ᥫ᭡just Sit Back And Relaxᥫ᭡

Headed to a little movie premiere in Toronto. You know who else is in Toronto? Matthew Gray Gubler. You know whose birthday it is? Matthew Gray Gubler’s.

I am meeting the love of my life. I’m manifesting.

Update: Well… this is embarrassing.

you're making shifting hard

shifting is not hard. you're making it seem that way.

i used to struggle with this so much. like, i knew the law of assumption. i knew that shifting and manifesting were the same thing. i knew that reality is just my assumptions reflected back to me.

but for some reason, every time i tried to just decide i was in my DR, it felt... different.

i could easily say, "i have blue eyes," and it felt normal, even if my eyes were brown. but the second i tried to say, "i'm in my DR," my brain would go: "hmm... but are you really?" and suddenly, i'd be analyzing everything, waiting for proof, wondering if i was doing it right.

and that's where i messed up.

i was placing shifting on a pedestal

i thought shifting was bigger than other manifestations. i thought it was different. but the truth? there is no such thing as a "big" or "small" manifestation. that's literally just a label. it's an assumption.

if i assume it's "harder" to shift than to change my eye color, then guess what? that assumption becomes my reality. but if i assume they're both the same, just decisions, then shifting becomes just as easy as saying, "i have blue eyes."

checking for proof was my biggest block

the second i decided i was in my DR, i'd immediately start checking, even subconsciously.

do i feel different?

did something change?

am i there yet?

and by doing that, i was literally affirming that i wasn't there. because if i truly believed i was in my DR, why would i be checking?

like, when i wake up in the morning, i don't sit there and check if i'm still in my reality. i don't look around thinking, "is this my bed? is this my house?" i just assume it is. and because i assume it, that's what i experience.

that's exactly how shifting works.

deciding = reality

at some point, i realized i was overcomplicating everything. i was acting like shifting was some grand process, when in reality, it's literally just deciding. and once i decide, that's it. i don't need to do anything else.

when i say, "i have blue eyes," i don't sit there waiting for them to change. it just accept it as true.

when i say, "i am already in my DR," i should do the exact same thing. just accept it and move on.

no forcing. no waiting. no "trying." just knowing.

the secret? stop making it a big deal

shifting is not this rare, complicated thing.

it's not "bigger" than any other manifestation. it's not something you have to work toward. it's just a decision. and the only reason it feels different is because you assume it is.

so i stopped treating it like a big deal. i stopped looking for proof. i stopped acting like it was something separate from normal manifesting. and the moment i did that? everything clicked.

so if you're struggling...

stop checking if it's working.

stop waiting for proof and validation.

stop placing shifting on a pedestal.

just decide. accept. move on.

you're already there. that's it. no doubts, no second-guessing. just be.

dividers by: @cafekitsune

insomnia thoughts with Jello

part one

I have a habit of struggling to fall asleep, and with nothing but my thoughts to keep me company at 4am, let us all set sail on this treacherous sea that is the shit storm I call my mind.

It pertains to shifting so bear with me.

I love the movie Coraline, as I’ve mentioned before. And we all know it’s very shifting coded. But I was thinking about all the times Coraline would go to sleep in the other world and wake up back in her original world, except for the one time she let fear win.

After being asked to sew buttons in her eyes, she goes to bed needing to wake up back home. Despite knowing she has done so multiple times without even trying, the second she puts her all into it— the second she is desperate, she fails.

which brings me to this:

fear is not an assumption.

While you can be afraid and still manifest or shift, the second you start clinging to the results for dear life is the second you give up your power. Driven by fear, you put more belief into it than yourself. If you truly believe you are in control, then there should be no fear of unwanted results.

Oddly enough, it works the opposite way too. Being afraid of something happening will not guarantee its occurrence. For example, I randomly thought to myself “oh no, what if all my scripts get deleted?” which was followed by “oh no, since I thought it now it’s going to happen all because I assumed.”

But I didn’t assume.

It was a fear, not an assumption. It was an invasive thought, not an assumption. It was a jumpscare, not an assumption.

All this goes to say that when shifting and/or manifesting, we need to let the hell go. Don’t strain for control because that just reaffirms the lack thereof. Chill the eff out and trust yourself, trust your subconscious. They know what’s up.

Hopefully this all made sense.

It is now past 5am.

I am tired.

Jello💖

☆ ignore your CR ☆

A lot of people tend to struggle with that - including me. Eventually I came to the conclusion that the reason why it was so hard for me was because I was focusing on the act of ignoring. By focusing on ignoring my CR and the 3D i subconsciously put it in the center.

What helped me was focusing on my DR - in my case it was focusing on my memories, but you can focus on your senses or anything that works best for you. By focusing on my DR, my memories and my emotions the 3D automatically begins drifting away.

☆ Choose something to distract you from your CR and 3D and focus on that ☆

I am not a violent person…

but there is always at least one bitch imma be fighting in my dr. I will be throwing hands at least once. Every. Single. Time.

scrolling through pinterest online shopping for my dr

where is the stuff that i manifested?

why is my reality lagging? why am i, the divine, the ordained, the girl on the hill, not seeing the thing i have declared mine? i have sat in the temple of assumption. i have dined with the lords of the quantum realm. i have whispered my desires into the cosmos like a mistress to the moon. so where the fuck is it?

breathe. inhale. exhale. do not become a tragic greek figure, clawing at the sky, cursing the gods, wailing into the abyss. you are not sisyphus. you are not icarus. you are, in fact, the universe wearing a silly little meatsuit. and the universe is not incompetent.

but let’s get clinical. let’s get ruthless. let’s get biblical.

i , are you checking the 3d like a victorian wife checking the window for her husband’s ship? if you keep looking at the 3d for confirmation, you are living in the state of lack. and what does the 3d do? it mirrors. so if you live in the state of “where is it,” the 3d will say, “where is what” right back to you. congrats, you’ve manifested a waiting room. enjoy the grey chairs and outdated magazines.

ii , are you persisting or are you pouting? manifestation is not a negotiation. you do not get to sit across from the universe like a hostile business partner, arms crossed, demanding results before you believe. belief is the contract. assumption is the currency. you are either in the state of the wish fulfilled, or you are outside in the cold, shivering, looking through the window at your desire having a candlelit dinner without you.

iii , are you declaring or are you begging? the universe does not respond to “please, oh mighty forces, grant me this one thing.” the universe responds to, “this is mine because i said so.” you do not ask. you do not hope. you do not weep at the altar. you declare.

iv , are you actually embodying it? or are you just thinking about it in a cute way? imagining yourself as the version of you who has it is not a one-time aesthetic exercise. it is a full-body possession. the reality in which you have it is the real reality. this one, the one that says you don’t, is the illusion. the question is, which one do you choose to believe?

v , are you reacting to the 3d like it’s god? the 3d is old news. the 3d is a corpse. the 3d is a polaroid of a moment that has already passed. if you react to it, if you bow to it, if you let it dictate your inner world, you are breathing life back into the past instead of standing in the present, drenched in your fulfilled desire, dripping in inevitability.

vi , do you actually think it’s yours? or do you just want it? wanting is not having. wanting is the antithesis of having. wanting says, “this is separate from me.” having says, “it is done.” when you order food at a restaurant, you do not sit there worrying that it won’t come. you just know it’s on the way. so why are you treating your desire like a lost package instead of an assured delivery?

the 3d will fold. it will bend to your assumption like a devout disciple. but only if you hold the line. only if you refuse to be swayed by what is already dead. only if you walk like the god you are, not the peasant you fear you might be.

your desire is yours. it always was. the question is, will you finally start acting like it?

idea inspired by @scentedpeachlandcreator !!!!!! go check her out right neow .

no love life here because my love life at hogwarts is messy enough 🫠

would y’all care if I posted like— my hogwarts dr discography in its entirety but also song spotlights where I go into to lore behind the song and explain some of the lyrics and stuff?

I put so much thought into my discographies— not just for my hogwarts band dr but wherever I write songs, which is more often than not. So, yeah.

Lemme know because I think that would eat.

I also say all this while i’m actively editing the hogwarts band’s discography for the hundredth time— it will never feel complete

I got three moods when it comes to missing my s/o’s

1. My soul aches so bad I can feel it in my bones. We are meant to be together but I’m here and can’t figure out how to get out. I need them like I need oxygen in my lungs. I’m suffocating every moment I’m not with them.

2. Pancakes in the morning. Soft evenings doing nothing but lounging around the house. Cuddling on Christmas Eve by the fire place. Picking flowers in a field. God they’re so fucking pretty I love them so much.

3. I need my tongue down their throat’s IMMEDIATELY