The Best Alarm For Waking Up At 6 Am Ever!!! I Will Finally Get To Listen To 1989 (Taylor’s Version)

Another day healing by listening to the lyrics in all of my favourite swift songs. Her voice and wide range truly do resonate with the life changing healing in my mind.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️

Today hoax and epiphany long pond session is on repeat 🎧

This is my absolute favourite ❤️

For every day that goes by, i find new lyrics that are so important, beautiful and amazing. Taylor is the absolute best lyricist and songwriter I’ve ever stumbled upon. This enormous treasure of art is my never ending supply of words to use to understand me and my feelings. Never found music that could heal me like this ever before. So thankful and grateful to her…….

Never be so kind

You Forget to be clever

Never be so clever

You forget to be nice

How I try healing and coping through @taylorswift ‘s music after loosing a child part 3

His birthday is the day after tomorrow and this year he would have turned 14. He managed to get through the night and the next day around 11 am the helicopter finally was cleared to fly. Immediately they got him in there and flew him to the other side of the country. We jumped in our car and started driving the 7 hours to be with him in Gothenburg. When we arrived at the hospital we got a room at the Ronald McDonald house. A house where family’s can live close to the hospital. We where told that if everything went well we probably would have to stay here for up to a year this first time around. From the house to the hospital room it was like 100 meters and it felt good to be able to be so close to him. We had ended up at queen Silvia children’s hospital at the heart specialist centre for kids. They explained to us that his body had some problems since his heart stoped the first time and that he needed a couple of days to recover before being strong enough for surgery. We spent all ours awake by his hospital bed. Helping caring for him, holding his hand, singing to him and writing a journal so that we could tell him when he got older what we all had been through. Everyday the staff noticed small improvements and his vitals steadily got better. We could see that he reacted to our voice and when the staff told us the machines showed he was stressed we sang the song we sang for him when he still was inside. This always helped and almost immediately his vitals got better and his heart rate improved. On day 7 he finally was so strong that we got to hold him skin to skin again. So scary to hold him with all tubes connected the every part of him. We sat there scared to move and it was an amazing feeling to finally being able to hold him again. Next there was a final X-ray planned to check that everything looked ok before the surgery.

To be continued……….

Writing this listening to Ronan by @taylorswift

This song has helped me so much and I can’t even understand how she manages to sing it without breaking down. It’s a incredible beautiful song that helps me out words to my grief. Thank you Taylor for this one❤️

The second i realised it was possible to preorder from sweden I placed my order. 🙏🏻 I’m so happy , have been dancing around my kitchen floor singing my favourite 1989 songs for hours🙌🏻 can’t wait for it to arrive late October. ❤️ @taylorswift I’m so proud of you for re-recording the stolen versions. So inspiring to see you fight back when they tried to take you for granted. Will support you and your clever businessdecisions for ever. Truly happy for you that you finally will own them all soon. 🥂

How I try healing and coping through @taylorswift ‘s music after loosing a child part 2

We lived really close to the hospital and we arrived there in under five minutes. It’s now around 9 am. The nurses behind the glass looked at us and just continued talking to each other. Finally they came out and asked us to follow them into a examination room. We got him out of his car seat and put him on the table. As soon as we laid him down he collapsed and the nurse picked him up and ran inte to another room. We run after and in the matter of seconds several doctors and nurses came running in the room working on him. We just stood there in the back of the room frozen by terror not knowing what’s happening. After a few seconds one of the doctors turnes around and says. Just so you know, he might not make it. Then we both fell into a pile on the floor not even being able to breathe.

In what seems like forever they managed to get him back and after getting the hold of all necessary equipment they tell us they are going to try to move him to the ICU.

Now they do a really thorough search of what’s causing this. And after several tests, ultrasounds and X-rays they find that he has a birth defect on his heart called hlhs. We find out that several of the hearts bloodvessels are to narrow and connected the wrong way. It Also means that the left chamber of his heart is severely underdeveloped. He also has a hole between to parts of the heart.

They inform us that to have a chance he needs to be transferred by helicopter to the other side of the country to a hospital were they specialises in children’s heart diseases and there he will need the first of many heart surgery’s immediately. That if every thing checks out he will have 95% chance of a long life just not like a professional athlete. It will be a struggle with many surgeries to fix the heart and then most likely a heart transplant in his 20,s. We’re also told that we most likely will have to live at the hospital the entire family for his first 8-10 months. So now all we have to do is to wait for the helicopter to arrive so that they can move him as soon as possible.

The hours went by and when we wouldn’t stop asking they finally tell us that their sorry but the helicopter hasn’t passed the i inspection and hasn’t been granted permission to fly. They continue testing several times but it just don’t pass the inspection.

Now even the doctors are getting really concerned and tell us that he really needs to be moved because they aren’t used to treat so small children with such a severe condition’s . Now they start to gather an expert team through videoconference with experts from the entire country. They decide he needs to be moved immediately to the closest specialist hospital if he is going to have a chance surviving the night.

I get to see them loading him in to an specialistambulance and then they put me in a taxi. We drove really fast for about 1 hour. The taxi stayed right behind the ambulance the entire time. We arrived at the next hospital around midnight. And now their experts were working every minute with him to get him to survive until the helicopter would be granted to fly.

To be continued

Love your smirk and the smile in your eyes,

I can see you and how hard you try.

This summer has been anything but cruel,

Your surprise song versions gave us so much fuel.

The Eras tour is the best thing, beyond my wildest dreams.

So amazing to feel alive again after watching all these live streams.

I’m definitely the lucky one to get to watch the sparks fly, don’t blame me for loving this so much I want to cry.

So grateful to live life (Taylor’s version) by heart, I know it’s not the end just the start.

You create a better place in this world all days. I will love you Taylor forever and always 💚💛💜❤️🩵🖤🩷🩶🤎💙

Happy birthday Vincent wherever you are 🌈🎈🎁🧸Today is our sons birthday. He would have turned 14 and i often wonder how he would have been, looked and sounded like. This time of year is extra tough and all the memories of what we went through back then comes alive again. The song Ronan by @taylorswift describes my feelings and thoughts so well and it helps me cry even when I feel I have no more tears left. I don’t even comprehend how she manages to sing it without breaking down. I’m so grateful to you for this song❤️today we light a lot of candles in his colourful glasbottles hanging in the apple tree we planted in his memory. #hlhs #angel #loosingachild #ronan #taylorswift

This amazing woman @taylorswift inspires me so much. She has the most amazing smile and she’s so incredibly funny. Even when she’s not trying to be. She can laugh like no one else and she is the most talented lyricist I’ve ever experienced . She also has the most beautiful hands and fingers I’ve ever seen. A true businesswoman that simultaneously has the biggest heart on the planet. Humble beyond recognition and a force in this industry. So beautiful from the inside and out and with eyes full of love for the right cause. She fights for those who need it and always remembers where she came from. She makes me feel things I didn’t think was possible through her music and her art. She’s an incredible writer, creator, producer and director and she continues to evolve and explore new things in ways few artist even can comprehend.

I totally love the wide range of your singing voice and I am mesmerised by the depth of your speaking voice.

Before I found your music I never really listened to the lyrics in a song. Nowadays I understand myself through them. Somehow almost all of your lyrics feels like they are about things that have happens to me. I’ve felt like that too.

I’m forever and always so thankful and grateful for what you do for so many people🥹❤️

I’m planning on getting a tattoo with the following parts of your lyric from Marjorie❤️.

It would be a dream if it also was in your handwriting and with your signature 🙏🏻This lyric as in memory of my little son who passed away only 12 days after he was born due to a severe heart condition.

“Never be so kind you forget to be clever

Never be so clever you forget to be kind

And if I didn’t now better I’d think you were talking to me now.

If I didn’t know better I’d think you were still around.

What died didn’t stay dead

You’re alive, you’re alive in my head”

T.S

I wish I could give something back to you for changing my life for the better.

I wish I could give you the freedom to live your life without those cynical clones with cellphones chasing your every step. I wish I could give you the possibility to love and date whoever or as may or few as you want without the public’s constant speculation. All I want for you is that you’ll have the opportunity to live, love and flourish as a woman without having to adapt yourself to everyone’s opinion.

Love you @taylorswift for everything 🙏🏻🥹🌟

Today I couldn’t wait any longer I had to listen to some Christmas music. Got so much energy and creativity going. In my dream @taylorswift will release som new Christmas songs this year 🙏🏻🌲