Let Me Humiliate Myself For You. Let Me Debase Myself For You. I Want Your Approval So Badly I’ll Do

Current Mood

Ruin my life.

Decide, before you even *officially* meet me, that you’re going to break my soul, take away my intelligence, ruin any feminist beliefs I have and destroy who I am as a person.

Worm your way into my life and into my mind.

Make me trust you and confide in you, let me tell you my darkest fantasies and make them my reality.

Take away my sweaters and cardigans and replace them with too tight and low tops and skirts so short the barely cover my ass. 

Make me a junkie whore. Make me addicted to drugs and sex. Make me fuck anyone who moves just to get my fix. 

Make me a shell of who I used to be. 

Notice:

It is now your time for random hole inspection. All a part of your training feedback loop. Immediately report condition of holes to receive prescription to ensure proper behavior.

Ongoing Benefits of Mindless Edging and Denial...

I'm always horny... I mean really. All. The. Time.

I feel decidedly docile and humble...

...which makes me feel even more deliciously submissive.

I am always ready to be used. Literally. Anyone that messages me can just use me. They don't even need to ask.

I am instantly ready to edge... because I am consistently wet.

I am more responsive to your suggestions...

My hunger to serve you is deeper and I am more pliant.

I am ready to sink lower and lower as you degrade me... its a crazy delicious spiral.

I am tingling all the time and playing with my nipples feels like I'm going to cum... fuck!

All this means I can take a lot more punishment. I can hit myself harder, slap myself more, choke myself further... gosh that's hot

I could go on...

Permission to dream

It is important to consider something that the vast majority of humans never realize.   What we perceive as “reality” is quite subjective.   Human minds can’t actually perceive “reality” as it might exist. For example we can mathematically show spacial demensions can exist higher than the three we perceive but humans lack the senses and capacity to perceive and imagine anything beyond 3D. Those sensual/mental abilities were not necessary for humans to flourish and so those abilities never developed.   What’s more reality not even created by our limited senses.   Our senses merely provide some inputs to our brain.  The key is that every input to your mind is filtered through your individual mental processes to create your understanding or your perception of (your) reality.   Your mind creates the reality you perceive.  Your individual perception of reality is literally created by your mental processes.   

Once you realize that your reality is rooted in mental processes, then you know intuitively that we have the power to change processes. That is almost within your grasp.   It’s not like  I have power to change you

you just need to  reach for what you desire.  You feel safe  reaching for your desire knowing that you always have the ability to change the processes that create your reality.  

This is true even though perhaps  you crave giving control   Since control is always an illusion you feel safe when you  give control over  to someone   Now   you should feel free to  explore your most closely held fantasies and desires.

Sadism Please

I want someone to hurt me. I like pain, yes. But it's knowing that someone *wants* to hurt me, that my pain arouses them, that they are pleased by my suffering. That's the sexiest thing.

Tell me that I make cute noises when you hit me.

Tell me that my tears make turn you on.

Tell me that I'm so pretty when I'm afraid.

Sometimes, pin me down or tie me up so that I can't escape the torture.

Sometimes command me to take it using my own discipline to stay still.

Give me the opportunity to prove my devotion by suffering for you.

I promise, I'll be a good girl.

you know it’s funny, i’ve done a lot of humiliating things. i’ve submitted to strangers online. i’ve tortured myself for the amusements of others. i’ve pissed myself. i’ve made myself dumber and more desperate on purpose.

but the most humiliating thing that i can do is what i’m doing right now — admit that as much as i wish i was more, that i was better than this, i’m not. i can’t keep away no matter how hard i try. i will always have this craving to be humiliated and degraded. the thought of being used and abused will always make me ache and drip, even if it disgusts my rational mind.

i’m a dumb desperate slut with a broken mind. and i love it.

Filled

Yes, baby.

Yes, it’s possible to learn to like anal. To love the feeling of being stretched there, being filled. To crave it.

But I don’t want that, baby.

I want you to hate it every single time.

I want you to cry while I fuck your ass, I want you to beg me not to and promise anything and everything just so I won’t do it again.

I want it to be my favorite hole anyway.

Will you do that for me, baby?

truth

People tend not to get moral credit for their self interested contribution to the welfare of others.

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