𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗘 𝗕𝗔𝗖𝗞 !? ♪

✶﹐STARS SECRET DIARY﹒ᶻz ☆

I just thought this would be a cool thing to do !! ♪

Hello everyone! My name is star (not really) but you can call me dreamcatcher if you want! I'm a Capricorn. My favorite colors are pink and yellow. I'm an infp and my favorite food is anything pasta!

LIKES :D

★ Art, painting, fashion, writing, creative writing, crochet, amigurumi, converse shoes, sparkly/flashy items, my room, food, avocados, horror movies, Stu Macher (my soulmate), science, biology, etc

DISLIKES D:

★ Ignorant people (like educate yourself), invading space, no respect for boundaries, racist mofos, transphobia, homophobia, math, people who can't mind their business, mean mofos, etc.

FAVORITES !!:

shows - I am not okay with this, the girl from nowhere and stranger things

movies - IT, as above so below, mean girls, kick ass, the taking of Deborah Logan, paranorman, coraline and kubo and the two strings

artists - tylerthecreator, melanie martinez, ashnikko, poppy, tierra whack, rico nasty, baby tate, sza, kendrick lamar and cavetown.

FAVORITE SONGS !?:

20 something - sza

after the storm by kali uchis (feat. tylerthecreator)

come on, let's go by tylerthecreator

pluto by melanie martinez

we'll never have sex by leith ross

love by kendrick lamar

hell n back by bakar

glued by melanie martinez

Why do ppl complain about “stolen” themes, like your purple collage and lines is not unique 😭 you’re not the only person who likes the color red and Gojo?! Idk it’s stupid that ppl are literally harassed off this app because of this

JEALOUSY + FERRIS WHEEL RIDE !?

Stu Macher X Reader

summery: stu gets a little jealous when you always hang out with friends instead of him. after a heated argument concerning him and your friends you both promise to make plans for the two of you tomorrow.

warning !!: small angst & cussing

word count: 715

I just wanna say please be nice to me as this is like my first time writing in a while 😭. Please tell me what you think I could do better.

𝗝𝗘𝗔𝗟𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗬 𝗝𝗘𝗔𝗟𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗬 ♪

“All your friends are so cool, you go out every night. In your daddy's nice car, yeah, you're living the life.”

Jealousy - Olivia Rodrigo

It was 1:30pm. You invited Stu to spend time with you and your friends at a carnival because he kept complaining about how you never invited him to anything. But, unfortunately Stu wasn't following you or your friends. He seemed to follow way behind the rest of you and didn't play any games. He didn't seem like himself. But he seemed fine every time you'd ask if he was okay. It took you a while to realize his behavior was off. You and your friends were playing clown water balloon blast and you (literally amazing at everything) won a prize! It was a large pastel blue elegant. Perfect for Stu. Maybe this might make him feel better?

But all of the sudden Stu wasn't anywhere to be seen. You started searching for him and asking your friends if they had seen him. You searched every ride and game. He wasn't even on the benches. Until you saw a beige sweater moving through the crowd towards the main entrance. It was Stu! You immediately ran through, occasionally bumping into people. You finally reached him and got in front of him.

Y/N: “Stu! Where were you!? Why would you leave like that? I've been looking everywhere for you.” Stu scoffed and a sarcastic smile tugged at his lips

Stu: “Don't act like you missed me.” You looked at Stu and crossed your arms.

Y/N: “What the fuck is that supposed to mean!?”

Stu: “Why would you!? You're always doing shit with your dumb ass friends.”

Y/N: “You could've asked for me to hang out with you more!”

Stu: “Y/N, I have. And you don't seem half as excited when you're with me! Y'know something? I am sick and tired of those little fucking friends of yours.”

Y/N: “Well I'm sorry I'm having fun!”

Stu: “And you can't have fun with me!?” there was cold silence and tension was slowly dying down.

Y/N: “Look, Stu..how about we make some plans to hang out more or something-”

Stu: “More? There shouldn't be a ‘more’. I'm your boyfriend. You should make time for me.”

Y/N: “Well I'm trying to negotiate with you right now, Stu.”

Stu: “Are the plans gonna be actually fun? Wouldn't want you running to your cunt faced friends again.”

Y/N: “Don't call them that! Stu, would you please just listen!?” Stu crossed his arms and waited for you to say something. He looked annoyed and impatient.

Y/N: “What if..to make up for it...we can hang out at the carnival by ourselves? No friends tagging along, just me and you.” Stu stood there and thought about it.

Stu: “If we do...we have to make plans to hangout tomorrow. No backing out either.” you sighed and hugged him. Resting your head on his chest.

Y/N: “Okay...”

Stu: “Promise?” he hugged you back tightly, after kissing your head through your hair.

Y/N: “I promise.” Stu and you walked hand in hand as you walked towards the ferris wheel. “Oh I almost forgot..” You handed him the pastel blue elephant. “For you.”

Stu: He jokingly gasps and places a hand in front of his mouth “For me!?” you nod and hand it over. He jokingly squeals and takes it from you. “Thank you, he's so adorable!” he smiled.

Y/N: “You're welcome.” you held back laughter. It was nice to see Stu back to his normal self. He was always so cute when he was happier. You and Stu continued to play games, buy cotton candy, ride the ferris wheel and take pictures in the photo booth. The night couldn't have gotten better. Soon it was time to go home and stop by Stu's place to drop him off.

Stu: “Remember our deal, baby.” He got out of the car and went to your side of the car to talk to you through the rolled down window.

Y/N: “ I remember! Go inside!”

Stu: “I love you.” He kissed you. Before finally going inside the house. He waved a dramatic goodbye and blew kisses, causing you to giggle. You eventually drove back home. Getting undressed into pj's, and thinking about all the things you could do with Stu. As you laid down to rest, Stu had managed to enter your dreams. Allowing you to explore sweet fantasies of your future plans.

me bopping along to the live action snow white soundtrack while laughing at the fact that grown adults lost their damn minds over a disney movie

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 -- ♪

pooks were just planning things out rn okay 😔✋?

☾ - fluff,, 𖤐 - smut ,, ❀ - angst

ANIMAL ROOM☠️

Doug Van Housen

coming soon!!

DEAD MANS CURVE†

Tim

coming soon !

SENSELESS ☎️♪

Tim LaFlour

come to my room ?

more coming !!

SCREAM 🔪🩸

Stu Macher ﹒𐙚

jealousy, jealousy ♪ + carnival ❀

legs up, or toes down ♪ 𖤐

call me back !? ♪ ❀ & 𖤐

more coming!!

KICKASS 🎧♪

Dave Lewinski ˎˊ-꒷

to be continued....

COD 🚨 !?

Ghost - to be continued....

Keegan - to be continued....

Köing - to continued....

LORD OF THE RINGS ✩﹒ᶻz﹒

Frodo Baggins

to be continued....

! THE FACULTY ♡﹒ᶻz

Casey Conner

to be continued...

♡﹒PEACEMAKER﹢﹒ᶻ﹒

Adrian Chase

to be continued....

✶﹐BULLET TRAIN﹢﹒

Tangerine

to be continued...

Stu Macher X F!Reader

summary: stu decides to take advantage of you while holding you at gun point.

warnings !!: SMUT 18+, gun play, perv activities, a lil graphic, pet names, degradation, cussing, yelling

word count: 886

Y'ALL HAVE MERCY ON ME 💀 IM RUSTY 🙏🏽 !!

𝗗𝗢 𝗪𝗛𝗔𝗧 𝗜 𝗦𝗔𝗬 !! ♪

“Are you pussy, are you scared? Be my bitch, get in my lair. I don't fuck with scaredy cats. Play with pussy if it scratch.”

Do What I Say - Lucy Loone

You just witnessed Stu and Billy kill someone in his parents house. You were fucking star struck. You had no words. You slowly backed away from Stu and slowly shook your head. Stu finally caught on to you and locked eyes onto you. He moved closer to you as you backed up.

Stu: “What's wrong, baby?” he grinned. He and his sweater were covered in blood. He twirled a knife in his hands as he approached you. “Shh…bunny..I won't hurt you.” His smile grew wider and wider as he approached you. He had you cornered. You were behind the kitchen island and he was in front. He took out a gun and rested his head on his arms on top of the island. “Are you scared, little bunny?” He laughed as he watched your body shake and twitch as you stood in fear.

Stu: “Why don't we do something fun? What if we played a game together?” He rose up from the island and pointed the gun at you, smiling.“How does that sound?”

Y/N: “What type of game?...”

Stu: “Y'know I just made it up. Bunnies and Slashers.” He loaded the gun. Causing you to jump in response.

Y/N: “How do you play-” you said, shaking.

Stu: “No need to ask. We can start right now.” Stu points the gun at you. “Just do what I say, princess. Now…show me your tits..”

Y/N: “Bu-”

Stu: “Do what the fuck I say! Take off your fucking shirt. Show me your fucking tits!” He yelled. His voice carried thought-out the whole house. He was getting impatient by the second waiting for you to finally reveal them to him. “Do you want me to shoot you?” You slowly reached around the trim of your shirt and gently pulled up. Taking it off while holding your hands up. Stu smiled and checked you out and the color of your bra and the shape they made inside of the pretty lace.

Stu: “And the bra.” He lowered the gun and waited silently. You reached behind you and struggled to unclip the back. Stu chuckled and walked over to you, causing your breath to hitch. “Shh…you're good. Not gonna hurt you, bunny.” He came behind you and tugged at a bra strap to pull you closer. “Not yet..” he unclipped it for you and watched it fall gently. The fabric that hugged you, released and let in cold air.

Stu breathed on your neck, whispering in your ear. “You're so beautiful…how about we take this skirt off?” He placed his hand around your hip, gripping firmly. His mouth and nose meeting the side of your head, his words vibrated through your hair. “Take off the fucking skirt…” He moved the gun to your back. “Take it off…” He whispered in your ear. A wide grin was painted across his face as he saw your hands pull down your skirt, trying to pull back up your panties. “Leave em…” You decided to let your panties fall off with your skirt. Stu whistled and let out a groan, taking in your backside.

Stu: ”Turn around for me, pleasee” He waited for you to turn but you refused to move. His grin faded, he put the gun to the back of your head. “Ya’see, you either turn around, or I'm gonna put a fucking bullet in that pretty little head of yours…” You felt the gun dig through your hair to your scalp. Despite him being so aggressive and the immense fear that filled the air. You found Stu, hot? You for some reason had some sick fascination with the whole thing. What was wrong with you? Why were you even complying? Why not let him shoot you? Unless…you liked what he was doing to you. You slowly turned around to face him. “That's it, turn around…” he groaned as he watched you.

Stu: “Now, little bunny, time for phase three of our little game!” He giggled, taking out a polaroid camera and set his ghost face mask on the counter. He also took out scissors and a roll of duct tape. “Stay still!” He took some duct tape and put it over your mouth and taped your wrists together. He put on the ghost face mask and grabbed the Polaroid camera. Before actually taking a picture, he grabbed a handful of your hair and brung your head back. He brought the camera closer. “Say, ‘cheese’!” He chuckled as the camera flashed and the picture almost instantly printed. Stu wiggled it, making it develop faster.

Stu: “Aww! Look how pretty you are, bunny!” He showed you the picture and took the tape off your mouth. “You wanna see something cool I can do with my tongue!?” He slipped the mask off. You didn't answer, you just stared at him. His demeanor instantly changed. It became colder. His expression, instantly softened into a cold stare. A grin tugged in the corner of his lips. He brought the gun to your forehead. “I saaaidd…do you wanna see something cool I can do with my tongue?” You nodded. Stu picked you up and laid you on the island. “There we go…now just stay still.”

TO BE CONTINUED !? 😨😱😧

(Sorry y'all, I just really need to sleep and I haven't written anything in months. 💀)

Tim LaFlour X Reader

summary: after a day out with tim he invites you to his dorm and offers to show you his room. he also has a confession to make.

warnings !!: small praise, cussing, semi sexual tension, semi smut, semi gender specific compliments, fluff ?

word count: 685

Besties, please be nice to me. I'm rusty and please (nicely) tell me how to improve with writing.

𝗗𝗢 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗪𝗔𝗡𝗡𝗔 𝗦𝗘𝗘 𝗠𝗬 𝗥𝗢𝗢𝗠 ?

“no really...I insist..I'll show you everything...”

You and Tim we're walking on the street, laughing with each other. You stopped in front of his dorm building. Tim let out a small sigh,

Tim: “You wanna go up to my dorm?”

Y/N: “Oh..I really shouldn't.”

Tim: “Oh come on! It'll be fun..just for a second, okay?” You nodded and walked upstairs with him. He had on a black and red striped sweater, baggy low-rise jeans, a chain cross necklace, dirty black converse, and white above ankle socks. He excitedly stopped in front of his dorm door.

Tim: “Here we are! Beautiful isn't it?” he fakely sighed and pressed his cheek against the door. And you both giggled. “Soo..do you wanna like…go inside at all or?” He moved from the door and came a little closer. Silently giving you siren eyes.

Y/N: “I should really get home-”

Tim: “But it's uh…cold outside, plus you haven't even seen my room yet! I promise that my room is cool as fuck!” You both laugh as he keeps talking. “I promise.”

Y/N: “It’s really cool?”

Tim: “Super…cool..” He came closer, he was slightly towering over you. It felt as though within the silence, Tim was thinking about reaching out to touch you. The silence was; for some reason; exotic? Tim kept looking down at you. His eyes seemed to be creating images of what you'd look like unclothed, you didn't know for sure, but you were certain. He suddenly cleared his throat.

Tim: “Uh…do you wanna go inside now?” You nodded. And you noticed how Tim was a little nervous, it was kinda cute. He showed you the bathroom, Darryl's room as he wasn't home, and you finally reached his room. He sat down on the side of his bed and looked at you as you came in. “Welcome to my lair!” he giggled and jumped on the bed as you sat down next to where he previously sat. He bounced back down to sit on the bed and looked at you. “Sooooo…what do you think!? Is it cool as fuck?”

Y/N: “Yup..it's amazing” you said, unimpressed.

Tim: “Ohh, Come on! My room is amazing. Especially my bed. You see how soft this is!? Feel this shit. Move real quick.” He got up under the covers and the sheet and looked at you as you stood up and smiled. “Get under the covers with me! It's so fucking soft I swear.” You sighed and got underneath beside Tim. He poked your cheek and quickly looked at a wall like he didn't do anything.

Y/N: “Wh…did you poke me?!?” you chuckled and he looked at you “confused”.

Tim: “Who? Me? Pfft! What? No! I would..I would never!” His laughter tried to break in as he tried to speak with a straight face. You lightly nugged his shoulder. You two locked eyes again. He seemed to slowly lean in as he looked at you. His eyes softened and he licked his lips. He seemed to study your face as well as you looked at him. He caressed your face and slowly leaned in. “Can I?” You nodded, and with your silent consent Tim kissed you. And then more and more followed. With every kiss, his hands decided to explore you and hold you. One hand slightly held your hair and face, the other holding at your waist.

Tim: “I don't know if right now is the right time to say this…but..I've always thought you were so gorgeous. And I have had a crush on you for the longest time..”

Y/N: “I like you too actually..”

Tim: “You do?”

Y/N: “Mhm”

Tim: “Holy shit…no way! Are you fucking serious!? No fucking way! Really!?” The excitement on his face was adorable. He kissed you again. “Do you maybe wanna…go out some time?”

Y/N: “Uh, yes!? Of course I would!”

Tim: “Sweet! When can I pick you up? 3:00pm? Mall?”

Y/N: “Sure, Tim” You kissed him again and he smiled as he pulled away.

Tim: “I must be dreaming..” You both laugh and look at each other. Before exchanging more soft kisses.

[y'all it's 12:49am. I gotta go to BED.]

"proving" shifting through scientific evidence (& philosophic theory)

this post is heavily inspired by @voldyateme on tiktok. i saw her video and decided to do research on my own, and write a detailed post about this topic to make myself understand better. i also would like to mention that some of the claims irene made in her tiktok were wrong (and biased) i also wanted to clear some things up for myself.

fyi: long post ahead. this took me three days to understand and write. i might still be a bit unclear on my understanding of some aspects, but to avoid having to write a whole novel on the subject, i simplified my findings and shortened them by a lot.

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john clauser is a physicist who won the nobel peace prize in 2022 for his work on quantum entanglement. his theory confirms that quantum particles can be entangled across vast distances, and that their behaviors are instantly connected, even if they're light years apart.

a very simplified example:

i: you create two entangled particles

ii: you send particle A to tokyo, and particle B to paris

iii: a person in tokyo measures particle A and sees it spinning up, then instantly, meaning instantly, faster than light, the person in paris will know particle B is spinning down

this is simply based on particle A or B's observation, w/o there having to be sent any message or signal between them. they behave as if they're one system - not two separate ones.

the moment you measure one particle, you're instantly aware of the other particle's state.

⭒ relating quantum entanglement to shifting:

okay so now we know that entangled particles act as of they're one system, even through long distances. so, if everything was once connected to the big bang, then on some level, everything may still be entangled. meaning you, your consciousness and other "versions" of yourself in other realities.

this could therefore suggest that we are already connected to all possible versions of ourselves. they exist within a quantum field of potential, and our awareness can shift between these versions by tuning into the version we desire - essentially by choosing a different frequency.

say you're listening to the radio. you know that you’re able to listen to any radio broadcast because there are thousands playing at the same exact time, but you choose which one to listen to, knowing you have the choice to change it to another.

it's the same exact with shifting. you know that there are endless versions of you in existence right this moment - you only have to choose to become aware of your desired self.

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john wheeler, another physicist, proved that reality is directly linked to our consciousness and what we observe. it's been demonstrated that particles don't move until they're actually observed. so if we're not observing something, it doesn't have a definite state at all. this is called the "observer effect"

the effect has challenged and in some ways helped disprove einstein's theory of realism. einstein believed that that the physical world exists independently of whether we observe it or not.

example: according to einstein, if a tree falls in a forest and no one is there to observe it, the tree still falls. this is shown to be false on a quantum level. that said, we can't w/ certainty say that the tree does (or doesn’t) exist if no one is perceiving it (confusing, trust me, i know)

wheeler also proved that particles will change their makeup based on our choices and observation. simplified, this means that reality doesn't fully decide its state until it's observed. it can have different outcomes, and our choices affect the past behavior of particles.

⭒ relating the observer effect to shifting:

we know that quantum particles don't take on a definite form or "reality" until they're observed. this implies that our observation plays a direct role in shaping reality - not just by watching, but also deciding. this implies that reality isn't fixed, but fluid, shaped by our decisions, thoughts and observations and means we can "choose" our reality.

quantum physics shows that reality isn't fixed until observed, observation and consciousness do play a key role and that multiple outcomes are possible. so our consciousness focus can be said to be the mechanism that "shifts" us into a desired timeline or reality.

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way before quantum physics existed, george berkley, a philosopher in the 1700s argued the idea "to be is to be perceived", which is eerily similar to what scientists are exploring today.

he believed that physical objects don't exist independently of our own perception. so if no one is for example perceiving a tree, then it doesn't exist.

berkeley said that there is no such thing as matter existing on its own w/o a mind to perceive it. BUT! there's a twist. you see, berkley also argued the existence of God being necessary to explain how the world works within his theory of perception and idealism.

okay so, to simplify because it can be really confusing:

i: physical things only exist if they're being perceived.

ii: when humans aren't perceiving things, God is.

iii: the reason why the world keeps existing even when we're not looking is because God is always "watching".

this raises the question: if we're not perceiving something, and the only reason it exists because God is, then how do we know it actually exists when we're not perceiving it?

berkeley responded:

"we know it exists because we can come back and perceive it again, and it behaves consistently"

if you look at a tree, walk away, come back. it's still there. berkeley argued that you assume the tree existed the whole time because when you go back, the tree would still be there, at the exact same spot.

this consistency would therefore be explained by God's continuous perception of it. so even though you didn't perceive it the whole time, the fact that reality is orderly and consistent is reliable "proof" that something (God) kept it there.

critics have argued back that assuming God is perceiving all the time isn't proof that He actually is, so how would we know that?

the answer is: w/o God, things would just pop in and out of existence every time we blink and that doesn't happen. so God is used to explain why the world is consistent and stable even when we're not watching.

you can't personally perceive something that you're not perceiving, but you trust that it's still there when you go back there, because of God.

berkeley's theory is still relevant today because the things he imagined in the 1700s do line up w/ scientific discoveries today and i resonate w/ his theory, so i just had to include it even though God’s existence isn’t proven. it’s fascinating, really.

⭒ relating george’s idealism to reality shifting:

if, like berkeley said, things only exist when they're being perceived, and if reality stays consistent because someone is always perceiving it, then that means perception isn't just passive, it's creative and shapes what exists.

this ties back to shifting beacuse it suggests that your desired reality doesn't need to "appear" in front of you for it to be real - it only needs to be perceived. if you consciously focus on your dr, perceiving it in your mind as real, then by berkeley's logic, it is real, maybe not in the physical sense just yet, but within the field of awareness that gives rise to reality in the first place.

so basically: if reality is perception based, and you're perceiving your dr, then you're giving form to something that exists because you're actively perceiving it, and you are capable of being in that place.

THE HOLY GRAIL †

☾ - fluff,, 𖤐 - smut ,, ❀ - angst,, ★ - normalish

ANIMAL ROOM☠️

Doug Van Housen

(under construction 🚧)

DEAD MANS CURVE†

Tim Jackson

(under construction 🚧)

SCREAM 🔪🩸

Stu Macher ﹒𐙚

jealousy, jealousy ♪ + carnival ❀

legs up, or toes down ♪ 𖤐

call me back !? ♪ ❀ & 𖤐

do what I say ! 𖤐

more coming!!

SENSELESS ☎️♪

Tim LaFlour

come to my room? ♪ ☾ & ★

more coming!!

KICKASS 🎧♪

Dave Lewisnki

(under construction 🚧)

COD 🚨 !?

Koing (under construction 🚧)

Ghost (under construction 🚧)

Keegan (under construction 🚧)

LORD OF THE RINGS ✩﹒ᶻz﹒

Frodo Baggins

(under construction 🚧)

! THE FACULTY ♡﹒ᶻz

Casey Conner

(under construction 🚧)

♡﹒PEACEMAKER﹢﹒ᶻ﹒

Adrian Chase

(under construction 🚧)

✶﹐BULLET TRAIN﹢﹒

Tangerine

(under construction 🚧)

i think what makes me the most annoyed abt the asks/comments/dms i’ve been receiving is that people automatically assume we all act like this irl. do u think just bc i write the reader as hyperfeminine/a virgin/naive/yada yada yada that im like that outside of tumblr???? no! im not!

and about the “setting the feminist movement back” BC OF A SHORT FICTION STORY I WROTE????? it’s actually mind boggling to me.

there are SO many other things that y’all should be worrying about. maybe the genocide that’s happening? maybe the war between Ukraine and Russia? maybe the deaths of innocent people who are using their voice to raise awareness for what’s happening in Palestine?

focus. on. shit. that. matters.