04/27/2025

03/21/2025

I had a medical appointment this morning so I didn't start my part-time job until the afternoon, which also delayed my time to complete some schoolwork.

I find myself gravitating toward tasks that involve clinical work and blissfully neglecting my class assignments like 10-page papers and group presentations 😅 I haven't even looked at my thesis progress and created a new timeline yet. I don't think I have the mental energy to do any of this right now.

Maybe working with my energy and passion right now is the way to go ~

Completed

✅ medical appointment

✅ part-time work

✅ walk my dog

That's it for now, but I might come back and update this before the end of the day if I finish more tasks =)

Have a wonderful weekend, lovely humans 🩵

04/08/2025

Starting my studying at home at 10:32pm... It's ok, I'm just going to do my best until I let myself start getting ready to go to bed in an hour. I will need the sleep, and I cannot wait to rest because I have worked hard lately =)

Completed

✅ School ✅ Staff meeting (1.5 hours...) ✅ Part-time job ✅ Nap (2 hours 😮‍💨) ✅ Dinner/snack ✅ Clinic document (so proud! I've been procrastinating on this since Feb lol)

To-Dos

⏹️ Clinic report results 1 ⏹️ Clinic report results 2 ⏹️ Shower (I'll consider this in the morning 😅)

Kinda still feeling frustrated that my professor docked points because I have been getting to class late, but I literally have accommodations for that. I hope it's just that he forgot. I'll need to talk to him about it, and I'm not enthusiastic about it...

[End of study: 12:08am] Ok, I'm calling it a day because I don't want to push my sleep back any further. Good night, lovely humans 🩵

Day 4

On days like this, I feel like I'm stepping backward, unwinding all the hard work I've put forward in the past few days. It hasn't even been a week yet...

My dog has been whining right before I go to bed to be taken out. Having presentations and essays back-to-back for my classes. Group projects are due soon. Spring break is in a few days. My thesis work is ongoing but not where I need it to be. - Things just aren't right.

I want to feel excited again. I want to feel alive again. I want to be free.

When I got home from school today, I laid down on the couch and started reading a webnovel. I ended up napping for two hours, and then realize that I still need to make food and it'll be time for bed. But I still have my daily assignments I need to get done, and my notes, and my thesis, and... My mind is going in a spiral but my body is moving like a turtle. All I want to do is read my webnovel and escape my stressful reality at the moment.

I'm going to muster the little strength that I still have to complete the essentials for tomorrow, and then call it a night. Maybe it is a day of necessary rest today.

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

Not feeling that great physically today and ran late to my first meeting...

Adding another Pinterest collage to my collection to help me refocus and keep moving at my own pace =)

OK ranting a little before I start...

I'm kinda sick and tired of people telling me all I need is discipline and consistency. Like you think I've never considered that??? That's what people say, like EVERYWHERE!

Has anyone thought maybe there is more to these two words? Or maybe there's more to people who consistently "fail" at discipline and consistency?

Before I make a tough decision every day - whether it is whether I should skip my class or what I want to eat for lunch - maybe I can stop and ask what my future self would like me to do? And then maybe I can finally be at peace when I choose to rest when I'm tired and enjoy my time with friends without feeling guilty.

03/24/2025

I updated my semester planner over the weekend and am ready to refocus my time and energy to finish my 4th semester in this program.

I was caught up with time-sensitive tasks and reworking my planner again for most of today, but I promised my accountability buddy that I would work on my thesis at least a little. I need to remind myself that:

It is never too late to start a task; it is never a failure to revise a plan.

I can't say for sure that I come back stronger each time. But I know I come back wiser and more rested with every setback.

Completed

✅ Scheduled medical appointment (finally!)

✅ Read all school emails and replied

✅ Updated semester planner for the next 1.5 weeks (for 2 group projects)

✅ Updated calendar to work on group projects and thesis

✅ Wrote a personal article

✅ Therapy session

✅ Did laundry

✅ Find PPT slide for group project

Thesis Tasks

✅ Updated thesis writing schedule for this week

✅ Review advisor's feedback on thesis draft

✅ Made 1 correction (I skimmed through an article for this so I'm calling it a win)

Today's study concluded at 1:24am.

Study Music 🎧:

"The House of Wind | Magical Night Under the Starts with ACOTAR Spring Court Ambience" - Prythian on YouTube

3/3/2025 Day 2

I changed my schedule yesterday and created a new plan. Seems to be working so far!

It feels a little weird to start doing my main task at 3pm, but I feel less pressured to wake up early and speed through my morning routine. Also, I noticed that I don't like checking my phone when I want to focus on my day. I feel slightly guilty for people who text me on a Monday, but seriously, I just want to be in my own head all day and focus on what I want to finish.

Side tangent: My dog was snoring and making growling sounds while he was napping today lol. He makes me feel alive 😂

This looks like my dog but is not my dog. Close enough =P

04/06/2025

I just realized I reblogged my post yesterday to my own account lmao... Still nice to have tracked my study progress nonetheless!

I decided to not go to the workshop today. I just can't. Everyone was complaining about it and I just feel like I need to stay away from it for myself. Like, why stay here and complain all day when you can either accept it for what it is or leave entirely. Sorry, just my brain trying to problem solve for others. My family has always looked down on complaining, so I guess I don't do much of that unless I know I need to vent (probably like now lol).

Anyway, a good time to start getting some work done and taking it easy for the day =)

Completed

✅ Breakfast ✅ Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama! ✅ Wash dishes (been slacking off on this hehe) ✅ Shower!! ✅ Check and reply to emails ✅ Register for Fall classes ✌🏻 ✅ Discussion post ✅ Update report writing timeline and email my professor ✅ Create bullet points for thesis ✅ Dinner ✅ Watch cdrama shorts

To-Dos

⏹️ Revise thesis writing ⏹️ File taxes ⏹️ [maybe] Clinic document

Not the most productive day for me, but I think I have been building the consistency I have wanted since the beginning of the year. I am now telling myself that I can be proud of my achievements and hard work even when I do not finish 100% of the tasks. There are different interruptions in life, and we can't control them all. So I choose to be grateful and content when I have tried my best. Let's do this again tmr 🩵

03/29/2025

Ugh March is almost over, and it freaks me out😵‍💫 I feel like this is the first time I don't know exactly how things will go and how I can get through with all my work and wrap up my semester... Maybe I've been here before, but every semester is a blur at this point.

Take it one day at a time, one day at a time. I need to keep repeating this to myself so I don't feel so terrified of the unknown that I run away from everything. Anxiety and stress are no joke.

Anime atm 😍: Earl and Fairy

Completed

✅ Video call with a friend

✅ Breakfast

✅ Surprise party for friends

✅ Watch repair (it took me a year to take it somewhere to fix lol)

✅ Lunch

✅ 1 episode of anime

✅ Group project 1 paper

✅ Rewatch Skip Beat ep 19 (iykyk)

✅ Thesis (1 hours 😊) - I FINALLY DID IT!! SO PROUD!!

To-Dos

⏹️ Group project 2 paper

⏹️ Pay bills

I'm not letting myself go to bed unless I work on my thesis for 2 hours. My phone is locked away, so I know I can get it done. It really doesn't have to feel like a struggle every single day. I have finished harder things in the past 😤

Me with my thesis:

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

You got this!!! (which exactly 20 minutes before the day ends for me)