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"books where the guy falls first" "enemies to lovers slowburn books" what the fuck is the book even about. why should i read it.

plotholes in season 4 i really don't understand now i've digested the season please feel free to explain or add your own:

- sparrow academy and especially sloane just being forgotten, luther just seeming to magically get over his wife disappearing and not fighting in any way shape or form to find her or get back to a timeline with her in it - especially as they show discovery of the phoenix academy you think five would mention that a timeline with sloane must exist out there - ben being teased on the subway train at the end of season 3 but just??? never showing up??? was that an alternative timeline? - allison doing everything last season motivated by the idea of being able to get to claire and ray only for ray to apparently leave her with zero elaboration as to why or what happened - making fatphobic jokes towards diego but actually he takes his shirt off and is still ripped as fuck? - upon regaining their powers luther getting his ape body back which??? literally had nothing to do with his marigold related powers it was because of an accident on a previous timeline? - lila getting laser beam eye powers seemingly from nowhere, but it's not as if this was ever addressed because she could still mimic powers (see: her using five's time travel ability) - very limited use of powers, there were a few cool moments in episode 2 but ultimately it felt like there was no need to even get them back as they rarely showcased them (with the exception of five's getting them stuck) - klaus throwing his marigold onto a passing man but this never getting any exploration - never explaining why jennifer was in a giant squid - never explaining why jennifer got locked up in a safe - ben apparently never discussing with klaus how he died??? - ben and jennifer not realising that the entire motel had blown up around them including murdering flocks of birds and staff when they checked out? - entire five/lila plotline but also five figuring out how to leave and not saying anything when he has always been the first to want to get back and protect his family - lila apparently hating bracelets despite the fact that diego making lila a bracelet and it keeping them linked was such a big plotpoint it was used as a teaser in previous seasons (and the bead bracelet just disappearing) - lila being so intent on saving her family and the kids by sending them to the subway and on an alternative timeline but only one 'true' timeline can survive anyway which would erase the subway - the kids existing when the parents that created them don't - the entire show being for nothing in that the umbrellas do not even exist anymore

DO NOT DO THIS!!!

If a website has a paywall, like New York Times, DO NOT use the ctrl+A shortcut then the ctrl+c shortcut as fast as you can because then you may accidentally copy the entire article before the paywall comes up. And definitely don't do ctrl+v into the next google doc or whatever you open because then you will accidentally paste the entire article into a google doc or something!!!! I repeat DO NOT do this because it is piracy which is absolutely totally wrong!!!

yes communication is important, but being in a situation where you constantly have to over-communicate every single thing in order to get listened and tended to is draining and kills romance. a huge part of intimacy and connection is feeling seen and understood by the other person – them being attuned to your needs, feelings, desires, and knowing who you are as a person on a deeper level, is a sign of love. being with someone who is thoughtless and inconsiderate and constantly has to have everything spelled out to them, will leave you feeling invisible and unloved. yes people aren’t mind readers and its good to talk about stuff but someone who just doesn’t think of you or understand basic things that would make you happy, isn’t a good partner.

when i say “girl” randomly as an interjection i’m speaking to the omnipresent all knowing being of Girl. asking her for mercy. taking girl’s name in vain

It's a shame how Cressida was treated at the end of season 3. I'm honestly so disappointed that the writers took the time to expand Cressida into a very sad, relatable, and sympathetic woman, who shows growth and furthers Eloise's character, only to throw it all away in the last four episodes.

Cressida's whole arc this season is that she's an old maid, unlovable, and can't find a husband. Her future is incredibly bleak: an impending marriage to a man three times her age, social isolation, and being outcast from everything she knows. Cressida is a woman with no real friends, a scornful mother, and a downright horrific father, so she tries her best to claw her way out of her predicament with the old husband. Albeit, not the best way, but not a despicable one.

Instead of receiving any sympathy, she's used as comedic relief, berated for "not being clever" by her mother and many other characters (which I found so out of character because Cressida has always been sharp and observant, ever since season 1 when she was Daphne's pseudo-villain. Cressida even discovers LW's identity in a single day which took the Queen herself three years.)

Then, at her lowest point, Cressida is blown off and later disparaged by Eloise once she reconnects with Penelope, for no real purpose or reason. Eloise calls Cressida a "viper," when Cressida was there for her in her loneliness, when no one else would speak to her.

Cressida never gets a real chance to talk to Eloise or truly anyone about her feelings, her fear- besides Lady Cowper. The scene where Cressida breaks down, telling her she's scared, was heart-breaking. How are we supposed to cheer for this? (For Penelope's sake? I don't think anyone good would wish for the punishments Cressida received for trying to save herself!)

Cressida's mother even comments on how Eloise abandoned her in her time of need. Eloise Bridgerton (at least the one I thought I knew from the first half of the season, the woman who calls upon Cressida because "she did not seem herself") would never do this. They wrote her and Cressida to have truly connected. Sure, maybe it begun out of spite, but nowhere did they show us the friendship "falling apart" as Eloise randomly claims to Penelope near the end. It felt as though there were several episodes missed. Though- to be honest, Eloise has felt out of character for a long time in this show. (I do blame a lot of this on the very rushed pacing, and the showrunner being heavily biased toward Penelope.)

(grabs you by the shoulders) you have to make room for new experiences in your life. you have to go through the unpleasant work of leaving your comfort zone, even if just for a few minutes at a time. because if you don't, your brain will trick you into stagnation. you will start to believe that the world can barely fit you in it. but that's not true. it's the opposite way around. you can fit the whole word inside of you. your task is only this: to welcome it with open arms

Thank you..... Reading old books with wear and tear gives me a warm feeling

Yes I dog ear the corners of my books, No I don't care when the pages of my books come out, I appreciate the signs of wear and tear, I like it when they look like they've been read and absorbed, like they've really influenced me, I like it when they look like they belong in a museum, yes we exist.

This a a reminder to not fall victim to the sunk-cost fallacy. Just because you invested time and energy into something, does not mean you should indefinitely waste more time and energy on it, if you decide it’s not what you want anymore. This goes for anything, from books, to relationships, to jobs, to hobbies, etc.

If it’s not serving you anymore, move on.

Being an ugly girl with a crush feels like being a sex offender