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Legends never die, and as such, Jellie will continue to live on in Minecraft and within our hearts until the end of time. It was a pleasure to draw you, Jellie. Have fun playing in the stars.

when people talk about intentional plurality i beg them to look into IFS. I saw a post recently about someone praising plurality as an intentional coping mechanism rather than a trauma response through dissociation, and how it can be helpful to imagine different “alters” for different situations to make life a little easier.

yes, this is a coping strategy— internal family systems. this is NOT plurality.

i will always come back to this: if you have to pretend to be someone else, that’s not plurality. recognized plurality ONLY stems from intense, repeated trauma and some form of dissociation/derealization that happens unconsciously as a result.

DID ≠ a coping mechanism

DID = a trauma response!!!

grian doodles +waffle :D

Is this an NPD thing?

Because of grandiosity I don't see other people as like "worthy" of giving me approval? Like people describe npd as like constantly seeking approval or attention and i do do that sometimes, but more often even if I was seeking it, if someone compliments me I'll feel irritated they'd think I want or care about their approval.

I get angry when people give me too much praise or whatever cus it feels like "what?! You think my ego's so fragile I actually need your worthless opinion?" (even if I was intentionally trying to get their worthless opinion)

Like people talk about having a self worth determined externally by others but I don't see people as smart enough to determine my self worth. Most people are stupid so why would I rely on them for that?

Sometimes I even get the inverse of what people intend like of someone tells me I'm bad it feeds the grandiosity and if they tell me I'm good it makes me feel worthless and defensive

But if I respect the person this flips around

What's up with that? Is that an npd thing?

System culture is (vent);

We Hate not having memories,, we know we joke about it with our friends irl like "OMG,, I don't even remember what just happened >_<!!" In a silly goofy way,,

But the moment we're in class, with an assignment to pick five of the most valuable moments of our life, we blank, and get a 0, because we have no memories. Any vivid memory we have, we can't trust because for all we know - it's a dream ^_^!! (We have very vivid dreams for context),, or that.. it's just vague. We can feel it but it's like it's a locked up painting.

We're not even going to get into the jealousy and envy we feel with friends when they recall fun memories,, and we have to go "lol I don't remember rn"

Sorry for this,, - 💧 ; 💌

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never kill yourself. i spent my sunday staying up all night playing a furry fishing game because some random person on the internet decided to sit down behind me and dedicate the next three hours of their life to playing undertale music on a shitty 18 fret guitar. the beauty of this world cannot possibly be overstated.

I just remembered a thing I used to do that should’ve been a major sign of NPD, so now I wonder: how many people who were the “therapist friend” or had a “saviour complex” as a child developed NPD or some other illness?

this is how i imagine them in my head thanks to doody and maru

Your favorite Hero; HOTGUY ! and your favorite Vigilante; CUTEGUY ! were turned into marketable plushies oh no !!

Secret life scar he’s so pretty also new brush whoopee

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