“So Often, A Visit To A Bookshop Has Cheered Me, And Reminded Me That There Are Good Things In The

“If I’ve learned one lesson from all that’s happened to me, it’s that there’s no such thing as the biggest mistake of your existence. There’s no such thing as ruining your life. Life’s a pretty resilient thing, it turns out.”

— Sophie Kinsella

250126

10/100 days of productivity

song of the day: headlock-imogen heap

got quite a lot done. had to catch up on a lot since i've spent the past week hanging out with friends and attending events.

academic: completed physics and chemistry notes, a physics problem set, a biology problem set, and started reviewing for my chemistry midterm next week.

research: had to organize a lot today with the wet lab team and had a meeting with my co-lead about our paper. i had to read a ton of research papers but it was quite fun.

selfcare: did my laundry and cooked dinner! dinner didn't turn out as well as i had hoped but it was my first time cooking in over a month. took a lot of energy so i'll prioritize sleeping tonight.

tomorrow: i need to finish my calculus problem set which is due in 5 days and submit a research application. i'll try and finish my paper for the journal but i don't think it's doable in one day. i also have a chemistry lab that i still don't fully understand yet.

250123

7/100 days of productivity

did my physics notes and some calculus practice. tiring day today.

It’s a privilege to study, many women around the world are barred from this human right: to read, write and learn. Be grateful anytime your pen touches paper, or you are learning theorems developed by intelligent, hardworking men and women from ages ago.

It’s a pleasure and a privilege to learn. Not only is it a privilege to study, but you should be aiming and striving to take science, medicine, law, philosophy, art further than the marker we have reached. It’s a comforting thought to think, from your work generations of humanity down the line will benefit.

How many brilliant women were in the shadows of amazing feats of science and technology and life changing patents? Contribute while you can. If you pour into knowledge - it will pour back into you.

drops them in a gothic horror au

250217/26

30-39/100 days of productivity

song of the week: b2b-charli xcx

it's been over a week since i last posted. i have been so stressed for my calculus midterm. i did over 250 integrals in five days, staying up until 4 am every day or not sleeping at all. my physics midterm got pushed to after the break so now i have three midterms back to back.

just had my calculus midterm last night and it honestly did not go well. this past week leading up to and after my exam definitely took a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally which undoubtedly affected my exam. but i'm going to try and stay motivated for my other classes and get a better mark on the calculus final.

i have so many lab reports and proposals to write now but at least reading week is next week and i'll be going home to see the sun.

pictures:

walking home after my midterm

6 am after studying all night

integrals on the classroom blackboard at 3 am (the janitor forgot to lock the door)

practice questions an hour before my midterm with friends

i simply adore the softness of winter. (i will be going back to icy uphill roads on campus in a week)

"My work, which I’ve done for a long time, was not pursued in order to gain the praise I now enjoy, but chiefly from a craving after knowledge, which I notice resides in me more than most other men” - Leeuwenhoek, 1716

2025

really shocking that it's 2025 already. 2024 was a journey of both self discovery and self annihilation, one that made me realize many harsh and beautiful truths about myself. i have learned a lot and look forward to using my knowledge this year. i will strive to protect my peace, find solace in silence, and taking things one step at a time, either forwards or backwards, all in the name of progress towards ambition.