Just Thought About How Absolutely Wild It Is That I'm Actually Studying Quantum Mechanics Right Now.

putting trumpets in a metal song feels like cheating. I have never heard a metal song with trumpets that wasn't an absolute banger

my life starts feeling like i'm living for sidequests again. i'm supposed to play bass for my friend's band's soundcheck later this week. slight problem here.

i have never fucking played a bass before.

so lets hope my mediocre (at best) guitar skills will save me

haha, yes.

potion that makes you trans

i picked up "watch over me" by nina lacour today after having it on my desk for almost a month now because i was afraid it wouldn't make me feel as much as "we are okay" did. and oh boy was i wrong. i don't know how she does it, but she just gets the loneliness i experience so often

i don't know what the fuck happened to my phone camera, but it's much more interesting than whatever i originally had planned

When will my life begin?

Counting life in appointments

One week, one month, one year.

Horrified of what there is to come

Glad that what was is over.

Putting everything on hold

Friends, emotions, youth.

I have to wait for the new me

Wait until she's me.

I'm trapped inside this body

Or maybe it's her who's trapped?

What even is the difference

when we'll never be one another?

I don't know how to feel, what to feel

The hope of getting there is like a candle

in the midst of a storm at the coast.

Please end this waiting

Why cry if it doesn't change a thing

Why hope if the appointment turns into

a disappointment

Why try to build up something

if it's gonna be for nothing?

I'm here

nothing more, nothing less

I just think it would be funny to switch things up and lead with "popular far-right online blogger, Joan Rowling" once in awhile.

it's crazy how I put myself under so much pressure to fit into what society deems a girl is. like I made two versions of my stardew valley profile picture and won't use the one here on any other app because there are people who know me irl and I'm afraid of them seeing me with "short hair"

What non-writers think writing is: so, here are my characters and now i'll have them do exactly as i say

What writing actually is: *half-finished characters escape into the world you made up. Now you have to chase them and write down what they decided to do while trying to make your records make at least some sense. So you're actually more like a historian who followed some idiots into battle and now has to convince them to stop making the most troublesome decision at every opportunity*

i'm so glad I was born in a time where we know about so many things in space and yet have so many mysteries left to unravel. I seriously don't know what kind of person I'd be without my love for black holes