Thought Of You A Lot Today… Idk Why. I Miss You. You Have A Soft Voice And Warm Skin.

bpd culture is needing everyone to love you constantly

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you don’t understand my heart literally lights up when he texts me how can he not be for me when I feel this strongly about him for like four years now it’s not fair it’s not fair 😭😭😭😭😭

I want you to dig your hands into my flesh and pull all my bones out one by one and get rid of this humming ache under my skin

The way I was so upset and tired and I started to dissociate and drift off and then I got a text message from you and my mood instantly changed. I couldn’t stop smiling and I was bouncing on my feet. And you have no idea. Text me back u rat I need saving again.

i literally have to lay down after every minor task. going to the supermarket is a herculean effort. how am i supposed to live a life like this

I don’t know how to explain it but just being alive causes me pain

The world is too loud, existing is overwhelming, people expect so much more than I can give

I fail at being alive every single day

I feel so ashamed to be so broken

But I don’t know how to be any other way

life with bpd is always trying to fill a huge hole in your chest. you spend your life looking for a cure that doesn't really exist

I wish you loved me as violently and consumingly as I love you