I'm So Terrified To Love Now That I'm Exactly Like The People Who Made Me Feel Worthless

Guys can you help I need some advice

So I kinda want to tell my mom that I sh so I can get recovery but I don't know how there's a few adults in my life I feel comfortable with telling before her and I don't know what to do

Do you notice my absence?

I ruin everything, I'm a failure, I'm annoying.

I wonder if someone would miss me if I vanished.

I’m not crazy. I was abused.

I can't do this omg

Vent post

So I have a friend I'm calling A and I always listen to her talk about the boy she dating or the boy she likes and no matter what I stop what I'm doing to listen to her but today I wanted to tell her me and this girl I like had are first phone call cause it made me really happy and as I'm about to say something she opens her book an says give me a second and I got mad at her for it cause why would you do that and ignored her.well a little bit ago she asked if I was still mad at her and I didn't respond she asked me if I heard about her breakup that happened today (which was her fault cause she flirted with another guy) and I mumbled yea and she starts talking about the breakup so I tell her I don't care and she says why so I tell her I'm not gonna listen to your problem that YOU started when you won't listen to one thing I was gonna tell me and then she says I'll play a game with you if you stop being mad a me like no I don't want to play a fucking game with you. And the most annoying part is she told my friend M that she didn't know why I was mad at her when I HAD JUST SAID IT I swear I'm so fucking done

good to know i dont deserve any compassion, i'll think about that the next time i cut

Love having only 2 friends 😍😍😍(everyone else left me and talked shit about me instantly)

God I hate that I'm lowkey so obsessed with my friend like if my friend doesn't message me I'm not happy but the second I get a text I jumping with joy I wish I wasn't so obsessed with my friend

I'm so replaceable