Live Your Best Life

Reasons i shouldnt let myself cum:

-i dont deserve it

-its better to edge and be horny 24/7 so i can be ready for anything a Man migjt use me for

-cunts dont have needs

-the decision is mever mine, only Men can telll me if i can cum or mot

-i am not a person, i am just a thing that makes Cocks cum, and objects dont have orgasms

-edging is waaayy hotter than cuming

-it makes me feel like a good cunt when i cause myself any discomfort or pain, so it makes sense to never orgasm

 Attention, manipulation and degradation are your holy trilogy. Only the worst perversions tickle your itch. You know it takes him some time and effort to persuade you deeper into your little pit. He knows what you think about. He nurtures your disgusting fantasies. He assures you that you’re a dumb little girl, he ties you to his bed to lick and suck every inch of your body. You find this romantic, him tasting his property. Deep down you know he is only whetting his appetite.

You like it when he starts to get bossy, cruel, and controlling. It feels sweet when he micromanages you. He tells you to dye your hair and what panties to wear and that you’re never, ever, ever, allowed to cum without his permission. You’re led steadily with kisses, edges, rules and presents. Soon you’re never without your plug and collar. It’s been a year since you’ve cum, and may never again.

You respond to: slave, cunt, puppy, slut, and princess only. This bizarre- and some would argue negative attention gets you wet. You need it. You agreed to it, and you’ve always wanted it. You comply with his commands. To torture you is to spoil you. He understands this perfectly, and will ignore every false objection or bratty outburst. He knows that ‘no’ means ‘please’ and that you’ll always come to your senses after being fed an erection.

Your fixation with this control festers, you ache with need. You begin to melt. You understand this helpless and hellish sensation as bliss. Your little brain bends as your cunt is pierced shut and your asshole stretched. Your body is his. Him and his new girlfriend call you piggy, cunt, it, or doll. Still your mouth and cunt drip, eager to be stuffed, pumped full of warm lust or punctured, slapped. You only feel him in your ass now, only on the floor, or between the bars of your puppy crate. You only feel her, heavy and wet and reeking of sex, grinding on your face. His cock tastes like her cunt or your ass, kisses without the gag are rare. In the middle of the night you finally understand your place. Terrified, you writhe against the latex, your movement triggers your shock collar over and over again until you’re exhausted, still and asleep.

You wake up gagging on cock, quietly sobbing while fulfilling his needs.

Edging

At first I thought that edging was just a silly game, but now I can see the effects that it has on me.

Thanks to Tumblr I started edging on my knees, on the floor with my tongue out, all naked, drooling and humiliating myself.

This is making me more and more depraved, and I’m starting to like kinks that I used to find disgusting.

It actually makes me feel dumber, my head feels all fuzzy and there is always a part of me that is thinking about edging. I’m constantly leaking and getting wet, so wet that I can feel my wetness ruining my panties.

I think Im getting dirtier and sluttier every day, and its so fucking hot

He edged and denied me over and over. Broke me down to the point that I couldn’t think straight. No words. Just crying.

He told me to beg.

I usually try to say the nice words that I know he loves. Strained words as I hold back my pleasure. Please, may your whore cum? Can she orgasm for you, Sir?

But this time, I just screamed. Frantically repeating please, please, please, please, PLEASE through my tears.

I couldn’t think of anything more.

I couldn’t think at all.

hii um. i like your blog. do you have any ideas for things to do to better corrupt oneself? any favorite mantras or videos?

Thank you I’m glad you enjoy! There are lots of good mantras and plenty of videos available online. I don’t have one go-to that I hand out to everyone who asks as it seems different individuals respond better to different stimuli. Rules are super helpful though. Set goals to make achievements on regular intervals. Unlocking new praise and titles as you corrupt yourself more and more is so fun.

Direct guidance with a trusty accountability partner can be so much more fulfilling and helpful though. Feel free to message directly or off anon for more of what I think.

Stay slutty, be safe, be good or be good at it

craving covert noncon and brainwashing so fucking bad right now. worm into my head. violate me. use me. rape my mind until there's nothing left. gaslight me into thinking I love it. make me cum to my own subjugation. I have too many fucking braincells pleeeease I need to be mindfucked I need to be ruined and God itd make me so wet to not even see it coming. im such a naive and trusting little girl ill be your best whore, my mind is ready to take, dont ask permission, message me and get my gaurd down, I'm so desperate I won't even suspect you until it's too late....

Edging is better than cumming.

Never give up

You never  give up resisting.  Don’t  let my words stay  deep in your mind.  Just because I find your struggle so cute should have no bearing on your desire to not  touch yourself.   You’re trying to be good and avoid the desire to  touch yourself now  even though it is tempting, but you  keep reading my notes  like you are addicted   and you know you won’t be able to resist no matter how hard you try to be a good girl.   

what doesn’t kill u makes it ridiculously fucking stupid hard to find a compatible partner

hihi!

my daddy isn’t all that into ddlg stuff and some of the bdsm things that i myself am into

however he’s interested in sex and mostly sex he’s not interested in the emotional side of bdsm purely the sex and pleasure for him

it upsets me that he doesn’t want to explore kinks with me but i can understand most of the time

i was wondering if you had any advice

The short answer here is “it depends”.   It depends on multiple factors.  Perhaps your partner is just selfish and does not care all that much.   More likely, your partner may just not be super comfortable with taking the dynamic further and doesn’t want to feel embarrassed… like they don’t know what to do. Rather than risk looking/feeling stupid, they avoid taking things further and may even claim they are not that “into it”.    Fear generally and fear of something so personal as sexual embarrassment are quite potent motivators to overcome.   If he doesn’t care enough, that is another story altogether.  

However, if they care about you, you may be able to convince them to explore more, but it will take some work to make them comfortable with it.  

 In anon... I can only offer some general advice on how to get an intimate partner to explore more things with you.  Every relationship is different, and what works for one may not work for another. Therefore, I encourage you to communicate openly, honestly and respectfully with your partner about your desires and expectations and listen to their feelings and preferences.  The biggest key to deepening your relationship this way and reaching your goals is empathy.   It is the most powerful thing humans do.   There are ways to help this, but that is a bit deeper and would likely require direct messaging rather than anon.  Or if you like I can point you to some resources on it.

Feel free to reach out more if you like.  Either way, I wish you all the best.