The Worst Feeling Is Starving For Days And Still Not Losing Anything - Like I'm Fucking Trying Work With

I have to be.

i am gonna be skinny on my birthday

It’s so embarrassing being fat with an ed

I met my younger self for a coffee today.

She looked at me and went "we're still not skinny??"

I sighed and said "damn girl we're trying, okay??"

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My biggest fear at the moment?

Dying fat - and that's all people remember about me. That I was fat.

And in my state of panic suddenly I couldn't stop thinking of the numbers going down,only then did my mind calm down. At the sight of progress.

My dad wanted me aborted. Sometimes I'm sad he failed at that.

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⁺ 　　 ˚𝕽𝖞𝖑𝖊𝖘 𝖙𝖔 𝕭𝖊𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖆𝖓 𝕬𝖓𝖌𝖊𝖑.

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𝟏. 𝐃𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝟐-𝟑 𝐋𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐖𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫.

𝟐. 𝐍𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐧𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝟓𝐩𝐦.

𝟑. 𝐃𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝟖𝐚𝐦 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝟏𝟐 𝐩𝐦/𝐅𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝟖𝐩𝐦 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝟓𝐚𝐦 𝐨𝐧 𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐥 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬.

𝟒. 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝟑𝟎 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐰𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐚 𝐝𝐚𝐲 + 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐝.

𝟓. 𝐖𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐭 = 𝟓𝟎𝟎/𝐖𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 = 𝟏𝟎𝟎𝟎.

𝟔. 𝟓𝐤 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐩𝐬 - 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝟖-𝟏𝟎𝐤 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐩𝐬.

𝟕. 𝐀𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐡 𝐬𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐛 𝐯𝐚𝐥𝐮𝐞.

𝟖. 𝐅𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐞.

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( •-• ) ~ ♡ 𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒆𝒇𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒕.

/づづ ~ ┗━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━┛

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Silly little rules that keep me safe and secure in my journey. ♡♡ That I'll follow religiously until I get to my goal weight. I might add more as time goes on.

P.s if this triggers/bothers you please block, don’t report!🌸

Before you report someone's blog and take away their safe space...

Ed's are the most lonely and isolating illnesses there is. You are accepted only if you're successfully recovering, otherwise you're automatically problematic and promoting. Your body and habits around eating are triggering. You're demonetized for simply having a sickness.

People with ed's will always find their triggers, no matter how hard you try to block, report and all. But the thing is, you have to find these spaces. Closed spaces. If we don't have those, people will take their ed's on TikTok or other platforms where they will eventually pop up to everyone to see. If someone looks for these spaces, they're already sick. No one will GET sick by looking at someone's blogs.

These spaces let's you be honest, vent, have people and friends that all go through same things. You're less lonely. These spaces can be toxic, but when you find the right people it can be uplifting and actually good for your mental health: you're not alone.

These days people are mostly nice and pro recovery. M34nsp0 is something only kids post these days anymore. We connect, we vent, we help each other. Until WE are ready to recover. Forced recovery will never work the same as choosing recovery yourself. Reporting everything makes everything worse: you get isolated again, you're lonely again. Most people who D13 from Ed's d13 from taking their own life... It's the loneliness and depression that takes them eventually.

So if you see someone's Ed page, let them have it. Block it if you find it disturbing, but that can be the only thing keeping them alive atm. Just because YOU feel like it's not good, doesn't give you the right to take that safe space, friends and support from them.

If you need to find it, the sickness is already there. We will take these things to another platforms if these ones gets taken away. And then they will pop up to everyone.

So, our businesses are here, yours is there. The problem comes when you're also there, in our businesses. Protect your peace and block. Thank you.