I absolutely adore your stories but how are you doing they get so dark just wanna check on you đ
hi anon! I'm doing just fine thank you for asking lmao.... how are you doing after reading my things??? Ik they are dark, idk pookie I've just always been into writing dark thingsđ tbh I don't know if that's a good thing BUT atleast I can keep everyone entertained lmfao, anyway thanks for checking up on me<333333
them having a baby was sososososo cute đđ i would like to know what their daughter would be like entering elementary school
Headcannons: professor!ellie williams x reader
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â Auroraâs first word is âMama,â but she says it while looking at youâEllie is fake-offended for weeks.
â She has Ellieâs intense green eyes and habit of staring too long when sheâs curious.
â Aurora clings to you constantly; even as a toddler, she whines when someone else holds her.
â Ellie builds her a mini bookcase for baby board booksâand Aurora immediately organizes them alphabetically (with help).
â Aurora is the kind of baby who needs a strict routineâif youâre even five minutes late for nap or cuddle time, she notices.
â She hates when you leave the room. Ellie jokes that youâve got two wives now.
â She calls Ellie âMamaâ and you âMommy,â but if youâre upset or sick, she calls both of you âMommyâ in solidarity.
â Aurora shows signs of hyper-intelligence early: solving puzzles meant for kids twice her age.
â She loves bedtime stories but gets frustrated when you skip a wordâsheâs memorized the entire book.
â Ellie reads her scientific journals out loud like bedtime stories, and Aurora actually listens.
â She mimics Ellieâs mannerismsâcrossing her arms, frowning when she concentrates, pacing.
â You catch her âlecturingâ her stuffed animals in Ellieâs exact voice.
â Aurora draws family portraits every weekâand youâre always in the center.
â She panics if youâre not there to drop her off or pick her up.
â Ellie tries to be logical about it but secretly loves how attached Aurora is to you.
â Aurora shows early signs of perfectionismâshe erases drawings over and over if theyâre ânot good enough.â
â When she throws tantrums, only your voice calms her down. Ellie has to tag you in.
â Aurora is incredibly picky about her routineâshe wants the same food in the same bowl with the same spoon.
â Her favorite word is âactually,â and she uses it to correct adults constantly.
â She collects facts like trophiesâEllie makes her flashcards and they study together for fun.
â Aurora tests into the gifted program in her first year of school.
â She doesnât like group projectsâshe prefers doing everything herself because âno one gets it right.â
â Teachers say sheâs âbrilliant, but intense.â
â Aurora only talks about two things at school: science and you.
â She makes laminated labels for her school supplies like Ellie does with her stationary.
â Every art project is somehow about youâshe brings home a clay mug with âMommy #1â carved into it.
â She corrects her teacher once in class and becomes slightly feared. Ellie is so proud but warns her to âmaybe chill a little next time, baby.â
â Aurora wants to skip recess so she can stay in and read.
â She keeps a picture of you in her backpackâpulls it out when she gets anxious.
â Ellie and Aurora have âstudy nightsâ where they work quietly side by sideâsame posture, same concentration.
â Aurora watches you cook and scribbles notes like itâs a culinary lecture.
â She insists on helping you clean the house but gets mad if things arenât organized to her standard.
â You call her your âtiny professorâ and she beams every time.
â Aurora and Ellie both hover when youâre tired or sickâlike youâre the sun and theyâve lost orbit.
â They fight over who gets to sit next to you on the couch.
â Ellie gets petty when Aurora gets more cuddles. Aurora gets smug.
â Aurora likes brushing your hairâshe does it methodically, like a ritual.
â She sleeps best when curled up beside you, even at age 7.
â She draws up âmom schedulesâ to divide your attention fairlyâEllie cheats her way into extra time.
â Aurora reads scientific textbooks for fun.
â Ellie teaches her how to use a microscope at age 6.
â She becomes obsessed with astronomy after you buy her a star chart.
â Aurora cries when she gets a 98 instead of 100.
â Ellie talks her down using logic. You soothe her with affection.
â She keeps a journal with facts about her âfavorite personâ (you).
â Aurora canât stand when someone is wrongâshe has a meltdown if the teacher mispronounces a word.
â She gives book reports like sheâs defending a thesis.
â Her handwriting is meticulous, just like Ellieâs.
â She wins her schoolâs spelling bee and dedicates the win âto my mommies.â
â Aurora doesnât handle change wellâmoving a couch makes her cry.
â Youâre the only one who can help her calm down when she spirals.
â She leaves sticky notes with âI love youâ on your bathroom mirror.
â Ellie keeps a stash of emergency snacks and plushies for when Aurora gets overstimulated.
â Aurora talks to you about everythingâeven stuff she hides from Ellie.
â She always wants to know where you areâcalls you if youâre late home.
â If you travel, she leaves voice memos asking when youâre coming back.
â Aurora once stayed up crying because she thought you wouldnât love her if she failed at something. You reassure her constantly, even years later.
â Ellie hugs you tighter at night after watching how much both of you mean to each other.
â Aurora and Ellie gang up on you in debatesâbut itâs always playful.
â They both get quiet when they think youâre upsetâlike they canât stand disappointing you.
â Aurora wears a matching lab coat on Ellieâs âbring your kid to workâ day.
â She calls the three of you âthe brain squad.â
â Your fridge is full of Auroraâs detailed school projectsâEllie annotates them like a proud academic.
â Aurora copies how Ellie kisses your temple when youâre working.
â They both wait up for you if youâre lateâeven if itâs past bedtime.
â When Aurora gets awards, youâre the first person she looks for in the crowd.
â Family movie night has to be educational and cozy or she gets annoyed.
â You are the center of their universeâboth of them would burn the world for you without hesitation.
more nsfw prof!ellie <3
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warning: NSFW content! MDNI 18+Keep reading
â Ellie is the kind of professor who always appears calm, put-together, and aloof â but underneath, sheâs constantly distracted by you.
â Her glasses perched low on her nose while she grades your work have become one of your most frequent fantasies.
â Ellie has thought about you bent over her desk more times than she cares to admit â right in the same office where she gives lectures and writes papers.
â Sheâll reread your essays just to touch the paper you touched â especially when you underline your name at the top.
â Ellie fantasizes about you showing up to her office in nothing but one of her oversized button-ups, legs bare, eyes wide.
â Sheâs into quiet dominance â never raising her voice, but speaking in that slow, precise tone that makes your thighs press together.
â She has a voice kink â the sound of you moaning her name softly into her neck turns her wild.
â Ellie has masturbated in her office thinking about you â once after you visited her wearing a short skirt and sat on her desk.
â Sheâs addicted to control: making you beg, holding your wrists down, making you say âpleaseâ even when youâre already shaking.
â Her dirty talk is academic and filthy: âLook how wet you are for your professor⊠you think youâre gonna learn anything like this, sweetheart?â
â She has dreams of you showing up after-hours, claiming you âneed help with something,â only to end up pinned against her bookshelf.
â She likes teasing â whispering things in class under her breath only you can hear, smirking when you shift in your seat.
â Ellie wants to bend you over her desk and keep your mouth stuffed with your own syllabus. âHope youâve been studying, baby.â
â Sheâs a thinker â and that includes sex. She imagines everything in advance. Where your hands will go, how youâll taste, what youâll look like crying out for her.
â Sheâs obsessed with lingerie but only if she gets to take it off you with slow fingers and teeth.
â Ellie always looks so composed in public â but behind closed doors, she grabs your face with ink-stained fingers and makes you fall apart.
â She has a sharp eye for your body language. The second you get needy, she knows â and exploits it.
â Ellie wants to ruin you academically and sexually â assign a paper, then fuck you so good you forget what the topic was.
â She gets jealous easily, especially when other students flirt with you â her hand slides higher under the table at dinner parties.
â She once left a possessive hickey on your neck right before a department event, eyes smug when everyone noticed.
â Ellie loves watching you squirm in class after a particularly rough night. âTry to focus, sweetheart,â sheâll whisper as you blush.
â She enjoys making you wear discreet toys during her lectures â remote-controlled ones â and pretending not to notice as you struggle.
â Her favorite punishment is denial. Sheâll edge you for hours, stroking you slow until youâre trembling, then pull away with a smile.
â She owns a journal full of fantasies and scenes she wants to try with you â detailed, organized by category, complete with diagrams.
â Ellie records her voice reading excerpts from her favorite books â soft, slow â and sends them to you to fall asleep to.
â She once wrote an erotic story about you as a writing exercise. It got her so worked up she had to take a break to handle herself.
â Ellie is obsessed with your scent â sheâll bury her nose in your hair, your thighs, your clothes. It grounds her.
â She keeps a pair of your panties tucked away in her drawer â stolen after a long night, worn thin between her fingers.
â Sheâs possessive in bed â constantly reminding you that you belong to her. âSay it,â sheâll demand, fingers deep inside you.
â Ellie has absolutely no issue with taking you over her desk while wearing her glasses and grading with the other hand â multitasking queen.
â Ellie likes to drag it out â foreplay can last hours if she has her way. She enjoys watching you slowly unravel.
â Her fingers are deadly â long, calloused, practiced. She knows how to curl them just right to make your stomach clench.
â She prefers missionary â not out of simplicity, but control. She wants to see every expression, hear every whimper.
â Ellie talks you through every orgasm. âYouâre doing so good⊠just like that⊠let go, Iâve got you.â
â She likes to tie your wrists with her old ties from conferences. She makes knots with precision.
â Ellieâs favorite position is having you straddle her lap â shirt off, skirt still on â while she sits back and watches you ride her.
â She loves licking you open while you beg her to stop teasing. Her tongue is slow, focused, merciless.
â Ellie has a thing for spanking â not harsh, but enough to make your thighs twitch and leave her handprint.
â She once made you come three times before letting you touch her. âThis is about you tonight.â
â Ellie marks her territory with her mouth â bites, hickeys, lipstick stains, spit.
â Sheâs into mutual masturbation â sitting thigh-to-thigh, watching you fall apart while she touches herself too.
â Ellie loves morning sex â lazy, slow, possessive. Sheâll bury her face in your neck and grind until you both lose it.
â Her voice drops a whole octave when she gets turned on. Itâs dangerous.
â Sheâs meticulous about aftercare â water, wiping you down, pulling you into her chest like youâre made of glass.
â Ellie has whispered âmineâ into your mouth more times than she can count â like itâs a prayer.
â Ellieâs biggest kink is power â having it, sharing it, taking it away.
â She loves watching herself fuck you in the mirror. It turns her on seeing how desperate she makes you.
â Sheâs into soft degradation â âYouâre such a needy little thing for your professor, arenât you?â
â Ellieâs obsession with knowledge extends into sex â she reads books, watches videos, takes notes. Sheâs always improving.
â She gets off on your innocence â the way you look up at her, eager to please, so damn trusting.
â Sheâs got a praise kink too: âThatâs it, baby. Thatâs my girl. So fucking good for me.â
â Sheâs into teasing you in public â her hand on your thigh under a table, her lips brushing your ear when she talks.
â Ellie once left you tied to her bed while she lectured â came home to you a mess of tears and arousal.
â She likes whispering instructions in your ear while you touch yourself. âSlower. Now faster. Donât stop âtil I say.â
â Ellie likes choking â gently, safely â just enough to make your world go hazy and your body trust her completely.
â Sheâs obsessed with the way your body responds to her voice alone â it makes her cocky, smug, hungry.
â She has a small collection of toys she uses only on you â each chosen with thought, cleaned with care.
â Ellie has a marking kink â she wants you walking out of her room with bruised hips and lips.
â Sheâs into roleplay â professor/student, of course. She plays it too well.
â Ellie once made you write a 500-word apology for teasing her in public â then read it aloud while she touched you.
â After she fucks you, she holds you like youâre the most important discovery of her life.
â Ellie keeps your moans recorded on her phone â labeled by date like research files.
â When you wear her clothes after sex, she stares like you just walked off a dream.
â Sheâs the type to kiss your hands reverently after restraining them â both apology and affection.
â Ellie gets quiet after â soft kisses, fingers brushing your hair, little murmurs like âI love having you like this.â
â She calls you âmy girlâ so casually, like itâs written into her DNA.
â Ellie once told you, âNo matter what happens, no one will ever fuck you the way I do.â She meant it.
â She gets possessive when others see your marks â but secretly loves when they know you're hers.
â Ellie fantasizes about living with you â sex in her kitchen, grading while you ride her on the couch, lazy mornings with your thighs around her head.
â The smartest woman in the room, and all she ever wants is to see you underneath her, moaning her name like sheâs your only thought.
Hello can you write a fic based off of â1 step forward and 3 steps backâ by Olivia Rodrigo ? thank you! <3
hi anon! i hope you like it:) I tried something new adding ellies pov.. i hope you dont mind:)
This story is based off the song one step forward, three steps back by olivia rodrigo. If you can, please listen to the song as you're reading:)
Pairing: ellie williams x fem!reader
requests are open, send me your thoughts:)
Warnings: Emotional manipulation, toxic patterns, heartbreak, strong language, emotional dependency, insecurity
Summary: In which your relationship always put you 3 steps back
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"You got me fucked up in the head, boy."
You wish you could blame it on the trauma.
On the broken world. On the things sheâs seen. The things youâve seen.
But deep down, you know itâs more than that.
Itâs her.
And itâs you.
And itâs this thing you keep calling love just to justify how much it hurts.
Youâre sitting on her porch again, arms wrapped around your knees, watching as the sun dips behind the mountains. Her guitar is silent inside. So is she.
You said something wrong today.
You donât know what, exactlyâbut her face changed. Her mouth pressed into that tight, unreadable line. She stopped laughing, handed you your coat, and mumbled something about needing to be alone. That was hours ago.
And youâre still here. Because she never told you to leave.
But she didnât ask you to stay either.
Ellieâs hot and cold. Gentle and cruel. Soft one day, distant the next.
She kisses you like youâre the only thing anchoring her to the earth. Then pushes you away like she canât stand to be touched.
You never know which version youâre going to get.
Itâs always a guessing game.
A test you didnât sign up for.
A trap she doesnât even know sheâs laying.
And every time you think youâre getting somewhereâone step forwardâ
She pulls away. Shuts down. Disappears.
Three steps back. Every. Time.
You remember the first time she let her walls down.
It was raining, the kind of cold that seeped through your bones. She had a nightmare and showed up at your door looking half-dead. You held her until she stopped shaking. She cried into your neck. Whispered âDonât leave.â And you didnât.
She kissed you like she meant it.
You thought it meant something.
Maybe it did.
Maybe it didnât.
She never said.
"Do you love me, want me, hate me? Boy, I donât understand."
Sometimes she calls you âbaby.â Soft. Real.
Sometimes she calls you âdude,â or doesnât say anything at all, just grunts and walks past you like youâre nothing.
It fucks you up.
You lay awake wondering what you did.
You second-guess everything you said, every look, every breath.
You practice conversations in your head, afraid that the wrong word will make her disappear again.
You used to be confident.
You used to be whole.
Now, you flinch when she raises her voice. You smile too quickly when sheâs calm. You praise her for the bare minimum just because it means she isnât angry.
Youâre in love with someone whoâs only ever half-there.
But god, when sheâs thereâ
Sheâs everything.
ELLIE'S POV (ellie is refered to as you because its her pov! pls don't get confused. i tried writing it from her perspective lol)
âAnd maybe in some masochistic way, I kind of find it all exciting...â
You donât mean to hurt her.
You really donât.
But something in you breaks every time they get too close. Every time they see too much. Every time they look at you with those eyes full of hope and softness and trust.
You donât deserve that.
You never did.
You love her. You know you do. But love feels like a leashâtight and terrifying. It means responsibility. It means hurting them, eventually. And youâve already hurt too many people.
You donât want to be that person again.
So you push. You pull.
You leave the room when things get too quiet. You snap at them when they ask whatâs wrong. You disappear, come back, kiss them like theyâre the air you breathe, and then say something that makes them question if any of it was real.
You hate yourself for it. But you donât stop.
Because part of youâdark and broken and meanâlikes the chaos.
At least you know how to survive in chaos. You donât know how to survive in love.
YOUR POV
âMaybe Iâm just not as interesting as the girls you had before.â
You hear her mention Dina in her sleep.
Just once.
A murmur. A sigh.
A name youâve never asked about but always felt lingering.
You pretend you didnât hear.
But the silence after that is louder than anything sheâs ever said.
You try to leave. You pack your bag. You donât say goodbye. You make it to the gate.
And sheâs there.
Looking at you like sheâs drowning. Like youâre the last thing keeping her above the surface.
âIâm sorry,â she says. âI just... I donât know how to do this.â
You hate how fast you crumble.
You kiss her again. You stay again.
And itâs good. For a while.
Until the next wrong word. The next cold shoulder.
The next time youâre sitting on her porch wondering what the fuck you did wrong.
Because with Ellie Williams, itâs always one step forward... three steps back.
And you never know which one is coming next.
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requesting a smut fic with reader x loser!ellie based on in my feelings by Lana del Rey!! And the song being from readers pov
In my feelings - (loser!ellie williams x reader)
hi anon! firstly this is my first time writing smut, so I'm sorry if it sucks lmao:) and also Lana Del Rey fucking slaps, I hope you enjoy<3
This story is based off the song in my feelings by Lana Del Rey, if you can please listen to the song as you're reading:)
(I had to rewrite this twice because every time I wrote it according to the lyrics I always ended up with a angst fic, so this is just a smut piece. There are references to the song in the story.)
Pairing- loser!ellie x fem!reader
requests are always open, feel free to leave one or just send me a song and I'll take it from there:)
Warnings: MDNI 18+, smut, fingering (r receiving), oral (r receiving), porn no plot, inexperienced Ellie, cigarettes, sex, domish reader, this sucks, lmk if I missed anything!
Summary: In which you showed a loser, a great time
You brought the cigarette to your lips as you inhaled the smoke, your head rolled back as you blew it out from your lips.
You looked up and saw Ellie staring at you like a lost puppy.
"Have you ever done this before?" you asked her as you took another puff from your cigarette.
You watched as she shyly looked to the ground.
"Open your mouth and answer me Ellie" you demanded enjoying how easily you could make her nervous.
"n-no ma'am" she stuttered.
You chucked as you put out your cigarette on the ash tray beside you. Ellie watched your fingers as you lowered the cigarette, how delicate they looked, she wondered what they would feel like.
Ellie was snapped from her thoughts when she heard your voice.
"Come here"
You watched as she blinked a couple of times.
"Do I need to repeat myself?"
"no sorry" she mumbled and she made made her away towards you.
"Crawl"
"what?" Ellie looked at you with wide eyes.
She looked so fucking innocent. So pure. It turned you on so much knowing that you had the ability to destroy her.
"Get on the floor and crawl to me"
You sat back on the couch, you slightly opened your legs revealing the pink lace underwear you wore underneath your skirt.
"I can see your underwear" Ellie pointed out. She was trying to be respectful, but she couldn't take her eyes away from your clothed cunt.
"do you like it?" you asked.
A pink shade appeared on her cheeks as she looked down to her shoes. She let out a hum of agreement.
Yeah she did like it.
She wanted to see more.
"Come on Ellie get on your knees"
You watched as she fell to her knees, crawling to you like a dog. A smile appeared on your face as you watched the mighty Ellie Williams crawl towards you.
No one else but you.
Ellie sat directly in front of you staring at your pretty face waiting for her next instruction.
You opened up your legs, your lace panties practically see through at this point from how wet you were. You heard Ellie whimper as the sight.
"So pretty" she mumbled.
"wait till you see what's underneath" You spoke with a grin.
"Touch me Ellie"
Her hands immediately went to your underwear. She gently started rubbing you through your underwear.
Ellie watched as the damp spot on your underwear grow, and she felt her own arousal, her panties were so fucking wet and her thighs were slick with her own arousal.
You let out a soft moan as you felt her rub soft, slow and gentle circles. She leaned forward to leave a soft kiss on the clothed area.
Your body shuddered at the feeling.
Ellie started slowly making out with your clothed cunt, she just wanted a taste, but the stupid piece of fabric was in her way, it wasn't only making Ellie mad it was frustrating you too.
It was good but it wasn't enough to make you cum.
"Get up"
"what?" Ellie asked confused.
"Just get up"
She stood up in an instant watching you grab your phone.
You played in my feelings by Lana Del Rey as you lit another cigarette. You took another puff before slowly swaying your hips to the music.
"I'm smoking while I'm runnin' on my treadmill
But I'm cutting up roses
Could it be that I fell for another loser"
you sang as you continued to breathe in the smoke. You slowly started stripping, removing your shit, you briefly made eye contact with Ellie before her eyes fell to your chest.
You were wearing a matching pink lace bra, and Ellie felt herself dripping.
You slowly put the cigarette between your lips as you unclasped your bra. The piece of fabric fell to the floor as you heard Ellie out a quite "woah" at the sight of your chest.
Your hands came up to your chest as you took your breast into your palm, you slowly moved your hand up pinching your nipples, your head flew back the sensation.
You let out a moan, as you felt the buds harden under your touch.
Your hips continued to sway as you looked at Ellie and you pulled your skirt and panties off. You bent down, putting out the cigarette as you picked up your panties and you threw it towards her.
Ellie desperately caught it, bringing it to her nose. She breathed in the scent of your juices and she let out a loud moan. You watched as her eyes rolled to the back of her head before she stuffed your panties into her pocket.
"Please- please let me touch you"
You almost moaned at the sound of her begging.
You slowly made your way to the couch as you bent over, raising your ass and cunt into the air.
Easy access
As you were bent over you quickly made the music louder to drown out the sound of what was about to happen.
You looked over your shoulders seeing Ellie stare at you in awe.
What a fucking loser.
You slightly shook your ass.
"Come on Ellie isn't this what you wanted?"
Ellie fell to her knees immediately crawling to you. She faced your cunt she watched your swollen pussy clench around nothing.
You slightly jumped forward with a shocked moan when you felt Ellie lick a long stripe your pussy. Ellie had her eyes closed as she let out a moan.
"So wet" she muttered. After a few seconds of silence and no movement you suddenly felt Ellie's fingers open you up and before you could say anything she inserted her tongue into you.
You let out a moan, and quickly you felt a coil tighten in your stomach.
"fuckkkk... just like that pretty girl" you breathed out in a long moan.
You heard Ellie moan from behind you, and it send vibrations to your cunt. Your mouth fell open at the sensation.
Ellie put two fingers into your cunt as she continued sucking your clit and attacking your sensitive pussy with her tongue.
"Fuck- you're such a fucking loser" Ellie heard you talk above her. "You- you can't even talk to me I public now- now you're e-eating me out like I'm your last meal"
Ellie let out a moan at your words and she felt herself clench, she was going to cum and you didn't even touch her, how pathetic.
Ellie hit that special spot and you let out a high pitched moan.
"Right there baby, please don't stop"
Ellie fingers sped up, her sucking became harsher, and your moans grew louder.
You were close.
You clenched around Ellie's fingers, and she let out a loud moan. The vibrations triggered your orgasm.
You saw white and your whole body felt numb. You didn't feel real, it felt like you were floating- no flying actually. You felt so fucking good.
With heavy breathes, you opened your eyes and you breathed out a quick good girl to Ellie.
You turned around to face her as she lay on the floor, her eyes were closed but she had a huge smile on her face.
"Did you just come?" You asked Ellie as you heavily breathed.
You watched as she opened her eyes and she started at you for a few seconds.
"No"
"are you lying to me Ellie?"
"yeah... that was the hardest I ever came" she admitted.
"Aw poor baby, I didn't didn't touch her and she soaked her panties" you teased.
All Ellie did was look away shyly.
She anxiously played with her fingers. She wanted to ask you something. But she was so fucking terrified.
Maybe she was a fucking loser.
"Can we go again? Ellie asked, looking at you with a fucked out expression. Her lips were slightly swollen and glossy with her saliva and your cum.
Still heavily breathing you gave Ellie a smile.
"let me get a taste of you too pretty girl"
Authors note: well this sucked, I've never written smut and I'm so scared to publish it lmao, also two posts in one day???? wow I'm on another lever. Remember you are loved and to always be kind.
Yours truly,
Zia:)
oh my gad who dat pretty in ur pfp
I DONT KNOW
I found her on pintrest lmao, I'm looking for her Instagram but I can't find herđđ
hii!! I was wondering if you could maybe do Ellie taking care of an overwhelmed and overstimulated reader? in an anxiety attack context!
Hi anon!! I hope you enjoy:)
Pairing: Ellie Williams x Reader
requests are open, send me your thoughts and ideas:)
Warnings: Sensory overload, panic, anxiety attack symptoms, soft physical touch, protective!Ellie
Summary: in which you needed comfort
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âToo much.â
It started with the noise.
The clink of silverware, someoneâs loud laugh, the fireplace crackling, babies crying in another room.
Then the lights felt too bright. The air too thick. Your shirt too tight.
You tried to hold it in, to smile when Maria offered you pie, to nod along when Jesse joked about patrols.
But Ellie noticed.
Of course she did.
She always does.
She touched your armâgentle, grounding.
âHey. Wanna get some air?â
You nodded, maybe too quickly.
She didnât say another word. Just grabbed your coat, your hand, and walked you out the back door without anyone noticing.
The moment the cold air hit your face, you exhaled like you hadnât breathed in hours.
But it wasnât enough.
Your chest still felt tight. Your skin itched. Your heart wouldnât slow down.
You pressed your hands to your temples.
âI canâtâI canât shut it off,â you whispered. âItâs too loud in my head.â
Ellie didnât try to reason with you.
She didnât say "youâre okay,â or âcalm down.â
Instead, she nodded slowly, took both your hands in hers, and said:
âOkay. Then weâll make it quiet.â
She led you to the stables, where it smelled like hay and saddle leather, not perfume and stress. Where the only noise was a soft whinny and your own uneven breathing.
She pulled you into an empty stall, sat you down, and knelt in front of you.
âHands on me,â she said gently.
You hesitated.
âCâmon. Just... hold onto my jacket.â
You gripped the soft fabric, trembling.
âOkay,â she whispered. âBreathe in for four. Like this.â
She exaggerated her inhale, slow and deep.
You mirrored her.
âNow hold it... three... two... and let it go.â
You exhaled.
âAgain.â
She did this with you for five minutes.
Every time your eyes darted to the shadows, she squeezed your knee.
Every time your breath hitched, she whispered: âWith me.â
She didnât leave you in that storm.
She sat in it with you.
And eventually⊠the waves calmed.
You opened your eyes. The buzzing was gone. The weight on your chest was lighter.
Ellie smiled softly.
âHey. There you are.â
âIâm sorry,â you whispered. âFor ruining the night.â
She shook her head. âYou didnât ruin anything. You just needed space. Thatâs not a crime.â
You leaned forward, pressing your forehead to hers.
She stayed perfectly stillâquiet, solid, safe.
âNext time,â she whispered, âwe skip the party and hide in the barn from the start.â
You laughed, weakly. But real.
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oh my god, thank you sm! I really appreciate it! I really do try to add different things in each of my posts to spice it up y'know? Im so happy you like my work<33