Laaajlaaa - Unbetitelt

This happens way to often, but no one sees it, no one notices, no one cares.

Do I ever cross your mind?

Do you ever have those moments when you just stand somewhere and bawl your eyes out in the most horrifying way for like a minute and then suck it all up and pretend everything is good for the next hour?

I never really understood why kissing was such a big deal. But then you kissed me. And oh boy, I never wanted to stop. Feeling the sparks through my entire body, that feeling was surreal. I could do that for days and days on end. You tasted so good, kissing you was one of the most addictive things I’ve ever done. But now you aren’t here to kiss me. You’ve got me wishing that we’d never kissed.

What if nobody makes my heart flutter the way you did?

I know he’s not good for me but I can’t decide if walking away will hurt more than staying one more night.

-A.d.c

“The fact that you don’t love me, doesn’t really hurt me. I will love you, even if it’s unrequited. What hurts me is that you would choose her. That you had the capacity to love someone, and instead of giving it to someone that loved you fully, you gave it to someone who doesn’t care. It doesn’t hurt that you don’t love me, It hurts that you love her.”

— things I’ve always wanted to tell you #7

it’s over, isn’t it?

i always knew how it would end

from the beginning i feared this moment

yet, i didn’t think it’d come so soon. 

now my eyes are black, full of hate

but that hate is for me, not you.

i still love you

i may always love you

there is no world

where what i put you through

is ok

i would never lie to you 

ever but the truth is painful sometimes

even when the last thing we want

is to hurt the people we love the most.

m-11-27-20