Okay, So Another One Great Show That Was Cancelled By Netflix To My List ✍🏻

I have read 20 books in 2024 and those were the most enjoyable for me. The raven cycle and the starless sea hit me right into my heart and im so happy that i finally picked them after years of thinking!

A moment of me realising that I have my copy of Six of Crows since 2018, when 12 year old me spent half of the night reading the last pages because she couldn't stop. Then I reread it around year and a half back, finally read the second book ( yes, took me so long to pick it up ) and annotated it. And then I did the best thing i have ever done to my books:

And I cannot stop to look at it since then every time I'm cleaning my bookshelf. Like, if this copy doesn't seems loved I don't know which one will.

I did silver edge as well! With just an acrylic paint. Does it look good? Not at all, its cracking as... But omg, does it makes me happy? Yes, yes it does

My copy of The Song of Achilles got water damaged. Luckily it wasn't the first drowning for Achilles

Evening read... ( and a little thought)

This part, don't know why but there is something in it. Like the feeling you can't explain but love

Need this running through my veins because YESYESYESYES

if you think about it kavinsky almost definitely thought ronan killed his dad too. that’s gotta be part of the reason he was so obsessive.

k’s got this trauma and secret weighing on him so heavily and isolating him from everyone until he finds out that kid who’s dad was mysteriously murdered is a dreamer too. especially considering ronan was the one who found the body and he immediately shifts to become aggressive, impulsive, and starts avoiding everyone. k mistakes the clear signs of ptsd for signals that they’re the same.

in kavinsky’s mind he’s finally found someone who will understand everything he went through and all of his fucked up coping and communication. he creates this ideal image of ronan as his last chance at a genuine connection with anyone, with no secrets in between them. the ronan in his mind is patient with k’s addictions, trauma, and tendency to push people away because he understands all the reasons behind it.

they’re both dreamers, gay in a small town, labeled as aggressive and outcasted, and in k’s mind, both victims as abuse who managed to outsmart their abusers. ronan’s everything he’d been craving.

when ronan rejects him and essentially calls k delusional for thinking they could ever be the same, k loses not just a boy but the very chance to ever be understood and accepted by anyone. if someone who he thinks went through the same shit as him still thinks he’s too fucked up to care about, then he’s got no chance. he’d rather die and drag everyone down with him than spend the rest of his life isolated and hated by everyone around.

I was so inspired to make some collages for my three favs after finishing The Starless Sea ~

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I'm showing to a friend the good culture (Six of crows) and I'm realising that maybe it's the first YA book that I've read which has romance where:

There's no love triangle. They know who they are and who they love and the rest of stupidities are left behind. I'm sorry but lately EVERY FANTASY BOOK HAS ONE STUPID love triangle.

They are all so different. And so found family. They kind of know each other. The bads, the goods. But they trust and respect each other. Besides all the differences. Kaz respects Jeaper's guns just because they are sacred to him. Without even asking. Not even my friends respect my guitar the same way.

They take care of ecah other on the little details. There's no heroic saves every page (just in some of them). It's about day by day decisions.

The romance is important but almost never the main thing. It's just there, like a side effect. They have more things than "Oh I wanna kiss my crush". It's a fantasy/adventure book which is ACTUALLY a fantasy/adventure book, not a romance one.

More less, all of that. Now I want to re-read them

My crows 🤧