૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 4.

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𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚎𝚕𝚜𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚝 𝚜𝚘 𝚋𝚊𝚍 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚢? 𝚒 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒 𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚕, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚎𝚍. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚒'𝚟𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚏-𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚝, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚒𝚝. 𝙸'𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑. 𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒𝚖 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚜𝚒𝚌𝚔 𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 1.

Weekends with family is always much harder than just normal weekdays because my mom likes to keep tab if I ate or not and she ususally wants us to eat together, which is fine because it was an OMAD day anyways.

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➁ Hell energy (ginger & lemon) - 117.5 ≈ 118 cal

➀ Sweet bun burger - approx. 524 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemon grass) - 0 cal

➀ Green apple (side to the burger) - 82 cal

Water - 2.4l/2l

Full - 842 cal

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Steps - 7190/10000 - 288 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 288 cal

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♡ Via/Anonyma

♡ 20 years old

♡ 5'4 - 165 cm

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₊˚⊹♡ hw: 187 lbs - 85 kg

₊˚⊹♡ 1st gw: 165 lbs - 75 kg - REACHED on OCT. 5

₊˚⊹♡ 2nd gw: 154 lbs - 70 kg - REACHED on DEC. 6

₊˚⊹♡ 3rd gw: 143 lbs - 65 kg

₊˚⊹♡ 4th gw: 132 lbs - 60 kg

₊˚⊹♡ 5th gw: 121 lbs - 55 kg

₊˚⊹♡ 6th gw: 110 lbs - 50 kg

₊˚⊹♡ ugw: 100 lbs - 45 kg

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I play games like resident evil, dmc, metal gear, but I also like watching anime and cartoons.

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Yes i am aware! For a little while i disabled the invs because we had traffic. Please if ya wanna join dm me :>>

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 14

Mom asked me to accompany her to give my sister a lift to uni and while driving back we stopped to pick up a package and to buy some ribbons for my halloween costume. I decided to look for cute plates, mainly heart shaped ones and although I did find two types, one was too deep and big -also had blood on it so I had go scrub and sanitise my hands raw because I felt icky - and the other was too shallow for me. Unfortunately I didn't buy a cute plate but a basic small ceramic one.

I love how the trees are colorful, how chilly yet somehow warm it is in autumn. I could wear my current favourite sweater and pants that are now big on me a bit. Mom always tells me that I am getting really skinny and I love the attention I get from other people.

Oh! Also I am finally at my lowest weight in 5 years! Still high, but it is going down surely and I am addicted.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Basmati rice with tuna, broccoli and peas 200g - 466 cal

➀ Banana - 62 cal

Water - 1.4l/2l

Full - 528 cal

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Steps - 6394/10000 - 259 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 259 cal

Why am I like this? I know I need to lose and I just binge and eat all the sweet things even though I literally don't like sugary sweet things...

i cant wait to be able to feel and see my hip bones and collar bones again. i don’t know how i ever convinced myself to recover from ana and then on top of that develop a b.e.d

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER 1-2

The last week was shitty in terms of starving myself. I plateaued at 73 and I haven't been gaining which is nice, but I haven't been losing either.

Because of the holidays, birthdays and other events I couldn't avoid eating normal amounts but sadly I have been craving things I haven't craved in a long time and it's making me crazy.

For example I really don't like white bread, yet I broke my 72 hour fast after the 27th hour because I had this instant need for it. I looked at the slice, conteplated only a little and bit into it. It was such a big slice too. I knew I can't eat it, that I shouldn't eat it, yet I still did.

Fucking other weight losing tactics haven't worked on me before only starving myself did. Only restricting my calorie intake to 800-400-200 did. What am I supposed to do? Stop because I failed even at something so simple like not fucking stuffing my mouth?

I even ate KFC like a pig. Ate the grander and the twist thing then drank the pumpkin spice shake. I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't stop. The craving and the hunger for it was too much.

God I wanna cry. I wanna tear everything out. They were so good, but for how long? Until I finished watching a moist critical video, which was 10 minutes long.

Why can't I wait? Why can't I control it? I hate it so much.

I hate food. I don't want it anymore.