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i thought i was dead

i had a experience today where my body overheated i started to lose focus in my schoolwork my heart started beating so loud and fast and hurting like a mf and i thought “omg this is it this is how i die i am going to die in the middle of art class” then i decided to try to alert someone i tapped my friends thigh my breathing was shaky and loud and my face was red and tried to tell her “get the teacher somethings happening” all that came out was a scrambled mumbled sentence and i thought i was about to faint but she understand and the teacher got her to take me real quick and since she knew i was anorexic she got a proteing bar and made me eat that shit and the second i took a bite everything slowly started to calm down and i have honestly never been more terrified

dont take life for granted as someone with an ed it doesnt matter whether your bmi is high or low your heart can stop at any second

Bc I feel like I’m bothering my friends I come to tumblr

So like my friends ex asked me to hoco and I was like making it a big deal by texting all of them bc I didn’t know what to do bc I wanted to say no but it’s my personality that I like can’t bc I’m scared. So like I didn’t and I felt bad so I told my friend and I could tell she’s over me talking about it and like I haven’t really gotten it off my chest of why I feel bad. But this is the first time anyone has shown interest in me and I don’t think he even liked me like that because he said he wanted to ask someone else bc he actually liked them but he decided to ask me bc he wasn’t going to have a chance with them. And like it hurts bc all my friends have had people have crushes on them or date people and I never had. That’s part of the reason I got an Ed. And like it just hurts that I’ve annoyed my friend bc I can’t stop freaking out bc I didn’t know what to do bc I’ve never been in that situation and it fucking sucks that I’m his like 20th choice bc he dated my friend and made abc of the girls he liked and forgot to put me in it and then he only asked me bc the other wasn’t going to say yes. I just feel horrible. I don’t even wanna do this bc I feel like I’m bothering people on tumblr but no ones going to read this long message and I just wanna disappear bc it sucks and I’m sorry.

Edit- I keep checking my phone bc I feel like someone’s gonna tell me it’s ok but like I know it isn’t gonna happen and like I’m sorry. I just I can’t think of anything but I’m sorry.

I’ve been in “recovery”for maybe a week or two and I’ve lost a pound. I’m low key happy because even tho I’ve been eating shit min stop at least I lost some weight.

why can’t i lose weight as fast as james charles can lose subscribers

Skinny girl food/drink

Foods:

Salad (no dressing) (30kcal)

Broccoli (around 35kcal/100g)

Cauliflower (25kcal/100g)

Tomatoes (22kcal/avarage tomatoe)

Zucchini (16kcal/100g)

Strawberries (4 kcal each)

Berries (33 kcal/100g)

Carrots (44kcal/100g)

White rice (134kcal/100g)

Grapes (69kcal/100g)

Sweet pepper (20kcal/100g)

Sweet corn (84kcal/100g)

Apple (72kcal/ avarage apple)

Drinks:

Water and tea. Helps losing weight and makes you feel full.

Stay safe🖤

I have to go to the doctor in two weeks and I’m not ready emotionally for her to tell me I’m still overweight/obese. LIKE WHY TF DO YOU THINK I’VE STOPPED EATING. WHY DO U THINK I’M NOT FUCKING HAPPY ANYMORE

I want grapes something that’s low In calories but noo ALL WE CAN FUCKING HAVE IN THIS HOUSE IS JUNK FOOD AND HUESS WHAT IM ABOUT TO EAT ALL OF IT BC I HAVE NO FUCKING SELF CONTR

Reblog to reach your UGW in 2019

Don’t get me wrong I know I have results. I know I won the lottery and that shit is in my 4d. However my 3d just said nope u lost and don’t get me wrong I refuse to let myself feel down bc at the end of the day “I know I’m rich and I have millions of dollars.” But like do I just need to keep affirming and not even try to get another ticket. Or like get i get a ticket and say this one is set in stone no more games 3d I won this fucking lottery?