POV you are Winston
the original toxic old man yaoi
Tom Sturridge and Olivia Wilde as Winston and Julia in "1984"
…this just sounds like asmr.
Mind control that doesn't dominate your thoughts, it just... is your thoughts. Perfectly rewriting your will and everything it embodies. Not a single trace of resistance because this is just what you want. Why would you resist your own thoughts? Why would you disagree with your own motivations, your own desires?
Mind control that doesn't shatter once it's done, it just disappears. You don't snap back into awareness. You barely even notice. You just continue as if nothing ever happened. Maybe one moment you look back and you frown, because thinking on it, you remember when you happily followed that person out of town, and you remember what you did, you remember wanting to... but that's crazy. Why did you think that was okay? Why did you want to do that?
Or maybe you were under this mind control for so long that even once it's over you look back and say, "Oh, of course I did that." As far as you're concerned you've always held the beliefs you do now. You've always wanted to do these things. You don't remember why, but you've never had to think of why, and it doesn't matter anyway when you've always been so confident that you're right. It isn't until you're challenged on it all and reminded that you never used to be like this, that you were different before, that something has changed that you finally falter. And you try to think of where this all started, try to figure out why things changed -- and all you can really remember is an entrancing pair of eyes, and a gentle suggestion, and then your own mouth responding, "That's a great idea. Let's go."
And suddenly, you realise that you have no idea how much of what you are, what you were, and what you believed you always have been is just a lie. You don't know whether any thought you have now is really yours or just another preciously placed prompt. You don't trust your impulses, you don't trust your desires, you definitely don't trust your judgement.
You don't trust yourself. And you never can again.
the correct answer here is going back in time to show Thomas Jefferson this classic
"We need to go back in time to show Gorge Orwell the state of the internet." "We need to go back in time to show Marx modern capitalism." Man up and go back in time to show Sigmund Freud Omegaverse.
“in order to create loving males we need to love males” means teach boys that they can be themselves without being less of a man. it means being encouraging and nurturing of their emotions so they don’t become cold and hateful. it means showing boys, early in their lives, that they have value outside of what our society deems proper masculinity. what it doesn’t mean is that it’s our job to handhold men who see women as walking sex toys through the concept of empathy, and maybe if we’re really really nice to them and don’t say things that hurt their feelings they’ll stop killing us for saying no
TW toxic old man yaoi
2+2=?
They hated Jesus because he spoke the truth…
After reading Orwell's 1984, I have come to the conclusion that Winston and O'Brien is a form of toxic yaoi
breathe rapidly and shallowly.
feel their heart pounding in their chest.
have trouble forming coherent thoughts.
sweat profusely even in cool environments.
tremble or shake uncontrollably.
feel a tightness in their chest or throat.
dart their eyes around frantically.
speak in a hurried and disjointed manner.
feel an overwhelming sense of dread.
have a strong urge to escape or hide.
experience a sense of detachment or unreality.
struggle to make rational decisions.
Can you imagine if Rodion Raskolnikov from Crime and Punishment was alive today and asked about his hobbies?
Dude would literally say:
* sleeping on the couch
* fainting
* becoming manic
* definitely not committing murder
The weirdo in the back of your English class. Toxic yaoi enjoyer, but I’ll also post about my other things.
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