Eat Wise

Sorry for my absence my life has been crying over my ex and doctors visits. 😭 Why'd I get diagnosed with bipolar on a random Wednesday morning. Fuck this shit.

I've been at my sister's place unable to track any progress since she doesn't have a scale, I've been in a binge cycle to say I'm ashamed is an understatement. Knowing I gained back the little I lost. Why can't I just stay consistent for once.

𝜗𝜚 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝟒𝐧𝟒 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐛𝐮𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐬

(my dms are open <3)

My biggest fear at the moment?

Dying fat - and that's all people remember about me. That I was fat.

I had a doctor's visit and I was late and had to run- just feeling my fat shake,the heavy breathing,the closed chest,every step had a weight to it. And that is when I realised I was basically a whale. The mere thought of knowing people were watching made it worse,they could see what I felt. I am utterly disgusting.i need to lock in.

Might see a psychiatrist today. The day someone finally tells me what's wrong with me. I should be happy...a diagnosis is validation that it's not all in my head.

But how can I be perfect if there's something wrong with me): if there's an imperfection. A flawi can't reverse.

'Why do you always add random numbers in your notes app'

-God forbid a girl has hobbies 😮‍💨

People- why are you starving??

🙏🏽god forbid a girl save money and food in this economy.

Dreams are zero calories, go to bed.

It’s so embarrassing being fat with an ed