Bc I Feel Like I’m Bothering My Friends I Come To Tumblr

Bc I feel like I’m bothering my friends I come to tumblr

So like my friends ex asked me to hoco and I was like making it a big deal by texting all of them bc I didn’t know what to do bc I wanted to say no but it’s my personality that I like can’t bc I’m scared. So like I didn’t and I felt bad so I told my friend and I could tell she’s over me talking about it and like I haven’t really gotten it off my chest of why I feel bad. But this is the first time anyone has shown interest in me and I don’t think he even liked me like that because he said he wanted to ask someone else bc he actually liked them but he decided to ask me bc he wasn’t going to have a chance with them. And like it hurts bc all my friends have had people have crushes on them or date people and I never had. That’s part of the reason I got an Ed. And like it just hurts that I’ve annoyed my friend bc I can’t stop freaking out bc I didn’t know what to do bc I’ve never been in that situation and it fucking sucks that I’m his like 20th choice bc he dated my friend and made abc of the girls he liked and forgot to put me in it and then he only asked me bc the other wasn’t going to say yes. I just feel horrible. I don’t even wanna do this bc I feel like I’m bothering people on tumblr but no ones going to read this long message and I just wanna disappear bc it sucks and I’m sorry.

Edit- I keep checking my phone bc I feel like someone’s gonna tell me it’s ok but like I know it isn’t gonna happen and like I’m sorry. I just I can’t think of anything but I’m sorry.