Sunflowers- They Always Face Towards The Sun. That’s How I Want To Be Like.

TW: Bl00d, kn!fe, implications of d3@th and su!c!de

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Inktober for yesterday; you have no idea how long it took me to do that hand 💀 also, there’s a large possibility that the image quality is gonna drop when I post this T^T

ACROPHOBIA.

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This took me forever my goshhh- it’s all just different shades of dark blue and I was doing it on this completely white document in notability like an idiot and my poor eyes were straining so hard to see which color was which 💀

Have some doodle

Still testing out the new art app lol

I have lost all faith in this country :/

To anyone who’s feeling scared right now about the results of the 2024 election, you’re not alone <3

If anyone needs/wants to talk about it my DMs are open (I think-)

If anyone here voted for him, fvck right off. You’re directly supporting someone who’s trying to take away my rights and the rights of my friends and family. I don’t respect you.

B!tch I thought the kid was saying he was gay and therefore bad at math 💀

Kelbrey

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Sooo I decided to take some of my traditional art and scan it and trace it in noteability, and here’s part of the drawing! I’ll do the second part for tomorrow, which is sunflower :D

(Also yes I know I fvcked up Kel’s color pallet but I only noticed at the very end when I was wrapping up the drawing 💀)

If I end this day with less given boops than received, I’m gonna cry.

Reblog if your blog is boopable-safe so you can get all the (probably new) achievements. I don’t care about notes I just want boops

No idea why I did this but here’s a lil doodle :P

Ddlc Monika ramble bc my hyperfixation is coming back and somehow settling alongside my Omori one

Alright so like. I hate how many people treat Monika like she’s pure jealousy and obsession :/ especially given everything she’s gone through. I’d like to make a couple of points here, and analyze some of the lines from her poems (not all) to give more insight into what was going on in her mind. All the poem screenshotted are from FandomWiki, I believe.

The first part of this poem is a direct reference to when Monika gains ‘kernal access’ to her game- or more simply, self awareness. The hole appears a metaphor for a screen- She wasn’t looking into the screen, she was looking out. And the player is looking in. The second part realizing that her friends aren’t even real. She’s starting to see herself as something else than the others. And I don’t think it’s in a narcissistic way- In this case, she IS different now, because she doesn’t have a script that all her actions follow, unlike her friends. The people she cares deeply about aren’t even people; just lines in a script. The part at the end, about her brandishing her pen, is when she starts to edit the script, desperate for a way out.

I’d like to point out first that red, green, and blue are the primary colors when it comes to light- AND the colors of pixels on a screen. I can’t tell what the ‘noise’ she’s referring to exactly is; possibly a reference to anxiety, or existentialism? Most likely, in my opinion, is that it’s the game’s music. See how she compares the noise to a turntable, and a vinyl? That’s a direct connection to the music. And considering that the game’s music plays on loop… That wouldn’t exactly be fun to hear on loop for god knows how long 😬

The version of this poem from Act 2, I can’t see any meaning to the vowels missing, though perhaps someone else has. Generally, this poem just shows Monika’s mental health deteriorating further. Combined with the fully capitalized words, along with “Like playing a vinyl on a pizza crust” suddenly turning into “Like playing a KNIFE on a BREATHING RIBCAGE”- It really does mostly seem like we’re watching Monika go a bit insane. The words “KNIFE” and “BREATHING RIBCAGE” really exaggerate how much the noise really hurts her. (Also, personal comment is that this sounds a lot like overstimulation TvT)

This poem seems to be more metaphorical than the other two. ‘The Lady’ seems to refer to the game’s script- she’s a being who knows everything, knows Monika’s own thoughts and feelings, and she knows everything that can and will happen. Just like the game’s script. The imagery of Monika being a feather on the wind very much gives off the feeling of being helpless, unable to fight against the game’s script. The Lady tells her that there is no meaning, and no purpose- Likely how Monika really does feel. Nothing she does has any impact in the real world. The Lady telling Monika that “We seek only the impossible”- It’s directly telling us what it felt like when Monika learned she was the only character without a route for the player to take. There is no scripted world where Monika finds a happy ending with the player, the person she loves, the only thing she knows is real.

This last poem shows that she really doesn’t mean to hurt anyone. She doesn’t have any real malicious intent towards the other characters. She just wants to be happy.

Those are some thoughts I have on her poems. Something else I’d like to be considered is the fact that Monika knew everything her friends were going to say- including some of the harsher words her friends have used, or even thought about her. Along with the fact that her own friends were seemingly the only thing standing in the way of the player, and she’d just learned her friends weren’t even real.

Generally, I feel like people don’t empathize enough with Monika T^T this was a really long rant and idk what it accomplished but yeah-

YALL I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING.

ALL THE OMORI CHARACTERS SORT OF HAVE AN ASSIGNED COLOR RIGHT???

ALL THE SIBLING DUOS HAVE COMPLIMENTARY COLORS

HERO IS BLUE, KELL IS ORANGE

MARI IS PURPLE, SUNNY IS HEAVILY IMPLIED AS YELLOW

AUBREY IS PINK (close enough to red), BASIL IS GREEN

HOW DID I NOT NOTICE THIS BEFORE I NEED TO DRAW THIS OMG-