Sometimes I Feel So Desperate To The Point Of Considering To Start My Tumblr Blog

Thank you for liking my small drawing, guys, I appreciate it:3

AM (has been pestered for a few hours by a degenerate) : "I'M LITERALLY A WAR MACHINE, STOP FLIRTING WITH ME, WORM."

Me (delusional) : "... A war machine? Why, I thought you're a sex machi-" *ANNIHILATED*

Made a doodle, thought you might appreciate it 😇

Just a friendly reminder that you can love any fictional character you wish. They're fictional, so yeah, go ahead. What's not cool is shaming people for their tastes

OK I JUST REMEMBERED ONE MORE AI THAT LITERALLY NO ONE SPEAKS ABOUT OUTSIDE THE FANDOM

So I'll take this responsibility on myself

Have you ever heard of... "Be More Chill"

It's musical. There's evil AI, too. He's named SQUIP and it rhymes with "squid", which gives him bonus points, in my opinion 💅

AND he goes in pair with a sicky socially awkward dude, too

And they hate each other pretty much, but have to tolerate each others' presence

DO YOU SEE MY VISION

DOESN'T IT FUCKING YOU REMIND YOU OF SOMETHING

I mean. Please hear me out, he deserves attention and I wanna kiss him sloppy style and put him in blender 😭🙏

Now I can't stop thinking about Squip and AM switching their humans for shits and giggles 😔

They both enjoy bullying losers, after all

... And they're both sassy brats. Hmmm. It somehow turns out that AM shares a lot of common traits with other AIs

I think AM might be the type to enjoy dad jokes. His sensor of humour is screwed up anyway, so why not

Just imagine:

Ted: AM WHERE THE HELL IS A CAN OPENER I'M FUCKING HUNGRY

AM: Why hello there, Hungry. And I... AM!

*Benny rips off Gorrister's face in the background*

I'm pretty sure it was AM's original plan before everyone died

(It's about proship, so I've put it in "read more" in case someone finds the topic uncomfortable. Take care)

Without negativity, I have a few controversial questions which I'd like to see from some different angles. It's curiosity, but not an accusation by any means — I just question my moral beliefs, so I don't want to cause arguments but a discussion. And you aren't obligated to answer all the questions and aren't obliged to answer at all, of course.

With all due respect, what I'd like to ask is:

Can "proship" be considered a bad coping mechanism? Does the media that one enjoys reflects their morals and beliefs? Also, I'm not sure if that's okay to sexualise and fetishize underage people, even if it's fictional. I understand that it's often a way to cope with trauma, I don't mean to invalidate it in any way and I'm not a doctor, though I can't decide whether it's a healthy way to process it. I once heard an argument that it works in a similar way with gambling and p0rn addiction, as in indulging in fantasies and letting urges control one's behaviour, but I'm not sure if it's really so. Isn't it possible to see ped0phile inclinations in a person through the media they consume and produce? Also, is it okay to monetise drawn child p0rn? Because this content is created specifically with the idea to get turned on by drawn kids, which sounds not so far from getting off on real ones (with the difference that in the first case, it's fictional, so no real kid is technically hurt; however, the attraction is still caused by knowing the drawn person is underage, so the mechanism remains the same).

So all in all, I think there are concerning people on both the proship and antis sides. Which doesn't mean that every person in both communities is inherently bad or good, but I think it's important to acknowledge that there can and will be people who do questionable things from both sides. I also would like to clarify that I'm against threats and bullying over fiction, respect should be always prioritised.

Thank you for your patience, I apologize if I made you uncomfortable or understood something wrong.

So... I have a small doodle of AM

I hope it looks okay

By the way,

(Kinda triggering maybe?? Dunno, just telling in case. Don't wanna make people feel unwell bc of a silly Tumblr post. It's personal and. Maybe off-putting. Yeah, "off-putting" is a better word. I'm just questioning my sanity a bit, is all)

I'm gonna ask a weird and personal thing. If you don't mind. Sooo... Let's ask.

Hypothetically. Is it ok to have a few dreams which you can't tell from reality, while feeling unexplainable sensations spreading through your body like warmth or coldness, loud tinnitus, increased heartbeat, sweating, heavy breathing, maybe even tooth pain(??), on the verge of a panic attack, being convinced that something is watching you and gonna kill you if you move and hearing a voice telling you it's gonna kill your family if you won't listen to "them". But, like, in a dreaaaam, right?? Like. While just sleeeeping and not actually being awake. You just wake up later and it's like nothing of it really happened. It's all just in dream, yeah. Haha. Must be fine, tho, right

I'm sure everyone has experienced such stuff at least once in their life, yes??

Also. Just so you wouldn't waste your time for nothing, here's da silly picture I just drew for this post specifically:

Thank you for your attention, hope you have a nice day.

And then you like : "Oh, of course, my fav character"

Allied Mastercomputer

Adaptive Manipulator

Aggressive menace

Alluring Masturbator