Today: 1/7/2025

Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

Indigenous People's Day

I am an immigrant to the land of the Tongva, aka the Gabrieleno Band of Mission Indians.

Californians know this area as Los Angeles County, Orange County and the Channel Islands.

There's many photos and videos teaching and sharing their history and traditions on the website linked above. Here's one.

I forgot, I am playing in a Greyhawk game, got a Barbarian Drow named Rhaez’Varyntha (Rayz-VAH-rin-thah) "Wrath Weaver" of Selvetarm 🖤🖤🖤

Jaune Quick-to-See Smith (Native American: Confederated Salish and Kootenai Nation, Montana, born 1940),

Memory Map, 2000

Oil on canvas 34 x 46 in (86.4 x 116.8 cm)

Private collection

📢📢📢

by ryanresatka

1. Is she a main character? YES.

2. Does this character fall in love with a white man? NO.

3. Does this character end up raped or killed at any point during the story? NO / NO.

Jax and Roki from Fancy Dance both pass The Ali Nahdee Test!

Catch up:

Been consistent in achieving step goals and dishes. Not getting the help I've been requesting. But, that's ok. This is my journey and my goals. I cannot expect others to participate. 🙁

It makes me sad I'm not getting help. So, I have to strengthen my resolve to see them through. I'll allow myself the sadness here during reflection.

I have not been doing my homework. If I want to get that masters degree, I have to focus and dedicate time to the effort.

For today:

I've already cleaned the kitchen. Wiped all the walls down. I'll mop another time. I've enough clean clothes to make it through the week. So, focus is one homework. This modules assignments are due today. Once completed I'll do the work for my body.

I need to move past the regret of allowing my body to get weak. It's not easy for me. I'll work on that later. Right now, homework and body.

1/26/25:

Reflection:

Ok. I mid day shuffle yesterday, that's ok. Instead of working out with weights I did lots of walking while I fished. I am counting that as my work out. I got the laundry washed and dried. Still need to put it away. I'm feeling mentally better. I don't know how I fell into the pit despair last week or the week before. I do feel physically like I'm picking up a cold. I managed two workouts last week. I'm hopeful I can get three this week. It was fun going fishing yesterday, it has been a month since I got out there. Something about the water lapping and the repetitive motions has a calming effect.

I really a tired of being a student. I love learning but being a student is draining. Not even half done. I got to keep reminding myself why. The reason I want a masters is so, if I get laid off again I'll find a new job faster. The job pool is smaller for people with masters.

Plan:

Put away laundry,

Put away dishes,

Strength based work out,

Homework,

Fishing again, if all else complete.