Why Can't Anyone Love Me Like I Love Them. Like Just Matching A Fraction Of My Obsession Would Be More

Me flirting

Not to be delusional. But I've been writing his name in my pad this 2 days. Yesterday we didn't cross paths, but today we did and he actually looked at me. He didn't just glaze his gaze over me, he took proper looks. Never happened before hihi

I'm so sleepy, I feel like I'm sick. Moving my body is hard. But I still have to cut myself for eating before I go to sleep.

I wish I had someone who I could tell about about feelings. I just want to speak then to someone so they would suffocate me even a little less.

i want to cut so bad but i left my blade at home. my only hope is my pencil sharpener, but i left my scisors back at the apartment aswell.

I wish I was loved

It's so weird feeling that you have a lot of love to give, but feeling as if you have no one to give that specific love to. Yes I have loved ones that that love me, that I keep living for really. But it's no the same.

And at the same time my mind just yearns to have someone to obsess over.

Having the thoughts again Ughhhhh. I just ate aswell

My brain is my biggest enemy. I'm randomly sitting in school, not even hungry and then out of a sudden BOOM!! An extremely strong urge to skip the rest of the school day to go and buy junk and then just spend my day eating. I can just feel common sense flowing out of my mind, but I must resist lol

I went to practice driving w my dad for the first time and when I came home it turned out we had a lot of bananas that were gonna go bad soon so I made bananabread out of over 30 bananas. Tried out like 5 different recipes. Only bad thing is I got work early tomorrow and I slept little last night aswell so tomorrow might be a hard one.

Why the fuck is he with her so much. It can't be a coincidence that so many times I've seen him he's with her. Are they dating? I'm 75% sure that girl is one of the girls that talked shit abt him, but things can change. He probs wants her, even if she doesn't want him. It makes me want cry, makes me want to carve up her pretty face so he would ignore her, makes me isolate him so he would only think about me, and it makes me want to cut myself to forget.