Strangers By Ethel Cain Is So Will Graham Coded.

I literally thought it was a new black mirror episode until someone explicitly told me it was real.

If someone told me that a submersible named the Titan, owned by a company called OceanGATE, carrying three billionaires, had gone missing on an expedition to the Titanic, I would think it was some pitch for a new thriller mystery novel and not something that had actually happened due to the hubris and stupidity of rich people.

the podcast got me

(it's insane how a fan product can be so much better than the material it's based on..)

in general, I loved how the actors chose to play the characters. lockwood being a bit more obviously reckless and suicidal. lucy obviously still struggeling with how her mother treated her (mostly obvious with the "asset" storyline. In general, this show just added a little bit of spice to the characters and I love it.

Ali is bringing so much neurodivergence to George’s character, and l’m OBSESSED.

I always read him as a blunt person who just doesn’t mind being a dick, but like,,, when you add it to how Ali delivers his lines and doesn’t make eye contact— like he is making the choice to play George as autistic coded and have researching be his special interest and I just love that 😭

lockwood& co show rant incoming so spoiler warning!

I really miss the funny parts of the book but at the same time I like how they made it a bit darker. it just made the stakes a bit higher.

ALSO THE PART AFTER THEY JUMPED INTO THE RIVER AND IT LOOKED LIKE LOCKLYLE WOULD KISS AND THEN LUCY SHOVED HIM AWAY OMFG GO OFF GIRL!!!

I also love the way they made lockwood be a bit more obviously struggeling. I thought people being more aware of him being suicidal really fit the characters.

I'm a bit worried that they'll make a love triangle between lucy, lockwood and kipps (altho I used to have a headcanon that kipps used to have a crush on lockwood but that's another story). maybe the kipps asking lucy out for coffee was just a way for him to manipulate her but if this is gonna be another typical ya show with a love triangle it will probably suck lol.

but all in all, it was suprisingly more accurate to the book than I expected! I was so scared that they would mash all of the books into one season but now I'm really scared that they won't make another season. so yes, stream lockwood and co!!!

I'M CRYING THIS IS WAY TOO FUNNY

My name is Hermes. I ain't a poet. I stole this poem just to show it. And my. My son died. I can save kids but i can't save mine (what!)

me during the newest tge magnus protocol episode

Listening to the new episodes of my podcasts like:

I am such a useless fucking lesbian I wanna kiss her so bad it makes me look stupid

this poem (?) is about my relationship with my eating disorder through the years so TRIGGER WARNING! this is also the story on how I started recovery. have fun reading :)

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I only need your approval to live.

it's my food, it's my air.

I can never get enough, I guess if you starve yourself you get hungry for other things.

the number on the scale gets smaller and smaller while the hunger grows and grows.

I'm constantly running, chasing happieness, hoping I will find it in smaller clothes and sleepless nights.

Have you checked my thigh gap?

Maybe I will find it there.

Maybe I will never find it.

I know that if i keep searching for it I'll loose myself but what am I to absolution?

Do I even deserve it?

Am I pretty now?

Now that you can see my bones and the aching in my belly is all I can think about.

Is getting smaller the secret to becoming beautiful, becoming happy?

If so I'm prepared to become nothing if that means you will finally see me as enough.

why is your opinion so important to me?

you're just a tiny voice in my head, why should I listen to you?

Are you me? Am I you?

a part of me keeps fighting.

it defends me from your nasty insults, keeps telling me to just hold on, that i deserve to let you go.

But do I really?

You hurt so many people but you did it with my voice so the guilt is my burden to take.

You make me feel guilty about things that you did, say it's my fault that i told others about you and now they think the same way as I do.

Is it my fault?

I'm not sure.

you and me begann to blur, the tiny shimmer of hope that I will get rid of you dies and the need to listen to you, become you grows every day.

do I even want to keep fighting against you?

It's exhausting and going your way would be so much easier.

but then I think about the days when your voice is quiet, sometimes it wasn't even there and those memories show me that true happieness is only possible if you're gone.

so i keep fighting, keep talking against you.

I even got help.

Now i have people that listen to me, people who tell me that you're evil, that I should let you go.

but that's easier said than done.

you were my best friend, my compass in my darkest times but now i know that you were the reason the darkness kept growing.

I don't need you anymore and you're nothing without me.

Maybe you deserve to be nothing.

this is such a shitty picure because I photographed my laptop but LUCY AND LOCKWOOD ARE HOLDING HANDS THIS IS NOT A DRILL I REPEAT THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!!