I Went To The Doctors Today. They Told Me Something Was Wrong With Me But I Think They Are Just Afraid

i cant tell my older brother that ill be forever envious of his first baby because i was his first baby so ill suffer

“your my best friend, now i’ve got no one to tell i’ve lost my best friend.”

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ohhhh i get it now. the little seed of loneliness i’ve carried with me since i was five will never go away

do you ever sit there in your bed with your head in your hands and it's like you can just imagine 9 swords behind you

uneasy

The Handmaiden (2016)

I wish I knew forever would end so soon

I wish I never kissed you in my living room

You wonder how I'm doing, well, here's a clue

I wish I never met you

the need to be everything and nothing but more and more until all things are nothing and im just something that doesnt exist

no nevermind i love her she took off my glasses when i fell asleep on the couch and put another blanket on me

i need to hug my mother and cry into her neck because i miss the warm embrace of her womb and this bed is too cold for me; i just wish she held me. i just want her to care for me forever, no matter how bitter and painful loving me is

i'm terrified of the day i've grieved you longer than i've loved you