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I'm back in fire fighting mode. This is the most stressful mindset to be in. Why is it comfortable? Why do I keep defaulting to this. This isn't healthy for me.

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Ok. Long time since I've posted.

I had some great weeks working out three times a week. Awesome!

Not so great with house work and even got behind in school work. But, I'm caught back up and trying to maintain again.

Let's see how this week goes.

STAR WARS (1977)

I forgot, I am playing in a Greyhawk game, got a Barbarian Drow named Rhaez’Varyntha (Rayz-VAH-rin-thah) "Wrath Weaver" of Selvetarm 🖤🖤🖤

Was given a note from my partner today. I'm not sure how I'm feeling after reading it. I know what is being expressed but my knee jerk reaction wasn't to their desire. My reaction was self centered. I haven't spoken or seen them since reading it. I'll read it again at lunch and before I go home. Really need to consider what to do with this information and decide how/if I should respond.

Catch up:

Been consistent in achieving step goals and dishes. Not getting the help I've been requesting. But, that's ok. This is my journey and my goals. I cannot expect others to participate. 🙁

It makes me sad I'm not getting help. So, I have to strengthen my resolve to see them through. I'll allow myself the sadness here during reflection.

I have not been doing my homework. If I want to get that masters degree, I have to focus and dedicate time to the effort.

For today:

I've already cleaned the kitchen. Wiped all the walls down. I'll mop another time. I've enough clean clothes to make it through the week. So, focus is one homework. This modules assignments are due today. Once completed I'll do the work for my body.

I need to move past the regret of allowing my body to get weak. It's not easy for me. I'll work on that later. Right now, homework and body.

What am I doing?

1/26/25:

Reflection:

Ok. I mid day shuffle yesterday, that's ok. Instead of working out with weights I did lots of walking while I fished. I am counting that as my work out. I got the laundry washed and dried. Still need to put it away. I'm feeling mentally better. I don't know how I fell into the pit despair last week or the week before. I do feel physically like I'm picking up a cold. I managed two workouts last week. I'm hopeful I can get three this week. It was fun going fishing yesterday, it has been a month since I got out there. Something about the water lapping and the repetitive motions has a calming effect.

I really a tired of being a student. I love learning but being a student is draining. Not even half done. I got to keep reminding myself why. The reason I want a masters is so, if I get laid off again I'll find a new job faster. The job pool is smaller for people with masters.

Plan:

Put away laundry,

Put away dishes,

Strength based work out,

Homework,

Fishing again, if all else complete.

Woven Through Generations

Monica Zavala (Gabrielino/Tongva Nation, Acjachemen, and Mexican)

acrylic on canvas. 15” x 30”

When we engage in the art of hair braiding, we infuse it with the purity of our intentions, a gesture that takes on profound significance when it's the tresses of a beloved individual we weave. The act of braiding becomes a powerful symbol, as we intertwine three sections of hair, each one representing the mind, the body, and the spirit.

In my youth, my mother would lovingly braid my hair, creating cherished moments that have left an indelible mark on my heart. As the passage of time bestows maturity, I find myself continuing this timeless tradition by tenderly braiding her hair. In this cycle, we bridge the generations, preserving this beautiful connection that transcends both time and space. The hands that perform this act of love and tradition are mine, as I braid my mother's hair, perpetuating the legacy of our shared bond.