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The Little Things He Remembers

Levi pretends he doesn’t care.

He has to, or else the weight of the world might crush him completely. It's easier to bury things under the surface. Harder to let them show. If he never admits he cares, he can keep things at a distance. At arm's length, where they can’t break him down.

But if you pay close attention, you’ll see the cracks. The way his eyes flicker when he sees you pick up your tea mug, the way he memorizes the subtle curve of your smile when you talk about something you love. He'll never say it, but he knows your favorite tea—green with a hint of jasmine, not too strong, just enough to calm the nerves. He’s noticed it, every time, when he makes you tea just the way you like it, with no questions asked. It’s almost like he’s learned it without trying to, as though his mind simply stores things that matter, even if it’s not something he ever lets you know.

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You don’t say much about it. The tea. The way he always seems to have it ready for you, even when he looks like he’s barely awake. You don’t mention how he remembers, even the smallest details. But you notice. You always notice.

And then there’s the bread. The way you take it—lightly toasted with just a smear of butter. It's something you’ve always done. Something small, but Levi knows it. He’ll pretend it’s nothing. He’ll never make a comment about it, but when he watches you sit at the table, tearing off pieces of your toast, he’s quietly acknowledging it. It’s the little things that make you human, make you more than just a soldier to him. He never says it, but he remembers.

"Stop looking at me like that," you tease one morning, as you catch him watching you for the umpteenth time as you take your breakfast.

Levi raises an eyebrow, the ghost of a smirk playing on his lips, but he doesn’t respond. His silence is enough.

(He knows the truth in it.)

It’s easy to pretend he doesn’t care. It’s easy to hide behind his cold exterior, to keep his feelings locked away in some dark corner of his mind. But even Levi can’t stop himself from remembering the details. The way you hum under your breath when you’re content, how your hands always seem to find a way to smooth your clothes when you’re nervous. The way you fidget when you're worried, how you never quite look people in the eye when you're lying. He knows it all, even when he never asks.

There’s a comfort in knowing. A comfort in keeping it to himself, like a secret only he gets to carry. It doesn’t make him weak, he tells himself. It just makes him... human. And sometimes, that’s all he can allow himself to be. Just a little bit of humanity in a world that demands too much.

But then there’s the sleep. That’s when it all spills out. When you’re not awake to stop him, when you’re too vulnerable to hide it. You don’t know, but he does. He’s heard you speak in your sleep. Not often, but when you’re stressed or overwhelmed, your mind races in the silence of the night. He listens. And the words that slip out of your mouth don’t break him—no, they only draw him closer. He never mentions it. He knows better. But he hears you say things you would never dare to in the waking world. Words that are soft and unsure, the things you’ve been too afraid to share. He holds onto those too, locked away in his mind, tucked between the moments when everything else feels too heavy to carry.

“Stop moving around,” he mutters one night, his voice rough from sleep as you shift beside him.

You mumble something about the mission, about the weight of the world, and he almost doesn’t hear it over the blood in his ears. But he does. He always does.

The next morning, he’s as cold as ever. No mention of last night. No comment on the way you curled into him, your breath slow and steady as if you trusted him, even for just a moment.

You pretend you don’t notice either. Pretend it’s nothing. But you both know.

It’s easy to convince yourself the things that matter don’t make you weak. But they do. That’s the problem with caring, with remembering. The things you keep to yourself are the things that matter the most.

And it gets harder to pretend they don’t when every passing day adds another layer to it all.

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“You never ask me how I take my coffee,” you say once, breaking the silence as you both sit in the mess hall after another long day. It’s a quiet evening, the fire crackling softly in the background.

Levi doesn’t respond immediately. He sips his coffee, the bitterness cutting through the silence, before he finally speaks.

“You take it black. No sugar. No cream.”

Your eyebrows raise. “How do you know that?”

Levi shrugs, his expression unreadable. "I pay attention."

And there it is again—the way he says the simplest things like they don’t matter. Like the fact that he knows how you take your coffee, or the fact that he’s remembered all the little things, doesn’t mean anything at all. But you know better. You know what it means when someone remembers the things that are so easily forgotten. When they pay attention to the details, to the pieces of you that no one else cares about.

“Yeah, well, I take my coffee with the same amount of bitterness you carry around with you every day,” you say, your voice more playful than you mean it to be. But something shifts in Levi’s expression. For a moment, his mask cracks. It’s brief, almost imperceptible, but it’s there.

"Don't go around getting sentimental on me now," he mutters, though there’s a softness underneath the words.

You don’t press him, not this time. Instead, you sip your coffee, and for a while, silence falls between you two again.

(But you both know.)

He remembers everything. Every small, unspoken detail about you. The things you think he doesn’t notice. He carries them all with him, tucked into the corners of his mind, kept safe from the rest of the world. And maybe that’s the most human thing he’s ever done.

And maybe, just maybe, you can carry that with you, too.

You look at him, his eyes flickering toward yours for just a moment. You’ll never say it aloud, but you both understand. The small things matter.

The things you never say are the things you care about the most. And Levi, despite all his pretensions and all the walls he’s built, remembers them all.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers ✨🌸

You know, it’s funny how the smallest things end up meaning the most. A favorite tea, the way someone takes their bread, the tiny details no one asks for but someone still remembers. Who does that remind me of?

My Bua (paternal aunt), actually. The lady is too sweet for this world. She’s the kind of person who will remember exactly how you like your toast, even if you never told her outright. And the next time you’re around, she’ll make it just right—not because she has to, but because she wants you to feel comfortable, because she loves you in that quiet, thoughtful way. *Sighs* Ahhh, love her to the moon and back. Would probably kill for her—okay, that’s the intrusive thoughts talking, but you get the idea.

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The Things He Never Forgets

Sukuna does not remember the faces of the men he has killed.

They blur together, indistinct, insignificant. A thousand screams, a thousand lives, all reduced to echoes lost in time.

He does not remember the first time he tasted blood.

Only that it was warm. Only that it tasted like power.

He does not remember the last time he spoke without cruelty.

Perhaps he never did.

Perhaps he was born sharp-edged, made only to take, to destroy, to rule.

And yet—

Sometimes, something shifts.

Something rises unbidden, uncalled for, unwanted.

A scent, a sound, a fleeting phrase spoken without thought.

And suddenly, he is somewhere else.

Suddenly, he is something else.

Something before.

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It happens on an evening like any other.

The fire is low. The air is thick with the scent of whatever you’re cooking, something simple, something forgettable. He is not paying attention. He does not need to.

Until you hum.

A tune, quiet, absentminded. A fragment of something old, something small.

And the world lurches.

Because he knows it.

Not the song itself, but the shape of it, the feeling of it. The way it pulls at something he does not remember storing away.

The air changes.

Sukuna does not move. He does not react. But his fingers twitch, curling just slightly where they rest.

It is nothing.

It is nothing.

Except—

His mind betrays him.

A flicker. A glimpse. A place he does not recognize, a life that is not his.

Or perhaps it was.

Once.

Long ago.

Before he became a god. Before he became a curse. Before his name was spoken in fear and reverence and hatred alike.

He does not remember.

And yet his body does.

The way his shoulders tense, the way his breath slows. The way he knows that if he reached out now—if he closed his eyes, if he listened just a little longer—

Something would come back.

And he is not sure he wants that.

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"Why did you stop?"

Your voice snaps him back.

He blinks, sharp and immediate, as if tearing himself free from something he does not want to acknowledge.

"You were humming," he says, and his voice is too even. Too careful.

You tilt your head. "Did it bother you?"

He scoffs, the sound rough. "Hardly."

A lie.

Because he does not forget things.

Not like this.

Not in ways that matter.

And yet, when he closes his eyes that night, long after the fire has burned down and silence has settled over the room,

The tune lingers.

It settles into the quiet spaces of his mind, the places he does not look too closely at.

And for the first time in centuries,

Sukuna remembers something he never meant to.

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Sukuna having an internal crisis? Maybe. Or maybe I’m just delulu. Who’s to say?

But honestly, music is one of the most human things there is. It lingers. It carries. A song from centuries ago can still be sung today, and I feel like that’s the kind of thing that would get to him. Maybe not in a way he’d ever admit, but in that quiet, unwanted way where he finds himself listening when he doesn’t mean to.

And that line—what is immortality if not a curse? To be left behind when the other part of you is gone?—I swear I’ve read it somewhere before. It sounds like something that should be carved into a tombstone or whispered by some tragic figure who’s lived too long. (If you remember where it’s from, tell me because my brain is blanking.)

But yeah, completely agree with that sentiment. Who the hell wants to live forever? Tom Riddle was as stupid as he was good-looking.

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The Quiet Kind of Tired :

You meet Nanami Kento on a Tuesday,

which feels exactly right. Tuesdays are the most unremarkable days of the week. Nobody romanticizes a Tuesday. You don’t expect to fall in love on one.

You’re working overtime again, elbows deep in paperwork that means nothing, for people who care even less. He sits across from you in the break room. Neat suit. Tired eyes. He drinks his coffee black, like he’s punishing himself.

You say something cynical. He doesn’t laugh, but the corner of his mouth twitches. That’s how it starts.

No grand gestures.

Just a quiet understanding between two people too tired to pretend they’re okay.

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Dating Nanami is like walking into a room already cleaned.

Everything in its place. Emotion folded tightly into polite responses. He takes you out to dinner every Thursday. He walks you home. He buys you flowers—carnations, not roses. Clean, efficient, not too sentimental.

He doesn’t talk about his past. You don’t ask. You’re both adults. You both understand that talking about certain things doesn’t make them easier.

Still, some nights, when the city is too loud and you’ve had one glass of wine too many, you look at him and think—

I am loving a man who does not know what to do with softness.

And he looks back at you like you’re made of glass he’s trying not to break with his silence.

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You love him anyway. Not because it’s easy. But because he never lies to you. Not in words, at least.

He tells the truth in smaller ways. When he takes the side of the bed closest to the door. When he holds your wrist instead of your hand, like it’s easier to let go that way. When he texts, "I’m sorry, I’ll be late tonight,” and you don’t ask why.

Because you know the answer:

He is always late for himself.

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You don’t realize how tired you’ve become until you stop recognizing your own voice. You speak less. Smile less. You don’t cry—you just compress.

Like your feelings are cargo in a suitcase too small.

Nanami doesn’t notice. Or maybe he does, and he thinks it’s something you need to handle alone. That’s the thing about him—he believes in self-reliance to a fault. As if needing people is something shameful. Something weak.

You once told him you wanted to take care of him.

He said, “That’s not necessary.”

You didn’t offer again.

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The silence grows slowly, like water under a door.

You tell your friends he’s “steady.” You tell yourself it’s enough.

But you start watching couples on the train. Not the loud, annoying kind. The quiet ones. The ones who lean their heads together. The ones who speak without speaking.

And you think—I want to be chosen without hesitation.

With Nanami, you are always chosen… responsibly.

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One night, you come home early from work. He’s already there, standing in the kitchen in a white dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up. He’s slicing something—methodical, perfect. His tie is loosened. His hair slightly messy.

He looks tired. Not in the dramatic, cinematic way. Just… tired in the way people look when they’ve been carrying everything alone for too long.

You drop your bag by the door and say, “You know you can talk to me, right?”

He pauses. Doesn’t turn around.

“I don’t want to burden you,” he says.

There’s no malice in it. No edge.

But God, does it hurt.

You say nothing. Walk to the bathroom. Close the door gently.

You stare at yourself in the mirror and wonder when you started mistaking restraint for kindness.

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You dream of him leaving. Not out of cruelty. But out of quiet, inevitable decay.

You dream of growing old beside him and never once hearing him say, “I need you.”

You wake up gasping.

And when you roll over to look at him, he’s still asleep, face turned away from you, hands folded like he’s praying.

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You don’t break up. Of course not. That would require a climax, and your relationship is built entirely on anti-climax. You just… let it fray.

There’s no cheating. No screaming. Just unspoken questions hanging like fog in the room.

You start eating dinner separately. You stop saying I miss you because he never said it first.

And he—he grows even quieter. Like he knows you’re drifting, and he’s letting you go in the only way he knows how: respectfully.

You wonder if he thinks that’s love.

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One day, he comes home to find you sitting on the floor, reading a book you’ve read before.

He looks at you like he wants to say something. You wait. He doesn’t.

So you say it for him.

“I’m tired, Kento.”

You’re not crying. You’re not shouting.

You’re just stating a fact.

And for the first time, he looks… afraid.

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He sits down beside you. Not too close. But not far.

“I never wanted to make you feel alone,” he says.

His voice is low. Honest.

You nod. “I know. But you did.”

There’s a long silence.

Then—

“I didn’t know how else to be.”

And you believe him.

You love him.

But you also know that love is not enough when it has nowhere to land.

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You don’t leave that night. You fall asleep on the couch, your back to his.

But something shifts. Not fixed. Just acknowledged.

And sometimes, that’s the beginning of something. Sometimes, it’s the end.

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Later—weeks later, maybe months—you’ll walk past a bakery the two of you never went into. And you’ll think about how many moments you both passed up in the name of being sensible.

How many soft things you gave up because he didn’t know what to do with them.

You’ll still love him.

But you’ll also understand: some people were taught that needing is dangerous. That showing pain is failure. That asking for help is weak.

And it is not your job to rewrite that for them.

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In the end, you loved a man who refused to be held.

And that is the quietest kind of heartbreak.

The kind that doesn’t end with a scream.

Just a sigh.

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He Never Thought He’d Live Long Anyway :

Geto Suguru never really planned for the future. Not in the way normal people did.

He wasn’t careless, not exactly—just realistic. Sorcerers didn’t get old. They didn’t settle down, didn’t retire, didn’t fade into something softer. They burned out or got snuffed out, whichever came first. It was the nature of things.

You used to think he was being dramatic when he said things like that.

“You sound like an old man,” you’d tease, lying next to him on the temple floor, staring at the ceiling beams above. The incense was still burning, curling in soft wisps of white. “You’re eighteen, Suguru.”

“Exactly,” he’d reply, tipping his head to look at you, something almost fond in his gaze. “Ancient.”

And maybe, back then, it was a joke. A stupid one. But even then, there was something in his voice, something that made you uneasy.

Like he was saying it not because he wanted to, but because he already knew.

Because he had already done the math.

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He never talked about the future the way other people did.

Gojo made plans—half-baked, ridiculous ones, but plans nonetheless. Even Shoko, for all her cynicism, would talk about things like next year and someday. But Geto Suguru?

When he spoke about the future, it was always vague. Uncertain. Like he was already counting himself out of it.

Not in a self-destructive way. Not in a woe is me kind of way. Just in the quiet, inevitable way that someone acknowledges gravity.

He never said, *When I’m old.*

He never said, *Someday, when I retire.*

He only ever said, *If I make it that far.*

And it wasn’t until later that you realized—he didn’t think he would.

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The first time you knew, really knew, you were seventeen.

The mission had been hell. You’d come back exhausted, blood-soaked, drained to the marrow. Your hands were still shaking from the aftermath when you found him sitting outside, barefoot in the grass, staring up at the sky like he was trying to find something there.

You sat next to him, close enough to feel the warmth of him, but not touching. Neither of you spoke for a long time. The cicadas screamed in the distance, the only sound in the stillness. Then, finally—

“I don’t think I’ll live long,” he said. Just like that. Flat. Matter-of-fact. Like he was telling you the weather.

You turned your head sharply. “Don’t say shit like that.”

“It’s true.” He didn’t even look at you, just kept staring at the stars. “It’s fine, though.”

“It’s not fine,” you snapped, the exhaustion making you sharp. “You talk like it’s already decided.”

He let out a quiet laugh. “Maybe it is.”

You wanted to be angry. Wanted to tell him he was being ridiculous, that he was stronger than this, that he wasn’t allowed to talk about his own life like it was already over.

But when you looked at him—really looked at him—you saw it.

He wasn’t afraid.

That was what scared you most.

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Years later, you thought back to that night.

When he left. When you realized you wouldn’t be able to follow. When you realized—maybe he was right. Maybe he wasn’t meant to live long. Maybe he had known, even then.

You wanted to believe it was a choice. That he had decided not to live, that he had chosen a path that would lead him to an early end. But deep down, you knew—

This world was never going to let him grow old.

It was never going to let him be anything but a tragedy waiting to happen.

And the worst part?

(He had made peace with that long before you ever did. )

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The last time you saw him, it was raining.

He stood there, the same as always, looking at you like he was waiting for something. You could have said anything. You could have begged him to stay, or cursed him, or broken down right there in the street.

But all you said was—

“Did you ever really want to live, Suguru?”

He blinked, slow, like the question surprised him. Then, after a moment, he gave you a small, tired smile.

“I wanted to,” he said, quiet.

“For a little while.”

And then he walked away.

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You know what gets me? The irony of it all. Geto probably knew—deep down, in that quiet, resigned way of his—that he was never going to live long. And Gojo? Well, he’s Gojo Satoru. The strongest. The untouchable. The one who’ll probably live to a hundred just because no one’s capable of killing him.

And what really messes with me is that they both made peace with it.

Geto never planned for a future because he didn’t think he’d have one. And Gojo—he made peace with having one. With outliving everything and everyone. With the idea that nothing in this world is permanent, that everything is just an illustration on water, fading the moment you reach for it. It’s almost in a way it’s kind of like the Buddhist idea of impermanence—the acceptance that nothing lasts, so you might as well let go before it gets taken from you.

But the difference is, Geto let go by leaving. And Gojo lets go by staying.

Which is insane, when you think about it. Gojo, who loves so much and so loudly, is the one who’s already accepted loss as a fundamental fact of life. While Geto, who acted like he could leave things behind, was never truly able to.

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I don’t know. It’s tragic in a way that feels too real. But what do you think? Do you read them differently? Because I’d love to hear your take on this.

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The Daughter of Littlefinger { 1 }

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"They call me Baelish’s girl. A whisper behind silk fans, a name spoken with knowing smirks and hushed amusement, as if I am some pet my father keeps in his pocket, trained to play his games. But I am not a pet. Nor a pawn. Nor a fool. I am something else entirely—though, if I were wise, I would not admit to what."

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I was born in a brothel, though no one in court would ever say it aloud.

They would whisper it, of course, behind painted fans and smirks, in the same breath that they called me Baelish’s girl. Not quite a lady, not quite a bastard, something between a shadow and a secret.

My mother was a whore. She had hair like autumn and eyes like the first bloom of spring—Catelyn Stark’s ghost in a cheaper dress. She was beautiful in the way that made men reckless, and that, I suppose, was her first and final mistake.

I do not remember much of her. A voice, soft and humming. A hand, cool against my forehead. The way she smelled—lavender and something warm, something fading. When I try too hard to summon her, she dissolves into candlelight and smoke.

She died when I was four.

No one ever told me how. Some said illness, some said an accident, some said a jealous man who did not take kindly to her affections being divided. Maybe it was all of them. Maybe it was none. I used to think that if I asked my father, he would tell me, but I never did.

And perhaps that is the truest thing about us—our relationship was built not on what was said, but on what we both refused to say.

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Petyr Baelish took me in, but he did not raise me.

No, I think I raised myself.

I learned early that silence was my strongest armor. That men would mistake beauty for softness, that kindness was only currency, that power was not about strength, but about knowing which strings to pull and when.

I watched my father, listened to him, memorized the way he twisted words into something sweet and sharp all at once. I learned when he lied and when he only made people think he was lying. I learned that truth is a weapon like any other.

And I loved him, in my own way.

How could I not?

He was the one who took me from the filth of that brothel, who dressed me in silk, who gave me a name that people whispered with something like fear. I could have been nothing. I could have been dead.

Instead, I was here. In the capital. In the court. In the game.

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The first lesson my father ever taught me was this: Power is an illusion, and the best illusions are the ones people choose to believe.

He told me this when I was seven, sitting across from me at a table too grand for two people alone. His fingers toyed with the stem of his wine cup, a casual gesture, but I knew better than to think my father’s hands ever moved without purpose.

"Tell me, Rowan," he had asked, voice soft, almost amused, "do you know why men follow kings?"

I had hesitated, uncertain. Because they must? Because the king commands them? Because that is how the world works?

But even then, I had understood that my father rarely asked questions to hear simple answers. So I did what any good daughter of Petyr Baelish would do.

I smiled and said, "Because they choose to."

He had leaned back, his expression unreadable. Then, after a long pause, he had nodded. "Smart girl."

I had known then that I had pleased him.

But what I did not know—what I could not know—was how much that lesson would shape me.

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Court life was a performance, and I was a fast learner.

At first, I was merely the little shadow at my father’s side. A girl with clever eyes and a too-sweet smile, always listening, always watching.

The lords dismissed me. The ladies pitied me. But Myrcella Baratheon found me interesting.

It was not a friendship in the way of stories— no promises of forever—but I was her lady-in-waiting, and she was the closest thing to a true friend I could afford.

She looked up to me, I think. She liked how I carried myself, how I never shrank away.

I exist in the spaces between. A girl who listens more than she speaks, who watches more than she acts. I am careful. Cautious. A shadow in silk.

And yet, I am not invisible.

She calls me her dearest friend, her wisest lady-in-waiting, though she is far too young to understand what wisdom truly costs. She clings to my arm and tells me her dreams, her hopes, her childish fears. I listen. I nod. I smile when required.

“You’re not afraid of anything,” she once told me.

And I smiled, because I had already learned that fear was not something you showed. It was something you used.

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Joffrey liked me too, in his own way.

Or perhaps he just liked that I was never foolish enough to cower before him. I knew how to speak to him. Knew when to flatter, when to feign laughter, when to let him think he had won.

He once asked me if I was loyal to him.

“Of course, Your Grace.”

It was the only answer he wanted.

But later, when I was alone, I thought of my father and all the times I had asked myself the same question.

Was I loyal?

To whom?

my father?

To myself, I decided. That would have to be enough.

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People think power is won in battle, in blood, in steel.

But I knew better.

Power was a whisper in the right ear. A secret traded at the right time. A name spoken in the right room.

It was knowing when to smile and when to strike.

And I was my father’s daughter, after all.

Even if I was trying, so desperately, not to be.

—End of Chapter One—

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers ✨🌸

So, here it is—chapter one of Life and Lies of Lady Rowan Baelish. Honestly, writing this introduction felt like stepping straight into the viper’s nest that is Westeros. Rowan’s childhood, her mother’s death, and her first real taste of court life—this chapter lays the groundwork for everything she’ll become.

I wanted it to feel real, not just as an origin story but as a reflection of how survival shapes people differently. Do you think it captures that? Does it need more? Less? Let me know your thoughts—I’d love to hear what you all think.

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Comment, ask questions, or just scream about the chaos to come. I’m here for all of it lol.

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The Strongest Man and His War with Sleep :

Sleep is a mercy he cannot afford.

Gojo Satoru has never been good at resting.

It’s not just about the nightmares—the ones that creep in like thieves, whispering names of the dead in his ears. It’s not just about the fear—that if he lets go, if he closes his eyes for too long, the world will crumble without him watching.

No, it’s deeper than that.

Sleep is vulnerability. And vulnerability is something the strongest man alive is not allowed.

So he doesn’t sleep. Not properly. Not often.

Instead, he runs himself ragged, burns his energy down to the wick, pretends exhaustion is something that only happens to other people. He hides behind laughter, behind endless motion, behind the overwhelming force of his own presence.

Because to stop—to be still—means to listen to his own thoughts.

And there is nothing more terrifying than that.

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You notice it, of course.

The way he’s always moving, always talking, always shifting from one thing to the next like silence might swallow him whole. The way he rubs at his temples when he thinks no one is looking. The way he leans against doorframes just a little too long, like standing upright is a battle he’s barely winning.

"You don’t sleep, do you?" you ask one night, watching him sprawl out on your couch like he owns it.

He grins, too wide, too easy. "Who needs sleep when you’ve got these?" He gestures vaguely at his eyes, like the sheer force of his existence makes him immune to basic human needs.

You roll your eyes. "That’s not how bodies work, Satoru."

He shrugs, lazy, dramatic. "Maybe yours."

You don’t press the issue. Not yet.

But you see the way his hands still for a fraction of a second. The way his smile flickers, just briefly, like a neon sign struggling to stay lit.

And you know.

You know that beneath all that brightness, beneath the godlike arrogance and the infuriating charm, there is a man running on borrowed time.

A man who is tired.

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When Gojo does sleep, it’s not gentle.

It’s not peaceful, like in movies, where lovers rest entangled in soft sheets and morning light. It’s not slow and dreamy, where sleep comes like a lover’s touch, warm and welcome.

No.

When Gojo Satoru sleeps, it’s like something in him collapses.

Like a puppet with cut strings. Like a body giving out after carrying too much for too long.

It doesn’t happen often—not really. But when it does, it’s as if his body is making up for years of neglect in one go. He sleeps like the dead.

No amount of shaking, nudging, or even yelling will wake him. You’ve tried. Once, you even held a mirror under his nose to make sure he was still breathing.

(He was. But it was unnerving, seeing him so still.)

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"You should go to bed," you tell him one night, watching as he leans against the counter, eyes half-lidded.

He smirks. "What, you worried about me?"

You don’t bother answering. Instead, you grab his wrist, tugging him toward the bedroom.

"I don’t need—"

"Shut up, Satoru."

Surprisingly, he does.

He lets you drag him, lets you push him onto the bed, lets you pull the covers over him like he’s something fragile, something worth protecting.

And when you card your fingers through his hair—slow, soothing, like a lullaby made of touch—he doesn’t protest.

His breath evens out. His body melts against the mattress. And before you can even make a joke about it, he’s gone.

Fast asleep.

Completely, utterly, unmovable.

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Gojo Satoru, the strongest man alive, is impossible to wake up.

You learn this the hard way.

You try shaking him—nothing.

You try calling his name—still nothing.

You even flick his forehead, the way he does to others—but he doesn’t so much as twitch.

It’s honestly a little terrifying.

It’s like he trusts you enough to completely let go.

Like, in this moment, in this space, he believes—just for a little while—that he is safe.

And that realization sits heavy in your chest.

Because Gojo Satoru is not a man who allows himself to feel safe.

Not with the weight of the world on his shoulders.

Not with the ghosts of the past clawing at his heels.

Not with the knowledge that the moment he closes his eyes, something else might be taken from him.

But here, now, with you—he sleeps.

And that means something.

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In the morning, when he finally stirs, stretching like a cat in the sun, he blinks at you blearily.

"You let me sleep," he murmurs, voice thick with something you don’t quite recognize.

You hum, tracing lazy patterns on his wrist. "You needed it."

A pause.

Then, a quiet chuckle. "You didn’t try to wake me, did you?"

You don’t answer.

Because if you admit how hard you tried—how impossible it was—you might have to admit what that means.

Might have to admit that Gojo Satoru, for all his power, is still just a person.

A person who gets tired.

A person who needs rest.

A person who, in the end, just wants to lay down his burdens—if only for a little while.

And somehow, impossibly, he’s chosen to do that with you.

So instead, you smirk, flicking his forehead in revenge.

"Don’t get used to it, Satoru."

His laughter is bright, easy, filling the room like morning light.

But when he pulls you close again, burying his face in your shoulder, you think—maybe, just maybe—he already has.

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The Taste of Memory :

Sukuna does not eat because he needs to.

Not in the way humans do.

His existence is beyond such trivial things. He is a curse. A god, a monster, a thing carved out of legend and blood. His existence is not bound by mortal needs. He does not hunger the way humans hunger.

He has long surpassed the fragile demands of a mortal body.

And yet—

He still eats.

Not out of necessity, not even out of hunger, but out of something older. Something deeper.

Because the body remembers what the mind does not.

And though he may have forgotten what it is to be human, his tongue has not.

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The first time you notice it, it almost seems insignificant.

A meal placed in front of him, a casual thing, something to pass the time. He looks at it, considers it, and then—

With an expression of pure disdain—

Pushes the plate toward you.

“Trash,” he says. “Eat it if you want.”

You blink. “You haven’t even tried it.”

“I don’t need to.” His mouth twists in something between disgust and condescension. “The smell alone tells me enough.”

You should have expected it. Should have known. Sukuna does not tolerate mediocrity, does not entertain anything that does not meet his impossible standards.

He holds himself above the world, and the world has never been worthy.

Still, you roll your eyes and take the plate.

It is not the first time.

It will not be the last.

---

He does this often.

Rejects food without hesitation, discarding anything that does not meet his unspoken, unreasonably high expectations.

Too bland. Too dry. Too greasy.

Too human.

It is not that he cannot eat. It is that he refuses to eat something unworthy of him.

He takes no pleasure in mediocrity.

He does not need to, does not have to, does not want to.

But then—

Sometimes, very rarely, something changes.

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It happens without fanfare.

A dish placed before him. The same routine, the same look of practiced indifference. He lifts his chopsticks, takes a bite, chews.

And then—

Nothing.

No complaint. No insult. No dramatic dismissal.

Just silence.

You glance at him, waiting, expecting the usual disapproval. But he keeps eating, slow, measured. And when he finishes, he sets his utensils down with the same detached carelessness as always.

“...Not bad,” he mutters, almost as if to himself.

And then, in a voice quieter, that is more grudging—

“Make it again.”

---

The second time, it is deliberate.

He does not shove the plate away. Does not scoff or sneer. He eats, and when he finishes, he leans back, watching you with something unreadable in his expression.

“Do you remember how you made this?” he asks.

There is something strange in his tone. Not interest, not curiosity—something else.

You nod.

He exhales through his nose, thoughtful, almost irritated at himself. “Good. Do it again.”

Not an order.

Not a demand.

A request.

Something he cannot take, only accept.

And that knowledge unsettles him more than anything else.

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Sukuna does not remember his last meal as a human.

That life is a blur, a ghost too distant to reach.

But his body remembers.

Remembers the feeling of warmth in his chest after something good. Remembers the weight of a meal that satisfies more than just hunger. Remembers the distant echo of something familiar, something lost.

It does not come often. But when it does—when a dish reminds him, however faintly, of something he cannot name—

He does not know what to do with it.

Does not know how to exist in a moment that is not about power, or blood, or war.

Does not know how to want something that is not destruction.

So he says nothing.

But the next day, he asks again.

“You’re making that thing.”

And you do.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers ✨🌸

Another Sukuna piece for you all—this one feels like tasting something from your childhood. You know, that one dish you used to eat all the time, only to have it again years later and realize it doesn’t just taste like food—it tastes like a memory. Like a time, a place, a feeling you can’t quite name.

Except here, it’s Sukuna, and nothing is ever that simple. It’s not just nostalgia—it’s something buried, something almost forgotten, something he probably doesn’t want to remember but does anyway. And of course, because he’s him, it’s a whole lot more complicated (and God-King-like) than just reminiscing.

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Anyway, let me know what you think! I’d love to hear your thoughts on this one. Feel free to comment or send me ideas—you know I love them.

✨ Bye and take care, hope you all have a good day ✨

The Brightest Lie :

Everyone said Gojo Satoru was the strongest.

They said it like a blessing, like a curse, like a song.

Satoru knew the words by heart. Had known them before he even knew himself.

He thought — if he had a grave someday — they would carve that phrase into the stone before they ever remembered his name.

The Strongest.

The Brightest.

The Untouchable.

(And if he shattered under it — well, that wasn’t anyone's business.)

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It was winter when he met her.

Snow clung to the stone sidewalks like stubborn ghosts.

He had slipped out of the school that night with nothing but his jacket and a vague, gnawing ache he couldn’t name.

Tokyo was a graveyard at midnight.

Only vending machines and stray cats witnessed him.

He found her by accident — in the empty park near the bridge.

She was sitting on a bench with a cane resting against her knee, her head tilted up like she was listening for something beyond human ears.

For a moment, he thought she was a ghost.

Tokyo was full of them, after all.

But then she smiled — small, real — and he realized she was just... living.

“Cold night,” she said, voice soft.

He blinked behind his glasses. “Yeah.”

She didn’t flinch at his voice. Didn’t bow, didn’t whisper, didn’t freeze.

Just turned her face toward him with a polite kind of curiosity.

“You lost?” she asked.

Satoru laughed under his breath.

Lost.

If only it was that simple.

“Nah. Just walking,” he said, slipping his hands into his pockets.

She hummed, brushing snow off the bench beside her.

An invitation.

For reasons he couldn’t explain — not even to himself — he sat down.

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Minutes passed.

The snow kept falling in slow, weightless drifts.

He kept waiting for her to ask.

For the inevitable flicker of realization.

For the fear, the reverence, the edge.

It didn’t come.

Instead, she asked, “You have a name?”

He hesitated. Then said, “Satoru.”

She nodded like it meant nothing and everything.

“Nice to meet you, Satoru. I’m Aki.”

(He realized, distantly, she was blind.)

The idea bloomed in his chest like a strange, painful flower:

She doesn’t know.

She didn’t see the white hair that marked him like a warning.

She didn’t see the height, the swagger, the way space bent politely away from him.

She didn’t see the "Strongest Sorcerer" at all.

Just a man with cold hands and tired shoulders.

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"You always walk alone?" she asked after a while.

"Yeah," he said, shrugging. "Better that way."

She tilted her head, thoughtful.

"You sound lonely."

He almost laughed.

Almost told her about centuries of history tying themselves into nooses around his throat.

Almost told her about dying friends and dying enemies and the way his students looked at him sometimes — like he was a god and a monster and a brother and a curse, all in the same breath.

Instead, he said, "Maybe."

Aki smiled a little. "Lonely isn’t always bad. Means you’re still waiting for someone."

"Maybe," he said again, softer.

---

They sat like that until the streetlights buzzed and flickered.

Until the sky turned a bruised, electric purple.

Until Satoru forgot for one brief, staggering moment that he was supposed to be anything other than human.

When he finally stood to leave, she smiled up at him — clear and unburdened.

"Thanks for keeping me company, Satoru," she said.

He wanted to say something back.

Something stupid and raw and real,

like no one’s thanked me in years or stay blind a little longer, please.

Instead, he just shoved his hands deeper into his pockets and said, "Yeah. You too."

Then he walked away, leaving only footprints behind him.

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Later, standing at the top of the bridge, he looked back once.

She was still sitting there — small and bright and terribly, terribly human.

And Gojo Satoru — The Strongest — felt something splinter in his chest.

Something old.

Something breakable.

He pressed a hand against his heart like he could hold it still.

Like he could hold himself still.

You’re not meant to want things, a cruel voice inside him said.

You’re not meant to need.

But under the falling snow, for just a moment, he let himself wonder:

If someone could love him — not the title, not the strength, not the salvation he was supposed to be —

just him—

would he even recognize it?

Would he be able to stay?

Or would he run, the way he'd always run — bright and blinding and lonely —

until even the stars forgot how to find him?

-----

The city swallowed him up.

The night closed behind him like a door.

And Gojo Satoru — myth, weapon, miracle —

kept walking.

Kept pretending.

Kept being the brightest lie the world had ever told.

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He Still Drinks Tea Like She’s Watching :

Levi drinks his tea like Kuchel is watching.

Like someone, somewhere, will be disappointed if he rushes it. If he forgets to do it right. The first time you notice it, you think it’s just another one of his quirks—like the way he folds his cravat with military precision or the way he flicks his wrist when cleaning blood off his blade, like it’s not even worth a second thought.

But then you realize it’s something else entirely. A ritual. A quiet, fragile thing, stubbornly existing in a world that never stops breaking.

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You don’t ask him about it. Not at first. You just watch.

He boils the water himself. Even though there are lower-ranked soldiers who could do it, even though he has more important things to do. He lets it sit for exactly the right amount of time before pouring, never a second more, never a second less. And when he drinks it, it’s with the kind of patience he never seems to have for anything else. Like it’s the only thing keeping him tethered to the present moment.

It isn’t until months later, when you find yourself in his quarters during another sleepless night, that you finally ask.

“Do you actually like tea, or is this just another one of your obsessive habits?”

He doesn’t look up from his cup. Just takes a slow sip, the steam curling against his face like something alive. “Tch. What kind of stupid question is that?”

You shrug. “You treat it like a religion.”

A beat of silence. He sets the cup down carefully, like it’s something breakable. When he finally speaks, his voice is quieter than you expect. “It’s not about the tea.”

You should have known that already. With Levi, nothing is ever about what it seems.

You don’t press him, but after that, you start drinking tea with him. Sometimes you talk. Sometimes you don’t. But there’s a kind of understanding in the silence, in the way the both of you sit there, letting the world exist around you without demanding anything in return.

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One night, after a long mission that left more bodies than survivors, you’re sitting across from him when he finally says it.

“My mother used to drink tea.”

You almost miss it. The words are quiet, as if they might disintegrate if he speaks them too loudly. You wait, letting him decide if he wants to continue. He does.

“She never had much, but she’d always make time for it. Said it made her feel… I don’t know. Like a person.”

You think of the stories you’ve heard. The brothels, the underground, the kind of life that doesn’t allow softness. And yet, she had this. A small rebellion against the world, steeped in hot water and patience.

Levi exhales sharply, like he hates that he’s saying any of this. “It’s stupid.”

“It’s not,” you say immediately, because it isn’t. And he must know that, somewhere deep down, or he wouldn’t be holding onto it so tightly.

He doesn’t say anything, but he pours you another cup. You take it, letting the warmth seep into your fingers.

In the months that follow, you start noticing it more. The way Levi treats the ritual with the same respect he gives to his blades. The way his hands are always steady, no matter how many deaths he’s carried that day.

The way he closes his eyes after the first sip, like he’s remembering something he refuses to forget.

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One night, when the weight of existence feels unbearable, you find yourself saying, “Tell me about her.”

Levi doesn’t look at you, but something in his posture shifts. “She was too good for this world.”

You nod.

Wait.

“She had this way of looking at people. Like she already knew how much they were going to hurt her, but she still wanted to see the best in them.” A humorless chuckle. “Fucking Foolish.”

“Sounds familiar.”

He shoots you a look, but you just sip your tea, unbothered. He doesn’t argue.

There’s a long pause, and then, softer,“ She deserved more."

You wonder if he means himself, if he thinks he wasn’t enough. You wonder how long he’s been carrying that with him, how many times he’s tried to outrun the ghost of a woman who gave him everything and got nothing in return.

You set your cup down, leaning forward slightly. “She’d be proud of you, you know.”

He tenses. Like he wants to reject the thought outright. Like he can’t allow himself to believe it. But he doesn’t tell you you’re wrong.

The tea cools between you, but neither of you move. The world outside keeps turning, keeps bleeding, keeps taking. But in this moment, at least, Levi lets himself exist in the quiet. Lets himself have this.

Like Kuchel is watching.

Like she never really left.

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Greetings, Dreamers and Readers 🌸✨

I’ve always found comfort in the smallest things, much like Levi does with his tea. For me, it’s the little tokens from my mother. I still use her hair clutch sometimes—it's not just an accessory, it’s a way to feel close to her again. I also keep her old metal pocket makeup mirror, not just because it’s practical, but because when I look into it, I see her, looking back at me through the reflection. It’s almost as if she’s still here, in the way I inherited my face from her, in the way her eyes shine through mine.

I think that’s the beauty of Levi’s ritual. It's not just about the tea, it’s about finding a way to keep the ones we’ve lost alive within us, through the smallest, most personal acts. I hope you feel that same quiet comfort in reading this, like you can find a moment of peace amidst the chaos, even if just for a little while.

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If any of you have had experiences with loved ones who’ve passed, I’d love for this space to be a safe haven. Sometimes it’s hard to speak the words aloud, but here, you can share them without judgment. Let’s make the comments a place where we can remember, heal, and connect. You’re never alone in this.

✨ Bye and take care, Hope you all have a good day ✨