brain has subconsciously tacked on extra tasks, and those tasks are making the whole thing too overwhelming!

Tl;dr: don't do that!

For example, I like to track the books I read and I've been meaning to add a few books I've recently finished. But my brain has added that I should also write a review, and the exact dates I read them (which I can't even remember) and oh by the way I should finish moving my stuff over to storygraph and before I know it that 1 task has turned into 4! And my executive functioning says no.

In fact, while I was getting the idea to write this post, my brain went "wouldn't it be nice to also write a post about y and tag them all properly and go back through my posts and find all mental health posts and tag those too" and wouldn't you know it. 4 tasks.

Discard those extra tasks. Don't even write them down. They don't matter. Strip it down to the 1 task you started with and only do that.

Sure, you won't have achieved some theoretical better end result but that end result was never gonna happen anyway. It was paralysing you from getting the initial task done. And maybe once that initial task is done, you can get to one (1! not 4!) additional task. Later. Not now.

Half-assing is better than no-assing.

10.03.25

Woke up at 4 today with like 4 hours of sleep, and my first thought was hell nahhh. So after fajr, I knocked out again for 1-1.5 hours and woke up at 6:30, except I actually fell back asleep, and my mom’s loud-ass alarm had to drag me back to reality 🤡.

Slept on the way back home, was still dead tired when I got to my room, so I decided to nap for an hour… which somehow turned into 3 hours without my consent. Woke up literally 10 minutes before my class. But hey, at least I’m more awake now, I guess?

Loved today, though—understood everything in every class so easily, and that’s a rare win.

I’ll try to sleep after I’m done studying, but if I can’t, I might just keep going.

Ughhh.

Stuff to do:

Math HW

Chem: read text + review notes + hw

Review today’s lecture + read the text

Finally finish that damn solutions lecture + write notes + study it

Let’s hope I actually get through this.

Byeee for nowww (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)💗

No nap bc revising took longer than i anticipated 😭. Gonna read the reader b4 my class starts :’)

24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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03.03.2025

Guess who recovered just to get hit with a deluxe, extra-crispy version of the same illness? Yep, ME.

Thought about just accepting my fate and rotting in bed, but then I remembered that MAMA DIDN'T RAISE NO QUITTER (…Twitter… I’m sorry, I physically had to....it RHYMES).

Despite feeling like I got run over twice, I still managed to study before school like- who even am I? Manifesting that I keep this streak going. Did a lecture on organic nomenclature before school, another after, and went over Lecture 1 from the morning before a live class. Technically understood things from the live lecture, but let’s be real—I need to actually sit my ass down and study it before it evaporates from my brain. This whole “two 11th-grade lectures a day while balancing 12th-grade coaching and school” thing? Yeah, that’s a recipe for my brain to just ✨exit the chat✨. And as much as I planned to prioritize coaching, my school teachers are lowkey terrifying, and I refuse to be that person who just sits there staring blankly when asked a question.

Also, why am I suddenly so productive while being sick?? This is not on brand for me. Normally, the second I get a fever, I’m KO. But today? Laundry? Notes? Started them, then realized I desperately needed sleep. I still have notes to review, which I usually cram on the bus ride to school (because morning sleep? Never heard of her). Napped on the way back (but not at home so slayyy ~~ 😌). Planned to finish my notes, but decided to let my future self suffer through that mess in the morning, along with some physics and math reading that I have left.

Will I keep up this academic weapon arc or crumble under the weight of my own choices? Stay tuned for the inevitable breakdown.

xoxo, ur favorite hooman <33

April 26 & 27

Spent the past two days going out with family and got zero studying done. As much as I love spending time with them, it’s honestly frustrating when you’ve made plans and just can’t follow through.

Thank you to everyone who got me to a 100 likes! 😭

I am ready to give my all this exam season. I refuse to let distractions, self-doubt, or temporary setbacks hold me back. Every single day, I will show up for myself with discipline, focus, and determination. Success is about effort, consistency, and resilience. I will push myself to study harder, to understand deeply, and to prepare thoroughly because I deserve to succeed. I will not allow laziness or fear to take control of my mind. I will take charge of my own future, and I will prove to myself that I am capable of achieving excellence.No matter how hard things get, I will not give up. I will keep going, keep learning, and keep improving. I will manage my time wisely, organize my notes, and revise with full concentration. I will believe in myself, even on the days when things feel overwhelming. My hard work will pay off because I am committed to this journey. Every effort I put in today is building the success I will celebrate tomorrow. I am getting stronger, smarter, and more prepared with each study session. I trust in my ability to overcome challenges and come out victorious.This exam season is mine to conquer. I will not settle for less than my best. I will work with passion, with energy, and with the mindset of a winner. I am fully capable of excelling, and I will prove that to myself. I am unstoppable, I am powerful, and I am ready to achieve greatness.

@bloomzone

04.05.2025 (sun)

Day (25/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

There was no offline school today because of NEET (I have only a year left AHHHHH), but we did have online classes.

They started at 9, and I woke up at 9:05—but thankfully class actually began at 9:10. The teachers were struggling with the online setup and it totally took me back to COVID times lol.

Anyway, class ended around 12:40-ish, after which I procrastinated, cleaned my room (which was an absolute pig’s pen for the past week or so), ironed my uniform, and did other random stuff. I still haven’t even broomed my room yet—planning to do that tomorrow.

It’s almost 7 pm rn and these are the things I've still yet to do will have to end up pulling an all nighter just when I was planning to get my sleep schedule fixed wtf.

They gave us so much work just because we had Sunday, which wasn’t even technically off. Watch me as I die?

Also I’m most stressed about the speaking test in English which they count towards our internal marks so AHHHH.

Bio - test on reproductive health

Bio - record

Bio - notes +diagrams

Chem - haloalkanes and arenes test

Chem - notes

Phy - test on current and electricity

Math - relations and functions test

Math - hw

Eng - Speech

07.03.2025

Didn’t post yesterday because I literally did nothing. Skipped school, joined the live class 15 minutes late because I randomly decided to shower last minute (and ofc, I don’t shower fast—especially when it's hair wash day !!!). Spent the entire class daydreaming instead of actually functioning, and now my to do list is staring at me like a disappointed parent. Ugh.

Anyways, shit happens. But also, I am so stressed about my backlogs. I feel like I’m drowning in stuff I have to do, I'm doing and will have to do— I have no idea how I’m supposed to do all this. Like, where is the pause button?? Also, I joined a Ramadan challenge group and haven’t updated in days—it’s barely been a week and I’m already flopping. I hate myself for it.

Weekend to do list:

• clean room

• Complete Saturday’s notes + HW before they consume me

• Study for the bio test on Sunday (our teacher tests us on stuff we learned the previous week—I love her, but also, why)

• Rewatch yesterday’s lecture and actually process it this time

• Study all three bio lectures because apparently, I enjoy suffering (I did this to myself really)

• Iftar party later today, which means I’ll definitely miss live lectures and will have to listen to them tomorrow (future me is already panicking)

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• Try to actually update in the Ramadan challenge group before I disappear completely

I am so behind, and I have no idea how I’m going to survive this, but we move.

one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become