Levihan Week Day 4: Private/Season

Omg

It’s funny because he lives with her at this point

the tale of Aragorn and Arwen is a horror story, or a cautionary tale at least.

Every time I reread the Tale of Arwen and Aragorn I think…whether Tolkien intended it or not, this is a horror story about people casting Arwen into the role of Lúthien, a tragedy about someone being compared to a heroic ancestress because of her looks so many times that she might start to believe it– but in the end finds out that she is nothing like her. And she finds out too late.

The first meeting of Aragorn and Arwen is not about Arwen at all, but her ability to look like a figure out of song, which allows Aragorn to cast himself as a heroic Beren figure (and people love those who allow them to imagine being something more than they are);

For a moment Aragorn gazed in silence, but fearing that she would pass away and never be seen again, he called to her crying, Tinúviel, Tinúviel! even as Beren had done in the Elder Days long ago. Then the maiden tured to him and smiled, and she said: ‘Who are you? And why do you call me by that name?” And he answered: “Because I believe you to be indeed Lúthien Tinúviel of whom I was singing. But if you are not she, then you walk in her likeness.” “So many have said,” she answered gravely. “Yet her name is not mine.” 

And Arwen has grown up with the story of Beren and Lúthien. As long as she can remember people have seen Lúthien in her. 

Aragorn falls in love at first sight; but not in love with Arwen, not really, because he doesn’t know her. He falls in love with the image of Lúthien while singing of her; he falls in love with the idea of himself as heroic as Beren, too. Nothing is mentioned of Arwen having feelings for him at this point. It is not at all love at first sight as it was for B&L. In fact, Elrond says she likely thinks he is below her, not just in age or experience but in lineage. I don’t think he would lie, despite his lack of enthusiasm;

But as for Arwen the Fair, Lady of Imladris and of Lórien, Evenstar of her people, she is of lineage greater than yours, and she has lived in the world already so long that to her you are but as a yearling shoot beside a young birch of many summers. She is too far above you. And so, I think, it may well seem to her. But even if it were not so, and her heart turned towards you, I should still be grieved because of the doom that is laid on us.”

Luthien did most certainly did not care about Beren’s ‘great lineage’– which was not really much of one yet at the time, at least not one to impress the half-Ainu daughter of Thingol, who claimed to be King of all Beleriand. If there is any reason for their love at all (other than high doom)– it is maybe Beren’s personality. He kills no animal. He tries to be good in a very harsh world. He was about 32 years old, and unlikely to ever be King of anything.

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WELCOME BACK, GAJEEL. YOUR WAIFU IS GOING TO BE SO HAPPY AND RELIEVED THAT YOU’RE ALIVE. NOW… TIME TO MAKE TWINS.

i feel like ‘fostered by elves’ definitely made Tuor and Turin Weird to humans and attractive to elves (as is actualy shown in the Narn to a degree I think)…

imagine how incredibly weird/messed up a child partially fostered by the Ainur/Valar in Valinor would be.

Am I talking about Fëanor again? Yes I am. Sure he was Finwe’s favourite child and he loved him. But Finwë was grieving, and King; which is to say his father was both overwhelmed by his emotions (which he ended up putting before the wellbeing of his child in the end) and busy. Finwë was also at least at some point during Feanor’s youth went to stay at Ingwe’s and was walking around on his own, at which point he fell in love with Indis, so he simply cannot have been around all the time.

There is also a note on Fëanor being the only elf to learn Valarin. And there is that note I quoted about Fëanor giving many jewels to the maiar of Lorien, presumably because or while they cared for his mother’s body. 

…what I’m saying is… distressing/depressing idea of tiny child Fëanor tinkering away in the gardens of Lórien beside his mother’s ‘sleeping’ body while the maiar try to babysit him. 

Not Fëanor learning Valarin as an adult because he’s a special linguistic genius (though that’s true) but simply because his babysitters were occasionally incorporeal beings who whispered a distressingly alive, sharp language into his tiny pointed ears. 

makes sense :3

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i want someone to buy pink smoothies with  & sing ‘i wanna hold your hand’ on a sidewalk but without ever holding hands

because i have a fever 

omg this is the fucking saddest thing I have read... don't let this post die please... let this spread!

i never thought i’d see the day where i’d have to do this

i was on a video call with my girlfriend again today from 2 pm to 5 pm, and we discussed the following:

she once again was unable to sign on for class due to wifi issues.

she hadn’t had any food or water yet

when she finally did eat, it was french toast

she didn’t get water, but instead a sprite, which at least has water in it

she has anorexia, along with another kind (arfid? i don’t remember) that isn’t very common, but it basically means she has to have certain foods at certain temperatures, which is why she likes cheez-its but not cheese

she ADHD, anxiety, ODD, OCD, ASD, and depression, and she’s going to be tested for tourette’s

her eating disorder started when she was six, and when she was eight she was on adderall when she was eight for about a year before she was taken off the medication, because if she had continued taking it she would have literally starved to death

the guidance counselor at our school told her that:

she didn’t look mentally disabled

she didn’t have an eating disorder, it was just the medication

she couldn’t use they/them pronouns

we both agreed that the previous school year wasn’t good for either of us because:

she pulled all-nighters every night

due to the constant all-nighters, she often fell asleep in class

she was mostly running off of anxiety

i would break down crying at least three times a day due to sheer stress

she was to stressed to eat, and i didn’t have the time

it took a serious toll on our mental, emotional, and physical health

there are a lot of things that a lot of people don’t understand, but please understand this: my girlfriend’s been through so much her whole life, and i can’t pretend that i know how hard it is, or that i’ve had it even nearly as bad as she has. she’s stuck inside and i want to help her so much, but i don’t know how to. so every note this post gets is a day she has to take good care of herself. she is an amazing person, and i hate seeing her hurting.

i’ll stop making hamlet memes when i’m dead