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waking up to stars on the ceiling and bruises on pale skin and battered feet on & off the scale and almonds in ziploc baggies and bite marks on fingers and hair down the drain and measuring crunches by the spots left on the spine and enough water to drown organs and eating an apple with a knife and fork and battered feet on & off the scale and desperate hands clutching ribs and standing up & the world goes dark and carrying an emergency rice cake in your purse for weak spells and enough green tea to drown organs and how many calories are in toothpaste and whatever nail polish color covers yellow and battered feet on & off the scale and is today the day my heart gives out and how many calories do you burn when you sneeze and pillows squeezed between thighs and waking up in a new body everyday and fingers clasped around wrists and notebooks filled with numbers and purple crescents below the eyes and accidentally knocking your elbow on your hip bone and being afraid of your own reflection and i’m not hungry or i already ate or i’ll eat later or i don’t feel well and oxygen that tastes like splenda and battered feet on & off the scale

I do this 3 times a day and it works wonders 😍

Sorry just so I don’t lose it

I’m starting this 10 week challenge. Whose with me?

I’m starting this and going to try my hardest to continue this for the next 10 weeks. I’m starting today (August 19, 2019) and will do this workout everyday after school. I will eat only dinner (and maybe a small lowkey snack if I feel faint). I will check in every Monday and update you on my consistency, weight, mesurements (when I get a measuring ribbon) and anything else that Id like to. Stay safe, love you :)

August 19 - Weight: 119.4

of course it’s “all in my head”, have you ever seen anyone having depression on their leg?

Was feeling really hungry today to I waited for dinner and had some squid + veggies with long grain rice (picked most of it off) + beetroot (max of 400 cals)

Also had some fruit salad which was max of (150 cals)

So I’m total I had 550 cals

Not a good day today not a good day at all!

And to top that off I relapsed on self harm after being 3 weeks clean

Didn’t get anywhere this week again, tried breaking gym plateau with high cal restriction but that didn’t work, but we’re lower than last week so that’s cool.

Dying really sounds like an option.

uhhh guys ??

i weighed myself yesterday morning and i lost 5 pounds over 6 days.

REBLOG TO LOSE 5 POUNDS 💓