Today: 2/4/25

Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

Today: 1/13/2025

Slept too little. Mentally drained after work. Not achieved step goal. Not achieved physical goal. Not achieved housework goal. Complete all assignments for school yesterday and steps.

Reflection: I need sleep. I don't work right when not sleeping. Even caffeine doesn't help. Sad about missing all targets for the day. Angry about people being closed minded at work. Confused on if I'm being closed minded. Lingering effects of not enough sleep. Booooooooo. Did manage some reading for school. Not sure I absorbed any of it. Tomorrow will tell.

Next day goals: 4000 steps. One load of dishes cleaned and put away. One load of laundry cleaned and put away. Draft discussion board post. Do the work things. Connect to the kids.

Jaune Quick-to-See Smith (Native American: Confederated Salish and Kootenai Nation, Montana, born 1940),

Memory Map, 2000

Oil on canvas 34 x 46 in (86.4 x 116.8 cm)

Private collection

Indigenous People's Day

I am an immigrant to the land of the Tongva, aka the Gabrieleno Band of Mission Indians.

Californians know this area as Los Angeles County, Orange County and the Channel Islands.

There's many photos and videos teaching and sharing their history and traditions on the website linked above. Here's one.

Today: 1/5/25

Well I was able to get somethings done. Not as many as I wanted to. I felt lethargic and slow. Like my body was extra heavy. Not sure

Art by colormehappii

Brick by brick! 🧱

I forgot, I am playing in a Greyhawk game, got a Barbarian Drow named Rhaez’Varyntha (Rayz-VAH-rin-thah) "Wrath Weaver" of Selvetarm 🖤🖤🖤

Today: 1/25/2025

I'm up. Calf cramping like hell. It's ok.

Plan:

Dishes,

Laundry,

Trash out,

Workout,

Fishing.

I want something fun today.

I'm back in fire fighting mode. This is the most stressful mindset to be in. Why is it comfortable? Why do I keep defaulting to this. This isn't healthy for me.