Memories Of A Time Spent On Zamami Island. Where I Camped, Where I Met The Rain. これは、僕の秋のスケッチ。座間味島で描きました。

Last week’s weekend escape to Pamilacan Island! It was so nice and peaceful huhu my best afternoon naps were here  (~￣▽￣)~

There was no “water” so we just washed our hair with salt water haha

Even in the tiniest details could make a difference. 😌💚

things to pay attention to

the tiny specks of colour in their eyes

the bass and background sounds in a song

starlight on a cloudy night

how someone looks when they think nobody can see them

the mannerisms of a stranger

real meanings behind spoken words

subtle facial expressions which last a second

the underlying flavours in food

emotions that a friend is trying to hide

little lights in a sleeping city

flowers growing through cracks in the pavement

the mixed colour palette in a piece of art

the melody of someone’s voice

my intuition is telling me to start a planner despite it’s the beginning of the late year : ~)

it's a big week, y'all

Scenery Practice 🌱

Found a beautiful photo set of From Up On Poppy Hill on Twitter and decided to paint them. I’ve got to say that I am actually learning perspectives and painting details in these works such the sunlight, shadows, and especially in painting them distinctly (when it comes to the distance of the trees and other objects). Scenery from films like Ghibli and Shinkai help a lot and I’m really trying to incorporate these ooh moments I’ve had right now, hopefully & eventually using it for another project which will be painting my favorite corners/places in my city. (yay soon)🌞🎨✏

“Everything done with purpose, pure intent, through love and in balance, reaps great reward.✨ @dulceruby”

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Hello old friend, I sent you out there years ago and you went and spread a lot of good karma, I just need your favour again, help me find some work 🧡

eagle hunting

Watercolor My Heart’s Content

Yay we are now at the end of the year with new paperssss lol.

I must say that the previous watercolor papers I’ve been using was a little bit of a bummer because they don’t hold that much water compared to other papers. It kinda led me into doubt that maybe I wasn’t meant to watercolor but it has resolved now after buying a new one after a year *BIG RELIEF*

So much trust in those papers, it said 190 g/m2 D:

Anyway, I’m back with goals and meaningful comebacks haha. As what I have said in my 2015 goal is to post EVERY month of my progress, aaand I let you down on that. But still, I've promised myself that watercolor will be my medium for this year so here it goes :)

First months:

I think I was using more color than water like acrylic hehe.

Hopelessness started around here. Read/looked up on various ways on watercoloring and they said that it uses less color and more water making it very light. So I tried it and it looked like a colorful puddle ;_; See how it doesn’t hold much water ;_;

I felt sad and all so I played watercolor a bit on regular paper (of course I had to paint an eye, I love eyes). I guess I was lucky that it turned out to be Elsa I was painting haha (on regular paper ;_;).

Again I tried and this time I used less water and less paint. It was hard but it turned out nice, but you could still see water-y parts though.

Then Inktober came and decided to join. It wasn’t fully watercolor.

School came along during the later months but I had to do something > <

It was not ‘til early December I replaced my watercolor paper since the only available one here is Pheonix (Berkeley and Canson is here now whyyy). I told someone to get a Canson/Berkely for me since she was in Manila that time.

Tried again, this time less paint and more water.

Seeee??? I was sooo satisfied ;_; I thought I was gone with painting for good, turns out it was the paper’s fault. The anxiety was gone for good. ;_;

What I Learned:

Watercolor need suuuper patience

Watercolor is soft, and subtle as clouds in the sky

Quality over quantity (especially materials *_*)

Don’t lose track of what’s important. :)

Today is the 30th of December 2015 (Rizal Day wohooo), a little bit windy but I’m looking forward to next year’s adventure. :)

Hopes & Dreams,

- Hana  花

Quarter II Rants (sorry)

I deserve a good long summer vacation!!

(4/8/19: Samal Island, Davao del Norte, PH)

☕ Quarter I was all about finishing tasks, senior thesis, and graduation. Those three months finally passed and I’m grateful to say I did a pretty good job keeping my shit together. This is my self-report of my second quarter of 2019 with the intention of moving on after six years of my environment molding me into an anxious stem student but who also has the intention of doing art in the future. It was hard juggling two different things, and I bet it will also get harder soon. I flunked my exam to get to my dream uni/arts course. The only doors open for me were science courses but soredemo I’m still grateful for these chances. Maybe the universe is still saying “not yet” to myself for now.

Days after I checked my exam results and the morning after graduation day, I immediately flew south to attend a youth conference with my relatives. To me, it felt like an escape from my problems back home by sheltering myself through the event. There were lots of self-reflection and I can definitely say it helped me made some decisions. Don’t get me wrong, I actually did had a fun time!! No regrets.

(4/9/19: Pithecophaga jifferyi sketches - The Philippine Eagle Center, Malagos, Davao City, PH)

☕ Witnessed Kamikazee and December Avenue music huhu 💕 Feels surreal to hear your songs from spotigy/youtube on replay to live concerts with tons of people.

(4/2919: Kamikazee - HNU Oval)

(5/1/19: December Avenue - CPG Sports Complex)

☕ Did a beach/underwater-themed wedding guestbook commission!! I had fun experimenting different textures for the cover, illustrating a photo of them together, and painting different sea creatures on the pages!!

☕ Had a 20-days summer job at the provincial capitol. They newly built the place and was assigned to a very pretty office. Also met new found friends!! 💕

☕ We did our part for World Oceans Day with a beach cleanup held by Plastic Free Bohol (a local NGO I hope to volunteer more often!!) After picking up trashes, we went ahead to find a good spot to chill/sun bask with my friends.

(6/8/19: World Oceans Day - Doljo Beach, Panglao Island & Bool, Tagbilaran City, Bohol)

Other friends also did a mini mangrove planting project in Bool’s coastal areas!! So proud of my batch mates 💕

As someone who’s taking a college course that mainly covers ocean conservation and marine life (maybe in another post hehe), figured at least participate local cleanups (as if it’s our last haha) even if commuting to the venue’s a challenge, all efforts definitely doesn’t go to waste :)

Quarter II was an experience of taking my longest break and I definitely believe that I deserved that haha! Quarter III starts this month and all college prep should start now. School starts in August so I think I still have time lounging on this cave lol

I think I made good decisions so far and had good realizations during my break. Whatever happens, happens. I did my work and arrived setbacks, but I’ll try and try again no matter how long it takes. I’m also interested in my upcoming field in uni so I’ll take it as a stepping stone to my intentions, old and new. :)

Lalaban po ako ulit.

Hopes and dreams,

- 花 🌸

I FINALLY MADE IT TO A ONE OK ROCK CONCERT 😭✨

 Who knew I’d go and finally witness their music years after I found them on youtube playing most of their live concerts rather than their studio recordings.

2017 was made up of panic attacks, breakdowns, severe acne, real decisions, tears, a broken heart, self-care attempts (that really helped huhu) and failures. It sucks to start the year with crushed hopes and dreams that ended me but I also wanted to feel hope again, because I know that I have the will to also do the things I love. So I started again 🌞

Because I knew I was going to be stuck for a while, I promised to myself to do the things I love just as much as I'll work hard in the current decision I've taken. And along that path, I found out that I could possibly go to an Ambitions Asia Tour. I was also shookt myself lol

I extremely saved money since they announced their event, raged my dreamz of listening them live to my journal, dog, family, and friends (and believed that she can't just like others who wanted to see concerts hmp), constantly and desperately checking promo flights from every airline, asked help to extended relatives in the city if they wanted to have me infiltrate their home for a while, etc. Everything was never under my hands and this show was a game stopper for the past months of 2017. Four remaining months of saving, singing their songs (new and old alike), praying, and more praying that everything would fall into place, 2017 ended just like that. To me, the year felt quick and I was happy for its pace.

bonus: sight seeing at Taal Lake, Tagaytay in 21°c weather, yellow suitcase for Ambitions MNL 💛

(As if I'm in Osaka in their early days huhu), the atmosphere first felt like I was one of the audience of the Yokohama concert way back 2014 (oh youtube)

Mighty Long Fall

My friend who came with me said I should've scream like others in a concert and not just sing with the whole arena. Nah man, I prefer to sit down and listen to them doing what they love, sing with the people, jump or raise our freakin hands up rather than adding noise whenever. (I did scream and gave them a big applause when they talked and all did solos huhu esp taka during clock strikes and toru and his guitar solos 💓)

MY FIRST BAND SHIRT 😭

Not only I was looking forward to see the four playing, I was also very very happy of witnessing the whole crew of ONE OK ROCK, the lighting technicians (kudos 🙌), videocam crew for an amazing job (I felt like I was watching their youtube videos but live & irl 😂), security, organizers, and esp their official photographer @julenphoto , the same guy who shoots for their instagram photos huhu 💓

ONE OK ROCK welcomed my new year with hope and that I still could do something with these little hands of mine, slowly but surely. So as long as you keep your own pace and that you don't mind everyone else's journey, you have your own and in your own speed, you can have what it takes to be who you are and finish what you've started with courage, good attitude, and ofc love. 💖

Anything they say will never break our hearts of gold.

Hopes and dreams forevermore,

-花。