Writing For Your Deities Is Such A Liberation. It's A Way To Pour Out Your Feelings, To Write Them Down

Reminder to drink and eat something today! No matter how busy you are, no matter what has happened today or yesterday, you deserve to feed and energise your body. So please take out at least five minutes of your time, put everything away, or even watch a mukbang video so you're not eating alone and have a refreshing drink and meal. Love you!

"She was playing in a roaring river. She had chosen to stay, she believed it was the right choice. But it didn't make this any easier."

just remembered that in my dr i can see without glasses

okay but saying "i wish i had known you sooner" — like the love in my heart is growing so big and fast for you that i wish i had the opportunity to have you way earlier by my side, because i want to love you longer than i can do now. my love for you reaches my past and makes a place for you.

So I have an update for all of you who have followed me or who have just found me now.

I've known about shifting for five to four years, give or take. I've been trying to shift on and off, and only this year have been more determined to do it.

But also, during those years, I've had trouble with my own religious beliefs and continuously switched from one religion to another. But at the start of this year, I started to get interested in Catholicism, but if we're being more honest, I was just more interested in having a relationship with God.

When I was ten, I went to a baptist church, but the pastor didn't like me because I asked questions, but I always found the church calming. Then I told God to prove to me he was real and told him I would then believe in him. He did prove that to me, but even then, I didn't believe in him. Then, six years later, the start of this year, I found him. I found him and was more determined to shift realities than the previous years.

Yesterday night, I was desperate, so I prayed to God, saying that if shifting realities is for me, then let me shift to my 100 desired reality so I can be with John, my John. If shifting realities isn't for me, let me wake up here. I was determined to shift realities, but I woke up here.

I was upset, mourning, defeated, and a bit angry. I had a thought to fight against God and shift anyway, but I didn't. I decided not to.

Because I love Jesus, Jesus is beautiful, loving, pretty, and is the most calming thing I've found in my life. Despite my deep love for John Murphy, despite my care for him. Despite how eager I am to talk to him, get to know him, cheer him up, love him... God and Jesus are worth more to me.

I think John will understand that, even if he's not happy with it. So I'm not trying to shift again. My shifting journey is over, and I'm okay with that.

I do hope one day, I'll shift and see my beloved John. But for now, I won't and I'm okay with that. I really am.

I've developed peace with my past, my physical/emotional/neglectful/sexual trauma. I'm okay with my past and who i am. I just wanted to be loved romantically. That's all I wanted from shifting. But I'll get it someday and despite the long road I think I'll be okay.

Can we bring back love poems and love letters, please? What's wrong with that? I feel like people should bring in that effort to write a poem or a love letter to people who they like, whether it's a platonic, familiar, or romantic like or even one to yourself! If that makes me a hopeless romantic, then so be it, I'm PROUD of it! It doesn't matter how simple or if it seems stupid to you. They will appreciate the effort regardless.

OH MY GOSH THESE TWO COMMENTS ARE THE REALEST EVER 😭

"Nightmares are our inner demons, our monsters reminding us of our deepest fears. Always trying to find a way into our weaknesses."

I think we can overcomplicate offerings for deities, like each and every offering that is for a deity should ALWAYS be respectful. There's no 'if/buts/maybes' on that.

But some offerings can be simple like saying thank you outloud or in your head after eating your meals to Demeter, Artemis, or any other deity that are similar to that in your religion. Saying that your skincare, makeup, and brushing your hair is dedicated to Aphrodite or Hekate, for example. Saying good morning to Apollo in the morning when you open up your curtains and doors, meditating out in the sun for Apollo and Lucifer. Doing something risky and playful in honour of Loki and Hermes. Having a glass of water by yourself or washing your hands in honour of Poseidon. Learning how to defend yourself for Ares and Odin, paying your respect to the dead for Hades, and Anubis. Those are all examples of offerings, devotion or doing something in their name that you can do if you currently don't have any offerings for them at the moment, or if your sick and don't have the energy for offerings, or if you can't do any offerings because of unsupportive family, ect.