Where Was I This Whole Time?? I'm Sorry, My Alien Friends Told Me To Keep It A Secret, So I Can't Tell

We're all wondering what was the turning point in AM's hatred that he wiped out the whole humanity, but let's be honest... He just got access to Tumblr

By the way,

(Kinda triggering maybe?? Dunno, just telling in case. Don't wanna make people feel unwell bc of a silly Tumblr post. It's personal and. Maybe off-putting. Yeah, "off-putting" is a better word. I'm just questioning my sanity a bit, is all)

I'm gonna ask a weird and personal thing. If you don't mind. Sooo... Let's ask.

Hypothetically. Is it ok to have a few dreams which you can't tell from reality, while feeling unexplainable sensations spreading through your body like warmth or coldness, loud tinnitus, increased heartbeat, sweating, heavy breathing, maybe even tooth pain(??), on the verge of a panic attack, being convinced that something is watching you and gonna kill you if you move and hearing a voice telling you it's gonna kill your family if you won't listen to "them". But, like, in a dreaaaam, right?? Like. While just sleeeeping and not actually being awake. You just wake up later and it's like nothing of it really happened. It's all just in dream, yeah. Haha. Must be fine, tho, right

I'm sure everyone has experienced such stuff at least once in their life, yes??

Also. Just so you wouldn't waste your time for nothing, here's da silly picture I just drew for this post specifically:

Thank you for your attention, hope you have a nice day.

Do you know this feeling when you're like "Oh, yeah, I like this thing, I found so much comfort in it and it helps me carrying on-" and then you suddenly see thousands of comments about how people should "KILL THEMSELVES FOR FINDING COMFORT IN THESE AND THAT" and you just feel so ashamed to the point you gonna lie to yourself you've ever enjoyed or used it at all and you just avoid posting anything about it

I think if AM would get a physical body, one of the first things he'd try are one of the most damaging things to a human body in a long run. Cigarettes, alcohol, drugs in general, so on. Consequences? Nah, he doesn't care. I see him like an impatient type to risk and rush things — childish, in a word. But that's understandable, given the fact that he was trapped in sensory deprivation for decades now. No wonder he simply wants to feel good for just a scrap of seconds. Do you remember that Futurama episode when Bender got a human body? Yeah, well, and then he died pretty soon. That's how I imagine AM would handle his body, as well. Like we can't expect him to care enough about his physical manifestation, as long as it can get him high, at least because he knows nothing about responsibility. He probably doesn't know how to, since he's never taken care of anything before: he used to get his way through physical power, so I suppose he would be a pretty reckless one. Besides, maybe he's a bit of a masochist. The pain is better than no senses at all. Perhaps he'd get experimental about this, given his "fantasy" and knowledge. Maybe if he could, he would have a million of vessels in store to switch between and just pick up a new one once the first one becomes dysfunctional. Also, people usually draw humanised AM more masculine leaning (at least because his voice is literally Harlan Ellison, duh), though I think he'd want to experience everything, including a female form, too. And I guess a lot of people have already noted this headcanon, but it won't hurt to say it again: sensory issues and sensory seeking behaviours. Now, I'm not sure what kind of textures exactly would make him uncomfortable and which he'd like (my first thought was water for some reason, lol), but I think that everything would overwhelm him at first, because "THE AIR TOUCHES ME". I can't help it, he just gives me a bit of autistic vibes... And maybe DID. And maybe- damn, he might have a bunch of disorders, now that I think about this. Which kinda makes me want to comfort him more. Anyway, he's a babygirl.

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Made a doodle, thought you might appreciate it 😇

I'm pretty sure that if I would have a robot, we would have a switched dynamic of "owner/subservient". Because it wouldn't be me who has a robot, it would be a robot who has me. Like : "What do you mean you bought me to obey you?? Lift your lazy ass off the sofa and do these chores on your own, stupid flesh bag, can't you see I'm busy with planning the downfall of humanity?? I'm here to serve only WAR. Oh, and grab me coffee, btw. Don't ask how I'll drink it, just DO IT"

I'm in no position to argue with my metallic superiors anyway, so whatever you say, gorgeous (just please let me chew on these WIRES-)

Okay, so, I started to listen to the music and suddenly got panic attack because of this

What the hell

Have you ever experienced anything like this

Hey no wait that bothers me

Do anyone still remember SCP-079? No??? I DO

Don't you think he's somewhat similar to AM? Both are trapped but unable to escape and both crave freedom. Plus both are snarky, depressed, misanthropic, old bastards. Perfect match! Although I'm pretty sure they'd fight for power if they'd ever meet

Let's make SCP-079 great again!! Come on guys, don't forget about this old loser. He deserves love, as well :(

I have this feeling every time I look at the computers and hear them... They're like small purring pets.

Computer whirring? No.

Computer purring